muhahahahahahahaha today is teachers day man...actually ever since we enter secondary school these days are bearly celebrated...but at least we have holiday...everyone is so happy with it:)yesterday while everyone go school I studied 2 hours and then walk to peicai to meet the girls...went serangoon gardens to slack and talk about prom night...hahahahahaha...ok...we are going prom apparently...tehn I decided to visit Christie's house...because I don't want to go home and anyway I have to go bishan at 530 pm...if I go home I will sleep at home le...so go her house lo:) Her house have a what I call "wolf dog"...hahahaha the 3rd dog i touch in my whole life:) Fisrt was Cherie's Candy then the 2nd was Clarrie's doy which lick my face and then Christie's dog...look fierce but is very tame so I am not very scared after awhile...hahaha cute...because i give her a dog chip and she drool while bitting it...after that was rather early at bishan and everyone have not come yet so I went to library and see what I can read...but fell asleep on the sofa in the library...because super tired can....the they reach le then I go find them. After meeting then Me and Cherie went down to serangoon to find Walter Flavian abigale and her "SISTER" lol...fake de la...
Today's adventure started out rough but ended with celebrations:D
I was comfortably sitting on my sofa slacking and watching television waitting for the time for me to get bath and leave the house when suddenly Flavain called me to accompany him to pick his sister up...so have to rush rush go bath and ran all the way to Nictan house the bus-stop...crazy man the weather is like phewwww......crazy!!!!! Got to his house but his mum don't let us take his sister to church... :( his sister wanted to go so badly de...I feel so heartache when I see her disappointed face I repeatedly ask if she is ok before leaving...hope she is alright...she don't have a handphone...difficult to make sure she is ok...But Flavian was like ROAR!!! all the way to church...i am totally loss at what to do...LAter 10th anniversary was totally high! Not high also must high le lo...with retro songs funny videos and pastors sharing and of course ended with a bang...the whole place was like packed to the max...squeeze until cannot squeeze already...anyway after that was good news after good news shall not say it here for privacy matters but it definately tears of joy better than getting straight As for Olevel or getting a million it is totally priceless man:) after that the CEG swam through the mountains of people who are celebrating ramadan hahahahahahaha:D they are seriously having fun! it is like super alot of people even when it is already very near midnight...totally rubbing shoulders...but still considered a 'super cooling' walk all the way to the place we are eating prata...and poor abi is wearing heel...those high high ones...i empathize her man...that time i went shopping in heels and when I reach home I feel like the floor slopes backwards hahahahahahahahaha...painful can...and great! there is still bus at half an hour past midnight! We have communication breakdown with the prata aunty so darren and abi did the job hahahahahahaha...
Gosh! friday was totally...argh...went school for some stupid 30 mins talk on scienca practical...not like we don't know can...come on lah just ask someone pass message to me will do right don't have to ask me go down personally...almost wasted my whole morning...because it is super sleepy...then after school still have physic mock exam...totally not a test at all can...I took it by force because mr lew don't want to attend to my question until after the test...so...bo bian...and anyway going to meet felicia only at 2 plus because she say she is coming down so just take the test to kill time...finish le then wait wait wait...finally mr lew is free to attend to my question...ok...me and jorine decided to go bus stop to meet felicia because she don't know the place well other the cherie's house I think...go prata house again!!! I just went there a week ago...but they are all fasting except me and sharlynn and sharlynn don't want to eat...too tempted by the prata so eat lo...afther that then finally on my way to church...everyone is like there...preparing for pastor's birthday or preparing for 10th anniversary or doing something to love Jie RU...while I slack around and help Ivy with bio...then I realise...the first few chapters u have to know it inside out before continuing the rest of the chapter because it always goes back the the first few chapter in terms of foundation...hehehe...exams coming le so she have to revise from the beginning again...good for u hahahahaha....
Flavian told Ivy and walter...N'level cert is nothing...how did we get there???...oh walter is taking Nlevel in 9 days i think so I was telling his after N'level got to chiong for olevel le no time for him to rest or else he will regret and flavian is like yes yes...I don't know how it is like but I totally regret slacking the whole end year holidays last year...hahahahahahaha....At night went for supper...seem like it is a long time since we went for supper so I just tag along and anyway just to reward myself for a week of hardwork...I think I spend 90% of my days with my books already...because I sleep with them too hahahahahahahahaha....eat too much already...when we leave I started having headache...that is why i didn't blog last night because all I remember is that I reach home bath and sleep...my hair is bearly dried yet...too tired already...wore my uniform for 16 hours!!!!! okok I better be back to study another 2 hours before leaving for church today is going to be wow wow wow...the chairs are already set up yesterday when I reach can u imagine how much they are preparing for today??? yepp yepp
wohohoho...sleep like pig today...kinda wanted to just lie down but ended up sleeping then darling's call scare me up...answered and she say is left her house already...okok I climb up and bath...bath like queen...inside for super long...keep hearing the phone vibrating but just don't feel like climbing out to take a look at it...when I came out finally just nice darling's call missed so called back...OMG she is reaching already lah...okok quickly dry myself and open gate for her...she came to pass me my beloved bio guide book...thinking why crazy weiling still buy that book even when olevels is like less then 60 days away??? this book is more visual and surely...I got to study biology for another 3 years so no harm... talked and talked for around 2 hours??? yepp...she is trying to guess who liked...hahaha...failed man...actually not really...she is good at it...her instincts are strong...she guessed it within the first few but I keep denying and keeping quiet didn't say yes or no...seriously she have been guessing it for 2 hours...but I keep changing topic but she will pull it back...
Tomorrow got to go school because this freaking morning vivian msg and tell me that ms yap ask me to be in school tomorrow and must go school!!! I can't belief that I am actually going just breifing....still have to attend class in the end...super sian...I though I can have my straight one week leave man...failed...nevermind...if I am a little fiercer about anything to do with going back to school tomorrow bare with me alright...I seriously feel that attending class is wasting my time!
OKOK back here...me and darling have not sat down and talk for super long already ba...the last time is also just before mid years exams...this time just before prelims...hahahaha...reason???...we always miss school together to study...hahahahahahaha...
we concluded something we have been suspecting for like for sometime...seriously...if u don't want too many people to know then ask your friends around you to shut up about that...they are just making things obvious...I thought I was the only one who suspected...but darling also suspected the same thing...we really think the same man...seriously...weiling have my way of finding out things...don't act already lah...so insecure...scared that u know lesser than me then angry over this...wa lau...childish...

Song of the season: Sanctuary
Revelation: Matthew 28:15 (New International Version)
15 So the soldiers took the money and did as they were instructed. And this story has been widely circulated among the Jews to this very day.
I woke up this morning wanting to start with my study but something took over my mind so I decided to throw it up here first or else I will next be able to study in peace.
I choose to deny and lie about it all these time is because I know saying it will only cost me emotional torture and I can't stand the way people look at me, no matter human heart is still human heart I rather live in peace and freedom from how people look at me then to tell people and hide at home understand??? Noods*
sleeping soon...very late already...prelims starting in 6 days...gosh...41st day is rehersing saturday is really going to be awesome:):):) Just now my sister is being ridiculous again...pick up a phone call on my phone and say it is my fault that I leave it on the table so she pick up...OMG lar...like this also can...IT IS MY PRIVACY can...luckily it is Flavian if it is my friend...she will get it from me...next two days mugging like crazy le...stress level keep rising...
Dropped cookie 3 times today...because she went crazy and keep running off my hand and I can't grab hold of her properly...feel really pain when she fell onto the floor...especially when the last time she fell she looks really painful...talked to tutor about next month's tuition...have prelims man...how to go tuition...bo bian she say try my best to make it because it is the last 10 lessons before Olevel already...oh Chu Wen meet me to tell me about AE takedown...taken down finally but will be up twice after prelims to Olevel period...come on! weiling You can do it de...
Matthew 6:33 (New International Version)
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
in the next 2 days I will finish 17 hours of study:) Jia YOU!!!
Now it is 1331 one min after the time school suppose to end today...hey why is weiling blogging??? Nope weiling didn't go school of course she can blog...Flavian have been persuding me to go school today...last night but failed because I still decided to stay away from school...at least when I told lorenzo while asking if he is ok with his life he told me that it is at least for the better...yepp yepp I agree...but I kind of "ponned" school! so in case some people thinks that I am playing at home while I am away from school or hanging out somewhere out there then YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG!!! Weiling will never do stupid things...of course through the time everyone else is in school weiling is able to sleep more and studied even more...going to school doesn't mean everything...but if you have no self-discipline...please don't stay away from school like what I have done because things doesn't work the same for everyone....agree???....noods* okok back to what I have done alright??? I have finish 4 hours of studying and a little more sleep:) I am happy with what I have done:) today I am aiming to finish 7-8 hours of study...this week study rule for weiling is 30 hours:) Later have tuition...got to go this time already...ponned english tuition like for 2 weeks already...always wanted to go on thurs instead but never make it because I end up going home and sleep:P Tomorrow darling coming to find me at my house...darling must have miss not seeing me in school man...hahaha actually also to return my biology book:) I is mine but I have had a chance to see it yet though...but it is ok...I want darling to do well too:) Later after tuition going to church to see Chu Wen first...wondering why she suddenly want to see me...this is scary... I guess my timetable for the next few days would be wake up study eat study and sleep...how boring...
But SAT is really going to be awesome...Alvina is doing all the birthday planning and she have enough creativity to bring love foundation to 3.0 man...Bella's birthday is going to be so so awesome and of course our very own D10 secret mission loving beyond and above and overflowing love...got to learn lots from her creativity...thanks to ALvina man...I totally didn't have to do anything in love foundation...:P ok that is bad...I will help up more heyheyhey... :P
went school today to test out...disappointing...I can't study in school anymore now...I feel very irritated when I go to school and is not productive at all...I can't study and I now really want time alone to study without people disturbing already...sometimes I really feel very helpless when one math lesson passes and I learn nothing or have not gain the understanding of anything...i feel so disappointed because I suddenly felt the feeling that school is not helping me nor is it a place I can go to learn anymore.
So so so...love is a choice not a emotion
Realise that I love my life so so much...love the mandane and routines of life because I know that I have people around me that made my routine life fun and exciting...purking up my boring night with lots of msgs till I can't fall asleep. OR simply trading some food from me for a stitch:D...loving me...getting anxious about me:D You might have forgotten all these but surely weiling remembers:)
sleep study rest study sleep then later some idiot crash into the room screaming at someone and woke me up! idiotic man...can't I have a place I can sleep with anything disturbing me...morning was a phone call and evening is an idiot. counting down...prelims starting next tuesday...times flies...haven't touch my physics yet...and if you are younger than me one good advise...please study hard during sec 3...it is not a honeymoon year like everyone claims...you will benefit unknowingly from there...trust me...and keep the notes...because I got to say that for me to summarise as quickly and as efficient and to handle everything now relied alot on what I have done last year...I don't know how other people cope but definately mugging last year definately helped me alot...especially humanities...because all I have to do is to flip through last year essays I have done and choose the one with the highest mark and re-compile my notes:)
Aren't attending school regularly now...studying at home and sleeping...when exams draw near my body just keep having problems...having headache everyday! But at least I am at home can...the air-con contractor came today...finally can feel the air from my air con...cost daddy $150 to chemically wash our air con...it is totally choked up...daddy say that no wonder electrially bills went up...guess because the air-con needs more power to run when it is choke to give the same effect:) but it is super cold now because it is all clean! But it is better then a choked air-con because it is quieter and more powerful...finally can have a cold night!
some people saw my unglam photo! OMG it is like...and mummy say that is cute! OMG!
oh I am sure she told her man...expected...nothing serious...seriously nothing serious...anyway I have survived one whole year like this...I like my independence...I rather have it to myself then saying it out...and these things can't force...
Got to fast the next few days for weekends le...bye bye food:P but it is more important then my food:D I will do it willingly:)
Back to school tomorrow for sure...and got news that next monday is sports carnival...hahahahahahahaha:D if u are clever u will predict what weiling will do:P
Darling will miss u...3 days didn't see u le:( tomorrow can't see u too:( nevermind must come on wednesday okok:)
today have discipleship class with lynette...she say that we are the most happening discipleship class man...hahahaha we brough Pai Kia for her and bubbletea...of course happening lah...hahahahahaha...but her discipleship class is about friends and routine...reminded me that I have yet to find close friends...it isn't like I am not aware...I knew it like long ago...I guess nicholas tan and flavian are rather close to me??? Actually realised not really...nevermind...routine...yepp I can't deny that I won't find it a routine...come on not like every week will be more happening then the next...it only happens once awhile...like next week is 10th anniversary must come...we don't even know what will happen...they are making it very secretive...but 41st day will be leading worship...the only info I got...super secretive...okok back to the routine...yepp yepp...lynette say that pastor's successes now are all because they last through those routines over the year...sermon for this two days is bigger territory...when we sin in one area of our life, we are forgiven but we loses the authority over that area of our life. Bigger territory = bigger influence...yepp yepp...and and Dr Phil pringle is coming together with CCC for next sun...OMG!!! HAhahahahahahahaha...next weekend is really 10 times more happening then those normal normal weekends...
James 1:2-4 (New King James Version)
2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
got to go cousin's birthday later...long time since I hang out with them already...OMG daddy actually ask me if I know how to go when it is just next to my school!!! Come on man...I think I can go with my eyes close...look at who u are talking to lah...I live on average 5 hours a day there! I am not going that place again after I graduate!!!
agrh...totally don't feel like going school today de...but was dragged there...lorenzo asked me to go for lunch at prata house so I agreed...Marcus and cheng ming didn't know before hand that i will be there and was a little shock...buy myself egg prata and decided to eat what I have but later marcus started shoving things to me to eat!!! So much can...I really eat until very xin ku lo...the Lorenzo went back to school for solfball training and I tag along with them for the second lunch with Vik and his friend...shit can't remember his name...and cheng ming and marcus actually ate a second round despite being very full already!!! omg! I sat there and stone and listen to them talk...not eating again man...crazy I will grow fat like this...then we went to church for CEG movie marathon-fireproof awesome movie watched the beginning of it only...met ms leow on the bus to church...she is rich lah...LV bag leh...hahahahaha...cheng ming told me that ms leow gave them pre exams tips just before their Olevels...hey give us too leh ms leow...left the movie for Cafe duty...wow awesome time standing...talking to lvy...hahaha...she actually rejected though train...flavian ask her to take N'level instead...at least she still have a n'level cert even if anything goes wrong with her olevel...geeee ivy takes bio! washing the coffee machine drain then realise Alvin low take bio molecular too...hahahahaha bio is really a fantastic subject isn't it??? super tired now...shall study tomorrow morning:P
interview I still can handle...oral...I suck at it since primary school can...just hope that the teacher would be easier on me...i remember once in sec one when it is oral I just stared right into the teacher's eye during conversation and didn't say a word...it totally drove that teacher crazy...i got a big fat zero for that!!!
just saw tania's tweet...that long hair woman invigilator is really annoying and I really agree to what tania say man...that woman scolded me can....geeeee....roar....whatever is over is over already no point mourning over it...decided to not go tuition today since it is too late when oral ended...anyway while waiting for my turn today I saw thad's book...The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho...rather interesting book...shall get one when olevel is over...I won't be able to finish it tonight...what is interesting and caught my eye is the beginning of the book this shephard boy didn't take the road of pride but a road where he want to do something he would be happy doing...which is travelling and the only way he could travel is by being a shephard...despite being well educated he decided to put them all down and be a shephard...really going to get this book man...okok...this few weeks everything is going far too smooth sailing...time for me to be uncomfortable once again...thank god...god have given me abundantly above all I have ask for...really...things are starting to come to past...yesterday CG was simply big...really really big...the old bookstore area is not enough for us soon...okok 51 more weekdays to olevel...come on weiling is still not over the excitment of her DPA results yet like seriously...isn't it like a better news then chinese results???...yesterday the chinese tuition center called to ask about my results...hahahahahaha...realised no more chinese lesson!!!!! yes man!!! Next week my leave will be on thurs man...it is the worst day of the week...like seriously hate thursday...I don't have monday blues but thursday blues...okok time for my nap!
This two days went by very smooth sailing...got almost whatever I have wished...NP simply settle off my stress and give me a push in my studies because at least now I have a secure place in polytechnic and it is like where I wanted to go...super lucky...and chinese I actually passed! And it is not c6 or c5 but b4!!! better off what I expected...I am really not taking anymore...I am afraid if I were to retake it now I will fail instead...finally one subject off my shoulders!!! thought through yesterday...specialist is really not what I am happy to do alone...it is just my dream to be rich and buy whatever I want and to get whatever I want and live in luxury...but I thought it through...if I really want to do something I want to be happy it would be mission work...i will be happier doing...and really...today during humanities is my first time anouncing this...hahaha honoured...hahahahahaha and when u call I know u doubt about what i told u after thinking about what u say...i think it is best u don't believe what I say ba...because I believe too easily what people tell me le...really if he want to spread rumor I also will not realise and believe...i think it is better u don't take in what I say ba...anyway weiling this two day is simply happy happy and happy:D hahahahahaha jerome shi xiong hahahahahahaha:D
oh oh oh...almost forgotten...wow ran into 2 ex-primary school friends, yu xuan and Javier, oh man...really long time no see le...yu xuan I met her on the bus to church today...bus 43...she is studying in hougang sec now hope she is doing well man...and the other one Javier ar...aiya...he change super alot lar...last time always fight with me de...hahahahahaha...I am quite a gangster then...but we have both matured and grown...he is in a lucky school, pei hwa, al least...all the teachers chased away by vagine princess almost all are taken in by that school...oh man...yepp yepp...your know who I talking about then ok le...
oh and and today me and Jorine did a super bad thing...we bluff felicia that jorine got D7 for chinese and failed paper 3 and she believe us!!! When I was in church felicia is like...see your face I feel so cheated lah...I guess felicia is really worried for jorine like really really worried feel so bad man...hahahahahahaaha...she told cherie and I still dare to smile hahahahahahahahhahaha...
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...NP accepted me!!!
within the last one hour before DPA result release now...weiling can't concentrate on anything already...wondering why I can blog now??? hahahahas i am at home...yesterday caught in the rain...might have caught flu like seriously and knee pain and on top of that is also because what will be happen within the next one hour...on water therapy now...really love days like this...study and sleep and sleep and study...but I won't live life like this don't worry...after olevels...i will be able to better manage my flesh...olevel is just driving me crazy soon...54 more weekdays I will say...
yesterday I was looking through the orbitary in class then I saw a woman 82 years old when she pass away...I turned to vivian and told her...eh u see long life leh...I didn't thought through what I said until last night...I didn't know why the thought came back to me again...I thought through...if 82 is long life...then I don't have much time left...turning 16 soon...and I would say 16 years pass really soon...woman's average motality is 80...80-16=64....omg 64 more years to live only I have not achieve much...have not contributed much...have not help enough people and I have not experience enough...then...if it is like this I have not live life to the fullest yet...then I remember the newsletter city news...city harvest have grown from 20 to over 27000 members in 20 years...pastor kong must have done the most in his life time in this 20 years...immediately I thought...I want to live my life as full as pastor kong have live for the past 20 years in the next 64 years in my life:D in any case I will have to die I know I have live my life to the fullest...
hahahaha the week started already...school was still fun fun fun to me...the week always starts off messy because things seems to have pile up and alot of things are yet to do in the upcoming week...tomorrow DPA result is coming out man...can't wait already...but got caught in the rain today when going to AMK hub...so feeling a bit sick oh went to AMK to eat lunch while Jerlyn and Audrey do nails...brough my new water botter...super cute:D Tomorrow is either math test or lunch outhing...still thinking...but since jorine and audrey can't go I can't go too...
hope I could gain access to internet in school man...i really want to know the result first hand...maybe bring laptop???...hmmm...today have history test in class...gosh...i really hate the feeling of racing against time especially during test or exams because I will keep writing the wrong things...that is why I hate the rusjing for history and ss paper...if history and ss paper have all the time I need will be great and I would love it:D
" You are magnificent eternally wonderful glorious..."
pastor how is away in gold coast and this two days it is video sermon...pastor have recorded it before he left...a bigger heart...
today was on cafe...taking me down end of this month...everyone is taken down already...hahahahahaha...anyway today is tiring...super tiring...extremely tiring...probably it is because it have been a long while since I last did cafe...anyway alvin told cherie that the other two cafe duties are on weekdays so very slack de...so i can do until end of the month...
did something super disgusting today...i knew I should have done it lah...oh man...I really have to change my bad habit...
D10 is growing very fast...really very fast...especially this few weeks...I think we have broke through 30 in attendence this week already...probably D1 ceg have broke through 100 too...I didn't realise that until recently...anyway 11th month already...starting to feel the routine in it le...but god is magnificent...found me and caught me on time...won't think that way anymore...
felt that there were alot of breakthroughs recently...today service was better then yesterday's...it is like one of thise few services that sunday's is better then the sat one...yepp...bigger hearts...bigger hearts...bigger hearts! Many things are coming up real soon...55 more weekdays to exams...omg can...which really mean to me 55 more days for me to study too...
55 more days to olevel...inclusive of weekends or not I not sure but for sure if i say I am not stressed at all it is lying...it is totally opposite...so u try forcing some more things on me you are totally dead...because I will just not do...or worst cry...come on lah...I already study the whole weekday already...can't you just let me relax abit on the weekends??? That is why I planned my time so that all the studying are on weekdays and block off my whole weekend from almost no studying and yet...Idiotic can...and come on if you think that I have headache because of lack of sleep you are totally wrong can...I sleep like pig still have headache de...you can't help it because I am taking olevel this year and sure have stress de ma...another time you snap my rubber band I am really ignoring you and I mean what I say...
Just live your life
With god inside
You won't regret
A moment of it

From hillsong-free
This idiot blogger have problems...shall post the photos another day...
Anyway today we have guides farewell for us:D I weiling say she feels nothing or happy...she is definately lying...towards the end of the farewell party...I tried to laugh and smile to hold back my tears...farewells are always tearful...aren't they??? I never fail to cry in farewells except when I left primary school...like seriously...but I had great stamina this time in holding my tears...I didn't cry infront of anyone...but when I was alone...I can't deny that girl guide did leave me lots of fond memories of my secondary years...me ended up remembering how me met each other...ok I shall say two...Janice and me...our first encounter with each other is when we were having footdrill training when we were in sec one...then...we just entered girl guides and bearly know each other...but that footdrill training I remember clearly that I am still on MC and I am not fit to even go out...but when we are trained on spacing we didn't do it correctly and our seniors punish us by running around the parade square in the orginal school compound...oh my gosh I where will have strength to run man...but me and janice have to run...as for weeling I didn't really know her through girl guides...but...through TAf club...oh my gosh I am like super fat then...we ran every morning me her and yiling...remember those hard times...towards the end of sec one I took MC for physical activities for nearly straight 4 months can...TAF club really doesn't work for me...because the whole year of running I only lost 2 Kg but I lost 12 Kg in the 2 months holiday at the end of sec one...okok back to my farewell party.....hahahahahahahahahahahahaha......farewell parties for us should be for us to sit back and watch the juniors entertain us right???...but it ended up a time for them to make us do stuff in their command...run round the school...do footdrill and singing the world song at the same time...making Joleen eat fruit...(joleen hate fruits...I think if we add up all the fruits she have eaten in her life time...it won't even be equal to an apple can...) and make us find things in a box of disguating soup with noodles with ceral with honey stars with apple skin and banana skin...anyway it is some disgusting goshy goshy thingy...Sarah told the junior that they are going to get it from her when Olevel is over and Vivian volunteered to do kims games for the juniors...they are going to have big time!
After that rushed down to church and found myself still early...clean myself up...because we are going to eat sushi to celebrate xiao yan's birthday...Anyway...HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO YAN!!! After that go back to church and study 2 hours!!! And I screamed "yes! 2 hours 25 more mins to finish up my 20 hours!!!" Now I am left with 1 hour and 40 mins only!!! shall finish it later and sleep...super tired!!! Today janice told me something...she told me that we always look forward to the weekends because we always feels less tired in the weekends reason??? because we goes to church for service and get our battery recharged!!! then I told her...yeah true...really...when we sleep only 4 hours during a weekend night we don't feel that tired but even when I sleep 7-8 hours every 24 hours in a typical weekday...I stilll feel super tired...
today saw the olevel count down board in school...56 days to olevel...that time when I visit Clarie's house in the june holidays there is still like 120++ days but now it is halved already can...OH my mama...MGS and Cedar is having prelims already...AMK starting on 27 aug...ours...2 sep...oh man....everyone chionging already lo....half way through revising for bio:D will go on to chem after bio:D
ahahahahahahahahahahaha tell you why I hate thurs...because it has the longest school hour!!! Started having headache during the last 2 periods...it started because we were outside the band room recording our oral thingy and the heat just overwelm me...now the headache in not going off...I shall go english tuition on sat morning...so later can catch a nap...hahaha weiling's nap is always 2 hours and more...anyway became very...I don't know how to describe the feeling...so started reading Dr Cho's book aunty left behind in singapore, 4th dimemsional living in a 3 dimensional world...kind of like hands on from the 4th dimension book he written...anyway saw these:
"I am closer than the very heart that pumps inside your chest cavity" and decided to read on...of course I didn't regret it because I saw : Humans belong to the forth-dimensional world even though they exist in the three dimensional world.
This is what I need to clear doubts man!!! Logic belongs to the third dimensional world and that is my logic lies...but I belong to the forth dimensional world...a world bigger than the third dimensional world...a world that controls the third dimensional world!
Finally a day off...kind of I decided myself to give myself a break from the world, the school also mug at home...not that I am totally well...seriously I am aching all over now and headache still mild. I love the feeling being alone without humans around me...because seriously humans do give me headache....I have lesser of such times now...so when I say I want to be alone...you better leave me alone...or else if I flare at u don't blame me...anyway I screwed up another math test...feel super disgusted now...I hate failing tests and all...but seriously...that test is totally screwed...didn't manage to finish and ms leow only put up the formula sheet when I am already on question 5 out of the 8 question paper...dumb right...where got time to go back and check...and by the way I only manage to do 7...imagine it is my speed that I do only 7 and formula sheep when I am doing question 5...what the...she scolded us that even give your formula sheet also cannot do...OMG!
DPA results release next tues, Olevel chinese result release next wed...
OH yeah yesterday found out something coincidental...heard that this year the hungry ghost festival and the muslims first day fasting falls on the same day...anyway what excites me the most is the pasa malam.......yummmy I want to try ramy burger again!!!
She told me...I tolds her...no matter what you guys decision are, I will respect the decision made by the three of you:) I love the three of you very much...as much as I love you guys, I know I can't pull you down to follow what I want...find your life you want...this is all I want to say now but don't forget who brought us here with the grace love and mercy. Other than that coming back and being radical it the choice you guys make...as much as you have move on and as much as I have also moved on I still carry a pray for you guys in my heart:)
So near yet so far...
Today I really feel what is, no prayer goes unheard. Not a single one...just be faith-filled.
Sometimes what somethings seems to be bad, but when put together it turns out to be good and it is probably near salvation already.
Cool! Woke up like 0530 in the morning to go for morning prayer meeting today...it is totally wow! BEst one I have ever been! Definately encounted god in a way never before! Didn't regreted it at all though I really dragged myself up and dragged myself there! After sending GUGU off in the afternoon then went Ion with mummy! Brought my Jeans!!! Hahahahahahahahaha:D so excited man! My second aunty say...go Ion today with my ATM iszi...hahahahahahahaha:D Saturday night didn't sleep! Then went jogging! Finally get to see the kind of protein thing...smells like cocoa...heard that it taste like milo...it help build up alot alot of muscles...Of course not I drink lah...I then don't want muscle can...I didn't even manage to finish running one round...felt like I have not recover yet...lungs can't take it...evening after service was National Day live viewing...great man...heard that roy tang design the eye screen and the chairman incharge of the whole show is demond Col...so proud of them man!!! The show was totally great! And not fair man! This year every single contigent in the parade have march past! We didn't get to do that! But this year their training started way earlier! When we were watching nelia was so bad can...keep laughing at the parade comander...aiya the television also very bad...zoom in so close lah....hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha:D After the whole day I just died off at night...can't even remember what happen when I reach home lah...
Freaking tired now!!!! Didn't sleep last night at all..too tired to blog about today...shall do it tomorrow
woke up at nearly noon this morning....hahahahahaha...weiling must be really tired...I have not sleep enough for the whole week so...last night sleep until don't know when to wake up already....woke up and study the whole morning to chiong study rule...really is study straight...or else not enough time to finish le...but still made it:D everything was quite boring today other then service...because today's service was really really great...
"empty handed but alive in your hands"
this lyrics is just stuck to my head...
really still...today's sermon answers lots of questions in my head for the whole week...just felt great...!!!
matthew 6:33
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

That is the answer man...kind of not really in the sermon but...still...aiya...
really important to me...exams after exams...test after test...all these are nothing already...it is the last important paper in less then 3 months...gosh...really don't know how already...every week past like...wow breeze no... wind...damn fast can...soon it will be over...
Next week morning prayer meeting...Mavis leaving tomorrow...simon and GUGU leaving on monday...argh...everyone are going away already...
AND AND AND...tomorrow ndp show is going to be......GREAT!...AWESOME! Because the person in charge of the show itself gave us a quick glimps into the show today during service...pastors are going to marina bay tomorrow...hahahahahahahaha:D prayed for the whole event to run smoothly and it is going to be the best NDP show ever in singapore's history!!! hahahahahaha:D
okok come back...
really realise realise 1000 youths sudden become so insignificant out of the 400000 youths in singapore...2000 people is a mega church already hahahahah! but really it is not the number at all....lives change...lives saved...
Tomorrow morning going jogging...must go man...always morning jogging become sleeping de...hahahahaha:D Nicholas and Flavian your better wake up man...
Next week is CHC morning prayer meeting...monday can go man!!! so shiok! And and I have learnt my lesson I won't play tricks on people..... then after that maybe rush down to airport!!! anyway monday I am so going shopping!!!! Mummy is going to buy me my ZARA jeans!!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha:D anyway of course I won't just buy that I have a long long shopping list man...
And and and...hahahahhahaha so much to say....I really don't know why really no appetite from yesterday...ate really little today...like seriously very little...pollyna thought I was on diet...no lah...is really no appetite one...but still manage to force a pack of shaker fries down my throat...:)
Yess!!!!! 2nd oct graduation already!!!! I am like announcing to the everyone I see in the afternoon in church!!! Hahahahahaha AMK sec is in Nov...loser...got to be some AMKian until Nov hahahahahaha:D Laugh at u man!!! Today no school tthen no school lo...We get to graduate earlier...hahahaha...
Oh yeah Nicholas withdraw from school already...going PGSM probably...no...maybe NS first...the country won't let him off so easily anyway....Jerome also probably withdrawing too...sad man...the world is seriously like this...even if he change a school...next time in the future he will still meet people like this....anyway...we left church at 8 plus and went to Jerome house because he wanted to change and put down his stuff then went to Chomp chomp for supper...no...is actually dinner....lost my appetite also...so didn't take dinner at all....is really not diet lo...is really don't feel like eating at all even if the nicest food is in front of me...so why waste this time to eat...time to lose some weight also...tomorrow morning study...sunday morning study...after service on sunday have NDP live in church...monday aunty flying to hong kong to further studies for 1 year...hahahaha:D she make me and wanting send her off can...anyway...going airport...so won't waste the time...I will go airpport after CHC morning prayer meeting and study...and also maybe do some secret mission...hahahahahah......cannot say...it is to prepare for some important people the birthday....our birthday card plan is extreme...much work and effort have to be put in to make the card as planned!!! Gigantic pop-up card!!! will finish off 4 more hour of study tomorrow morning after I wake up...I study now also won't be effective studying...so must as well sleep first and study tomorrow:) Great day at ION today with Tania, Christie and Shu Yi...Ion is really BIG!!! A pair of jeans in ZARA caught my eye...cost $79.90...hint hint hint hahahahaha:D my jeans is like-.-all beacuse of the stupid washing machine in my house...and anyway I wear my jeans alot so should be quite worth it de....and Ion also have all the expensive shops like LV, Prada and also the shop San Ho open de...1 jacket quite 'cheap' lah 5 hundred dollars 'only' lah.....hahahaha:D that day saw joleen have one!!! OMG can!!! I think I am not the only one that tell her..."that is expensive!"....anyway just found out from Jerome that Bio med in NP cannot use macbooks....oH MaN!!! My mac book down the drain....and he say it is best I buy it from NP if I want so can have 3 year warrenty-.- got to wait till next year can....anyway chinese result confirm out on Tues!!! peeps!!! Prepare your heart to receive the results ok...I have a strong feeling I might fail...I screwed up my oral can...I will never forget that chinese oral experience...because I totally can't read...I also can speak...more of talk in chinese only the rest...fail man....just now flavian nicholas and jerome even laugh at me speak chinese...where got funny lo...so normal sia...they haven't hear me speak hokkian only man...they will laugh their ass off de...oh yeah going shopping today tempted me to want to buy so many things.....have not go for those kind of hardcore shopping for very long already...will do it once I finish the last Olevel paper! Some many things I want to do...shopping...baking....outing....gaming....hangout...even when I go Ion today can still feel the tension in my body...the tension is like rising....wonder if my body could take it through all the papers...less then 3 months left...I really understand what clarrie told me that time during the June holidays..." we saw the number drop from 300 plus to 100 plus to a 2 digit number then finally the last 10 days....now is like 70 more day...somewhere there already....
Done with that emo...post....today is totally unlucky can...got scolded by ms yap...like she keep saying I am not myself today...then spot check...luckily my handphone with...haha I shall not say or else the stalker come and see my blog I will get that person into trouble....vivian got her MP3 confiscated...stupid man...just a MP3...the fahmy must have purposely de lo...reach home like 4pm...super late la...all because of the POP rehersal...super hot...almost fainted...the sun really want to take our life man...if I faint tomorrow it will be really embarrassing...but I really almost fainted the other time during thinking day...tomorrow have stress ok...today got to study longer and more to make up for yesterday...anyway there is no lessons tomorrow I can afford not to sleep:) Ms loew say I look like I am fully recovered already...not lo...still coughing the things in my throat irritating me...if I laugh too much I will start coughing again...I better not cough during tomorrow parade...tomorrow ROY should SMILE when he march out to represent NPCC!!! See this??? SMILE alright!!!! Seriously U don't smile u look super funny from the side:P okok secret ok...I will shiver during tomorrow parade de...confirm hundred percent chop! After school will go pei simon they all...I think he is coming to peicai when our school end...try to see him as much as we can or else he is returning soon...wanted to try smuggler him into 4G classroom that is our initial plan...but I doubt so now...later teacher finds out he is there we are all dead!!!
cookie2 is doing well today...getting use to her new cage, new house and new owner:D it is the day now...she is sleeping:)
Remember that day we sat in a circle and introduce ourselves outside 1E classroom then....haha:D it is the first day in guides...then we had weilin and christie with us in guides too:D I hate introducing myself...never like such things...we sat in a circle and in order weilin introduce herself then weeling and I am last....sorry I only remember the 3 of us because I really feel very awkward when I came to me especially when I am the 3 person with the name almost sound the same...then we started out with 3 clique in our level...first is us, the 1F gang with me joleen miao qin vivian, wendy...we are always together because we are from the same class, the the 1E which is then xin yi and weilin always together then the last group is the 1d with Audrey, weeling, shuyi, janice and then...wen jun also haha...of course we feel part of the company first because joleen sister is a rising company leader then...of course there are people like christie who was very close to janice at first...christie came to us as a cultural shock...partly because she is from a girls school while we all came from mix schools so she react to things and does things very differently from us...and also the only 1A girl...she left soon after and also shi qi ( she is from my primary 6 class:D)...who transfer from other school...first day of guides...ms mok came to our class to find us during school hour to remind us about guide that day...we are the 4th batch guides the company take in and of course from 1F our wendy is the social butterfly in the whole intake...things change soon after...our clique changed too...these are 3 years plus ago...now we are all sec 4 graduating...tomorrow is our passing out parade already...decided to leave this whole post to remember our 3 and a half year in peicai guides. ok...back to the clique...we changed and changed...later me and vivian join the 1D clique...but still not very close to them as a whole...christie also and wendy too...we are just close personally to one or two but not all...vivian tag along with me...wendy later became outcast....christie got sack for guides due to poor attendence...wen jun quit...weilin left guides and join NPCC...we then thought was because of weeling (they have conflict before in primary school)....I doubt so now....haha and later mei ping join us in sec 2....upon officially becoming a guide, we are split into petrols...I ended up in dove with came to a surprise to everyone...we all thought janice would be in dove with xin yi...but it ended up to be me....one thing because the 2 of them scored the highest in the test...hahahahahaha...later ms sae explain to us that she has her way of putting us in the differently petrols...kind of due to our similiarity in charater...we start out as huh...u sure anot ms sae...of course we didn't say...but kind of after 3 year in the same petrol at xin yi...now I know why...the only thing I seriously don't understand and don't see any similiarity is weeling and wendy.....hahahahahaha:D seriously.....anyway we are political...bitchy...whole day backstabbing....can't help it...it is a full girls cca...it can't be avoided ba...I must say I did hurt people too....sec 1 sec 2 went past like a breeze...nothing much a milestone...sec 3 was a milestone for me, a year of pride and ego....about this I have something to say about...later....but anyway girl guides boosted my pride and ego and probably the new way people see me and treat me...it is just life...National Day Parade in the floating platform in marina bay marks the highest point of my life in girl guides...out of the how many thousands of guides in singapore...I am one of the 70 plus plus representing girl guides singapore...I will sure remember that experience for life...how many people actually gets to take part in NDP...I might not be anything to many people but it was really something to me then...it brought me from a place of nothing to a place where I am finally something...that is how people look at u in life...u can't deny it either...in sec 3 i total excel in everything I gets...NDP...flag bearer...studies...even sports...but simply no life...but I gets whatever I want....want good results get good results...want gold for NAfa test get gold for nafa test...nothing to interfer nobody to stop me...a year of no failure...to put it like this...really no failure at all...high flying...tomorrow is passing out parade already...marking the end to our service to girl guides...and finally our time to enjoy....farewell party...This is the farewell party invitation card...we are leaving...the juniors got to come up and take over...do a good job alright:D
hahahahahaha:D just went through a super duper sian day...school then some national day parade rehersal then tuition...but can't say that the day is a complete :( day...things are really bored but I am :) come on make the best out of the boring day:) aren't me smiling the day through hahahahahahahahahaha:D Lessons have nothing much to say...realised there are people in my class that still has the mood to play around during lesson time...aren't they scared about o'level...come on I am not talking about just talking in class or using handphones here alright...they are just extreme...saying it in a long way.....hand held gaming device...got what I mean right...yeah...anyway today only has 3 subjects in school...can I really say something...I really feel that last week studying is more productive then this week....hahahaha...really! Today have some people spreading about spot checks today but it didn't happen...haha we all wasted our efforts passing our handphones away...tomorrow is the real one already.....but tomorrow is going to be a long school day...actually planned to go lunch with marcus and lorenzo during lunch break but I don't think we can now....rehersal was better then I thought...we finally get to throw our guides hats on the ground on friday! Passing out parade! so exciting right...something new here....never happen in school before this the first year they are trying this...and a total joke seeing all the UG representitive going up to collect our POP certs hahahah....seriously...look at their expresion...we get the best view man...the flag bearers are at the most front so we get to see everything first hand hahahahahahahaha! Brought a new hamster before tuition just now! haha....shall name it cookie2 hahahahahaha:D this is fatter...so I am going to feed this one fat fat le...no more slimming hahahahahahaha:D It is hiding under the beddings now...kind of tired after all the 'earthquake' on the way home.............and got to say.....that is the happiest thing I hear the whole year!
Keep having the feeling that I am tied down by time...feeling sleepy can't sleep got to study...tomorrow afternoon can't study too...am I having to many unnecessary things going on for the next few days??? Tomorrow interview and wednesday is national day parade rehersal...super tired schedue can...I just don't want to do these stuff already...I just want to study and sleep like last week:P so wonderful...prelims are coming...anyway it hitted me last week...oh yeah haven't get the schedue from anyone one yet...heard that prelims cut into out holidays!!! Is the school nuts in taking away most time we could use to study...-.-seriously no brains man...anyway after prelims will be graduation...my happiest day for sure!!! Finally can say that I am no longer a peicaian! I can't wait for that day...when I graduate I will miss the people but never this school!!!
Will blog about class gathering another day anyway we have a awesome Mr Chia who paid for our dinner...a huge hole in his pocket...hahahahahaha:D nevermind...his new love would mend that hahahahahahahahahahahahaha:D You know I know then ok le...
Today's combined service really feel that the church is very very small because the place where it used to have seats only on those big event where public might just come in or easter and christmas day is now arranged with chairs for combined service...we are really reaching 2000 end of this year!!! Pastor started a series on Bigger! We serve with a servent's heart abd thing at the level of a king! Think big! The my mind just thought back to Yesterday before the people start to come in we are on standby mode for an hour I think...and I standing I indoor stadium thinking about how heart of God church will look like in the future...then me and Jeanette started thinking about how it is going to be like and we added more and more things to the visualised picture of the church in our mind...like ...aeroplanes fly above the church building will see a cross at the top and something like this...so exciting right....
Today is no good day...lets not talk about it...finally get my hands on a carls Jr chilli beef cheese fries...haven't have one for months...really miss it man...........we did a board for pastors with our thumb prints on it lining the logo of our church...super cool board! Just wonderful! they ended up playing the poster colours for the thumb printing...with body art...hahas...I got one drawn by yolander too...back in serangoon me flavian and nicholas decided not to go home so we went to some prata shop in serangoon central they ate prata (without curry weird right) then i just have a milo roar roar...after that they bring me home it is passed midnight already...so tired now...I think I have an hour plus more of study rule to finish...shall finish it off at the swimming pool tomorrow...tomorrow morning they are going swimming but I am not going into the water...noon have CG and everything then 530pm is class gathering!!! Can't wait to see them...mr Chia and Simon will be there...long time since we get to sit together for a meal already...our last lunch with mr chia is like a year ago and for simon I haven't seen him since he went to china...now he is back with his olevel over already sure can laugh at us already lo...everyone here is still straggering for the nov paper to come soon when he can shake leg be happy.....imagine we started sec sch together...not fair!!! hahahahahahahha...anyway tomorrow is going to be great! Goodnight!:D

muhahahahahahahaha today is teachers day man...actually ever since we enter secondary school these days are bearly celebrated...but at least we have holiday...everyone is so happy with it:)yesterday while everyone go school I studied 2 hours and then walk to peicai to meet the girls...went serangoon gardens to slack and talk about prom night...hahahahahaha...ok...we are going prom apparently...tehn I decided to visit Christie's house...because I don't want to go home and anyway I have to go bishan at 530 pm...if I go home I will sleep at home le...so go her house lo:) Her house have a what I call "wolf dog"...hahahaha the 3rd dog i touch in my whole life:) Fisrt was Cherie's Candy then the 2nd was Clarrie's doy which lick my face and then Christie's dog...look fierce but is very tame so I am not very scared after awhile...hahaha cute...because i give her a dog chip and she drool while bitting it...after that was rather early at bishan and everyone have not come yet so I went to library and see what I can read...but fell asleep on the sofa in the library...because super tired can....the they reach le then I go find them. After meeting then Me and Cherie went down to serangoon to find Walter Flavian abigale and her "SISTER" lol...fake de la...
Today's adventure started out rough but ended with celebrations:D
I was comfortably sitting on my sofa slacking and watching television waitting for the time for me to get bath and leave the house when suddenly Flavain called me to accompany him to pick his sister up...so have to rush rush go bath and ran all the way to Nictan house the bus-stop...crazy man the weather is like phewwww......crazy!!!!! Got to his house but his mum don't let us take his sister to church... :( his sister wanted to go so badly de...I feel so heartache when I see her disappointed face I repeatedly ask if she is ok before leaving...hope she is alright...she don't have a handphone...difficult to make sure she is ok...But Flavian was like ROAR!!! all the way to church...i am totally loss at what to do...LAter 10th anniversary was totally high! Not high also must high le lo...with retro songs funny videos and pastors sharing and of course ended with a bang...the whole place was like packed to the max...squeeze until cannot squeeze already...anyway after that was good news after good news shall not say it here for privacy matters but it definately tears of joy better than getting straight As for Olevel or getting a million it is totally priceless man:) after that the CEG swam through the mountains of people who are celebrating ramadan hahahahahahaha:D they are seriously having fun! it is like super alot of people even when it is already very near midnight...totally rubbing shoulders...but still considered a 'super cooling' walk all the way to the place we are eating prata...and poor abi is wearing heel...those high high ones...i empathize her man...that time i went shopping in heels and when I reach home I feel like the floor slopes backwards hahahahahahahahaha...painful can...and great! there is still bus at half an hour past midnight! We have communication breakdown with the prata aunty so darren and abi did the job hahahahahahaha...
Gosh! friday was totally...argh...went school for some stupid 30 mins talk on scienca practical...not like we don't know can...come on lah just ask someone pass message to me will do right don't have to ask me go down personally...almost wasted my whole morning...because it is super sleepy...then after school still have physic mock exam...totally not a test at all can...I took it by force because mr lew don't want to attend to my question until after the test...so...bo bian...and anyway going to meet felicia only at 2 plus because she say she is coming down so just take the test to kill time...finish le then wait wait wait...finally mr lew is free to attend to my question...ok...me and jorine decided to go bus stop to meet felicia because she don't know the place well other the cherie's house I think...go prata house again!!! I just went there a week ago...but they are all fasting except me and sharlynn and sharlynn don't want to eat...too tempted by the prata so eat lo...afther that then finally on my way to church...everyone is like there...preparing for pastor's birthday or preparing for 10th anniversary or doing something to love Jie RU...while I slack around and help Ivy with bio...then I realise...the first few chapters u have to know it inside out before continuing the rest of the chapter because it always goes back the the first few chapter in terms of foundation...hehehe...exams coming le so she have to revise from the beginning again...good for u hahahahaha....
Flavian told Ivy and walter...N'level cert is nothing...how did we get there???...oh walter is taking Nlevel in 9 days i think so I was telling his after N'level got to chiong for olevel le no time for him to rest or else he will regret and flavian is like yes yes...I don't know how it is like but I totally regret slacking the whole end year holidays last year...hahahahahahaha....At night went for supper...seem like it is a long time since we went for supper so I just tag along and anyway just to reward myself for a week of hardwork...I think I spend 90% of my days with my books already...because I sleep with them too hahahahahahahahaha....eat too much already...when we leave I started having headache...that is why i didn't blog last night because all I remember is that I reach home bath and sleep...my hair is bearly dried yet...too tired already...wore my uniform for 16 hours!!!!! okok I better be back to study another 2 hours before leaving for church today is going to be wow wow wow...the chairs are already set up yesterday when I reach can u imagine how much they are preparing for today??? yepp yepp
wohohoho...sleep like pig today...kinda wanted to just lie down but ended up sleeping then darling's call scare me up...answered and she say is left her house already...okok I climb up and bath...bath like queen...inside for super long...keep hearing the phone vibrating but just don't feel like climbing out to take a look at it...when I came out finally just nice darling's call missed so called back...OMG she is reaching already lah...okok quickly dry myself and open gate for her...she came to pass me my beloved bio guide book...thinking why crazy weiling still buy that book even when olevels is like less then 60 days away??? this book is more visual and surely...I got to study biology for another 3 years so no harm... talked and talked for around 2 hours??? yepp...she is trying to guess who liked...hahaha...failed man...actually not really...she is good at it...her instincts are strong...she guessed it within the first few but I keep denying and keeping quiet didn't say yes or no...seriously she have been guessing it for 2 hours...but I keep changing topic but she will pull it back...
Tomorrow got to go school because this freaking morning vivian msg and tell me that ms yap ask me to be in school tomorrow and must go school!!! I can't belief that I am actually going just breifing....still have to attend class in the end...super sian...I though I can have my straight one week leave man...failed...nevermind...if I am a little fiercer about anything to do with going back to school tomorrow bare with me alright...I seriously feel that attending class is wasting my time!
OKOK back here...me and darling have not sat down and talk for super long already ba...the last time is also just before mid years exams...this time just before prelims...hahahaha...reason???...we always miss school together to study...hahahahahahaha...
we concluded something we have been suspecting for like for sometime...seriously...if u don't want too many people to know then ask your friends around you to shut up about that...they are just making things obvious...I thought I was the only one who suspected...but darling also suspected the same thing...we really think the same man...seriously...weiling have my way of finding out things...don't act already lah...so insecure...scared that u know lesser than me then angry over this...wa lau...childish...

Song of the season: Sanctuary
Revelation: Matthew 28:15 (New International Version)
15 So the soldiers took the money and did as they were instructed. And this story has been widely circulated among the Jews to this very day.
I woke up this morning wanting to start with my study but something took over my mind so I decided to throw it up here first or else I will next be able to study in peace.
I choose to deny and lie about it all these time is because I know saying it will only cost me emotional torture and I can't stand the way people look at me, no matter human heart is still human heart I rather live in peace and freedom from how people look at me then to tell people and hide at home understand??? Noods*
sleeping soon...very late already...prelims starting in 6 days...gosh...41st day is rehersing saturday is really going to be awesome:):):) Just now my sister is being ridiculous again...pick up a phone call on my phone and say it is my fault that I leave it on the table so she pick up...OMG lar...like this also can...IT IS MY PRIVACY can...luckily it is Flavian if it is my friend...she will get it from me...next two days mugging like crazy le...stress level keep rising...
Dropped cookie 3 times today...because she went crazy and keep running off my hand and I can't grab hold of her properly...feel really pain when she fell onto the floor...especially when the last time she fell she looks really painful...talked to tutor about next month's tuition...have prelims man...how to go tuition...bo bian she say try my best to make it because it is the last 10 lessons before Olevel already...oh Chu Wen meet me to tell me about AE takedown...taken down finally but will be up twice after prelims to Olevel period...come on! weiling You can do it de...
Matthew 6:33 (New International Version)
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
in the next 2 days I will finish 17 hours of study:) Jia YOU!!!
Now it is 1331 one min after the time school suppose to end today...hey why is weiling blogging??? Nope weiling didn't go school of course she can blog...Flavian have been persuding me to go school today...last night but failed because I still decided to stay away from school...at least when I told lorenzo while asking if he is ok with his life he told me that it is at least for the better...yepp yepp I agree...but I kind of "ponned" school! so in case some people thinks that I am playing at home while I am away from school or hanging out somewhere out there then YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG!!! Weiling will never do stupid things...of course through the time everyone else is in school weiling is able to sleep more and studied even more...going to school doesn't mean everything...but if you have no self-discipline...please don't stay away from school like what I have done because things doesn't work the same for everyone....agree???....noods* okok back to what I have done alright??? I have finish 4 hours of studying and a little more sleep:) I am happy with what I have done:) today I am aiming to finish 7-8 hours of study...this week study rule for weiling is 30 hours:) Later have tuition...got to go this time already...ponned english tuition like for 2 weeks already...always wanted to go on thurs instead but never make it because I end up going home and sleep:P Tomorrow darling coming to find me at my house...darling must have miss not seeing me in school man...hahaha actually also to return my biology book:) I is mine but I have had a chance to see it yet though...but it is ok...I want darling to do well too:) Later after tuition going to church to see Chu Wen first...wondering why she suddenly want to see me...this is scary... I guess my timetable for the next few days would be wake up study eat study and sleep...how boring...
But SAT is really going to be awesome...Alvina is doing all the birthday planning and she have enough creativity to bring love foundation to 3.0 man...Bella's birthday is going to be so so awesome and of course our very own D10 secret mission loving beyond and above and overflowing love...got to learn lots from her creativity...thanks to ALvina man...I totally didn't have to do anything in love foundation...:P ok that is bad...I will help up more heyheyhey... :P
went school today to test out...disappointing...I can't study in school anymore now...I feel very irritated when I go to school and is not productive at all...I can't study and I now really want time alone to study without people disturbing already...sometimes I really feel very helpless when one math lesson passes and I learn nothing or have not gain the understanding of anything...i feel so disappointed because I suddenly felt the feeling that school is not helping me nor is it a place I can go to learn anymore.
So so so...love is a choice not a emotion
Realise that I love my life so so much...love the mandane and routines of life because I know that I have people around me that made my routine life fun and exciting...purking up my boring night with lots of msgs till I can't fall asleep. OR simply trading some food from me for a stitch:D...loving me...getting anxious about me:D You might have forgotten all these but surely weiling remembers:)
sleep study rest study sleep then later some idiot crash into the room screaming at someone and woke me up! idiotic man...can't I have a place I can sleep with anything disturbing me...morning was a phone call and evening is an idiot. counting down...prelims starting next tuesday...times flies...haven't touch my physics yet...and if you are younger than me one good advise...please study hard during sec 3...it is not a honeymoon year like everyone claims...you will benefit unknowingly from there...trust me...and keep the notes...because I got to say that for me to summarise as quickly and as efficient and to handle everything now relied alot on what I have done last year...I don't know how other people cope but definately mugging last year definately helped me alot...especially humanities...because all I have to do is to flip through last year essays I have done and choose the one with the highest mark and re-compile my notes:)
Aren't attending school regularly now...studying at home and sleeping...when exams draw near my body just keep having problems...having headache everyday! But at least I am at home can...the air-con contractor came today...finally can feel the air from my air con...cost daddy $150 to chemically wash our air con...it is totally choked up...daddy say that no wonder electrially bills went up...guess because the air-con needs more power to run when it is choke to give the same effect:) but it is super cold now because it is all clean! But it is better then a choked air-con because it is quieter and more powerful...finally can have a cold night!
some people saw my unglam photo! OMG it is like...and mummy say that is cute! OMG!
oh I am sure she told her man...expected...nothing serious...seriously nothing serious...anyway I have survived one whole year like this...I like my independence...I rather have it to myself then saying it out...and these things can't force...
Got to fast the next few days for weekends le...bye bye food:P but it is more important then my food:D I will do it willingly:)
Back to school tomorrow for sure...and got news that next monday is sports carnival...hahahahahahahaha:D if u are clever u will predict what weiling will do:P
Darling will miss u...3 days didn't see u le:( tomorrow can't see u too:( nevermind must come on wednesday okok:)
today have discipleship class with lynette...she say that we are the most happening discipleship class man...hahahaha we brough Pai Kia for her and bubbletea...of course happening lah...hahahahahaha...but her discipleship class is about friends and routine...reminded me that I have yet to find close friends...it isn't like I am not aware...I knew it like long ago...I guess nicholas tan and flavian are rather close to me??? Actually realised not really...nevermind...routine...yepp I can't deny that I won't find it a routine...come on not like every week will be more happening then the next...it only happens once awhile...like next week is 10th anniversary must come...we don't even know what will happen...they are making it very secretive...but 41st day will be leading worship...the only info I got...super secretive...okok back to the routine...yepp yepp...lynette say that pastor's successes now are all because they last through those routines over the year...sermon for this two days is bigger territory...when we sin in one area of our life, we are forgiven but we loses the authority over that area of our life. Bigger territory = bigger influence...yepp yepp...and and Dr Phil pringle is coming together with CCC for next sun...OMG!!! HAhahahahahahahaha...next weekend is really 10 times more happening then those normal normal weekends...
James 1:2-4 (New King James Version)
2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
got to go cousin's birthday later...long time since I hang out with them already...OMG daddy actually ask me if I know how to go when it is just next to my school!!! Come on man...I think I can go with my eyes close...look at who u are talking to lah...I live on average 5 hours a day there! I am not going that place again after I graduate!!!
agrh...totally don't feel like going school today de...but was dragged there...lorenzo asked me to go for lunch at prata house so I agreed...Marcus and cheng ming didn't know before hand that i will be there and was a little shock...buy myself egg prata and decided to eat what I have but later marcus started shoving things to me to eat!!! So much can...I really eat until very xin ku lo...the Lorenzo went back to school for solfball training and I tag along with them for the second lunch with Vik and his friend...shit can't remember his name...and cheng ming and marcus actually ate a second round despite being very full already!!! omg! I sat there and stone and listen to them talk...not eating again man...crazy I will grow fat like this...then we went to church for CEG movie marathon-fireproof awesome movie watched the beginning of it only...met ms leow on the bus to church...she is rich lah...LV bag leh...hahahahaha...cheng ming told me that ms leow gave them pre exams tips just before their Olevels...hey give us too leh ms leow...left the movie for Cafe duty...wow awesome time standing...talking to lvy...hahaha...she actually rejected though train...flavian ask her to take N'level instead...at least she still have a n'level cert even if anything goes wrong with her olevel...geeee ivy takes bio! washing the coffee machine drain then realise Alvin low take bio molecular too...hahahahaha bio is really a fantastic subject isn't it??? super tired now...shall study tomorrow morning:P
interview I still can handle...oral...I suck at it since primary school can...just hope that the teacher would be easier on me...i remember once in sec one when it is oral I just stared right into the teacher's eye during conversation and didn't say a word...it totally drove that teacher crazy...i got a big fat zero for that!!!
just saw tania's tweet...that long hair woman invigilator is really annoying and I really agree to what tania say man...that woman scolded me can....geeeee....roar....whatever is over is over already no point mourning over it...decided to not go tuition today since it is too late when oral ended...anyway while waiting for my turn today I saw thad's book...The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho...rather interesting book...shall get one when olevel is over...I won't be able to finish it tonight...what is interesting and caught my eye is the beginning of the book this shephard boy didn't take the road of pride but a road where he want to do something he would be happy doing...which is travelling and the only way he could travel is by being a shephard...despite being well educated he decided to put them all down and be a shephard...really going to get this book man...okok...this few weeks everything is going far too smooth sailing...time for me to be uncomfortable once again...thank god...god have given me abundantly above all I have ask for...really...things are starting to come to past...yesterday CG was simply big...really really big...the old bookstore area is not enough for us soon...okok 51 more weekdays to olevel...come on weiling is still not over the excitment of her DPA results yet like seriously...isn't it like a better news then chinese results???...yesterday the chinese tuition center called to ask about my results...hahahahahaha...realised no more chinese lesson!!!!! yes man!!! Next week my leave will be on thurs man...it is the worst day of the week...like seriously hate thursday...I don't have monday blues but thursday blues...okok time for my nap!
This two days went by very smooth sailing...got almost whatever I have wished...NP simply settle off my stress and give me a push in my studies because at least now I have a secure place in polytechnic and it is like where I wanted to go...super lucky...and chinese I actually passed! And it is not c6 or c5 but b4!!! better off what I expected...I am really not taking anymore...I am afraid if I were to retake it now I will fail instead...finally one subject off my shoulders!!! thought through yesterday...specialist is really not what I am happy to do alone...it is just my dream to be rich and buy whatever I want and to get whatever I want and live in luxury...but I thought it through...if I really want to do something I want to be happy it would be mission work...i will be happier doing...and really...today during humanities is my first time anouncing this...hahaha honoured...hahahahahaha and when u call I know u doubt about what i told u after thinking about what u say...i think it is best u don't believe what I say ba...because I believe too easily what people tell me le...really if he want to spread rumor I also will not realise and believe...i think it is better u don't take in what I say ba...anyway weiling this two day is simply happy happy and happy:D hahahahahaha jerome shi xiong hahahahahahaha:D
oh oh oh...almost forgotten...wow ran into 2 ex-primary school friends, yu xuan and Javier, oh man...really long time no see le...yu xuan I met her on the bus to church today...bus 43...she is studying in hougang sec now hope she is doing well man...and the other one Javier ar...aiya...he change super alot lar...last time always fight with me de...hahahahahaha...I am quite a gangster then...but we have both matured and grown...he is in a lucky school, pei hwa, al least...all the teachers chased away by vagine princess almost all are taken in by that school...oh man...yepp yepp...your know who I talking about then ok le...
oh and and today me and Jorine did a super bad thing...we bluff felicia that jorine got D7 for chinese and failed paper 3 and she believe us!!! When I was in church felicia is like...see your face I feel so cheated lah...I guess felicia is really worried for jorine like really really worried feel so bad man...hahahahahahaaha...she told cherie and I still dare to smile hahahahahahahahhahaha...
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...NP accepted me!!!
within the last one hour before DPA result release now...weiling can't concentrate on anything already...wondering why I can blog now??? hahahahas i am at home...yesterday caught in the rain...might have caught flu like seriously and knee pain and on top of that is also because what will be happen within the next one hour...on water therapy now...really love days like this...study and sleep and sleep and study...but I won't live life like this don't worry...after olevels...i will be able to better manage my flesh...olevel is just driving me crazy soon...54 more weekdays I will say...
yesterday I was looking through the orbitary in class then I saw a woman 82 years old when she pass away...I turned to vivian and told her...eh u see long life leh...I didn't thought through what I said until last night...I didn't know why the thought came back to me again...I thought through...if 82 is long life...then I don't have much time left...turning 16 soon...and I would say 16 years pass really soon...woman's average motality is 80...80-16=64....omg 64 more years to live only I have not achieve much...have not contributed much...have not help enough people and I have not experience enough...then...if it is like this I have not live life to the fullest yet...then I remember the newsletter city news...city harvest have grown from 20 to over 27000 members in 20 years...pastor kong must have done the most in his life time in this 20 years...immediately I thought...I want to live my life as full as pastor kong have live for the past 20 years in the next 64 years in my life:D in any case I will have to die I know I have live my life to the fullest...
hahahaha the week started already...school was still fun fun fun to me...the week always starts off messy because things seems to have pile up and alot of things are yet to do in the upcoming week...tomorrow DPA result is coming out man...can't wait already...but got caught in the rain today when going to AMK hub...so feeling a bit sick oh went to AMK to eat lunch while Jerlyn and Audrey do nails...brough my new water botter...super cute:D Tomorrow is either math test or lunch outhing...still thinking...but since jorine and audrey can't go I can't go too...
hope I could gain access to internet in school man...i really want to know the result first hand...maybe bring laptop???...hmmm...today have history test in class...gosh...i really hate the feeling of racing against time especially during test or exams because I will keep writing the wrong things...that is why I hate the rusjing for history and ss paper...if history and ss paper have all the time I need will be great and I would love it:D
" You are magnificent eternally wonderful glorious..."
pastor how is away in gold coast and this two days it is video sermon...pastor have recorded it before he left...a bigger heart...
today was on cafe...taking me down end of this month...everyone is taken down already...hahahahahaha...anyway today is tiring...super tiring...extremely tiring...probably it is because it have been a long while since I last did cafe...anyway alvin told cherie that the other two cafe duties are on weekdays so very slack de...so i can do until end of the month...
did something super disgusting today...i knew I should have done it lah...oh man...I really have to change my bad habit...
D10 is growing very fast...really very fast...especially this few weeks...I think we have broke through 30 in attendence this week already...probably D1 ceg have broke through 100 too...I didn't realise that until recently...anyway 11th month already...starting to feel the routine in it le...but god is magnificent...found me and caught me on time...won't think that way anymore...
felt that there were alot of breakthroughs recently...today service was better then yesterday's...it is like one of thise few services that sunday's is better then the sat one...yepp...bigger hearts...bigger hearts...bigger hearts! Many things are coming up real soon...55 more weekdays to exams...omg can...which really mean to me 55 more days for me to study too...
55 more days to olevel...inclusive of weekends or not I not sure but for sure if i say I am not stressed at all it is lying...it is totally opposite...so u try forcing some more things on me you are totally dead...because I will just not do...or worst cry...come on lah...I already study the whole weekday already...can't you just let me relax abit on the weekends??? That is why I planned my time so that all the studying are on weekdays and block off my whole weekend from almost no studying and yet...Idiotic can...and come on if you think that I have headache because of lack of sleep you are totally wrong can...I sleep like pig still have headache de...you can't help it because I am taking olevel this year and sure have stress de ma...another time you snap my rubber band I am really ignoring you and I mean what I say...
Just live your life
With god inside
You won't regret
A moment of it

From hillsong-free
This idiot blogger have problems...shall post the photos another day...
Anyway today we have guides farewell for us:D I weiling say she feels nothing or happy...she is definately lying...towards the end of the farewell party...I tried to laugh and smile to hold back my tears...farewells are always tearful...aren't they??? I never fail to cry in farewells except when I left primary school...like seriously...but I had great stamina this time in holding my tears...I didn't cry infront of anyone...but when I was alone...I can't deny that girl guide did leave me lots of fond memories of my secondary years...me ended up remembering how me met each other...ok I shall say two...Janice and me...our first encounter with each other is when we were having footdrill training when we were in sec one...then...we just entered girl guides and bearly know each other...but that footdrill training I remember clearly that I am still on MC and I am not fit to even go out...but when we are trained on spacing we didn't do it correctly and our seniors punish us by running around the parade square in the orginal school compound...oh my gosh I where will have strength to run man...but me and janice have to run...as for weeling I didn't really know her through girl guides...but...through TAf club...oh my gosh I am like super fat then...we ran every morning me her and yiling...remember those hard times...towards the end of sec one I took MC for physical activities for nearly straight 4 months can...TAF club really doesn't work for me...because the whole year of running I only lost 2 Kg but I lost 12 Kg in the 2 months holiday at the end of sec one...okok back to my farewell party.....hahahahahahahahahahahahaha......farewell parties for us should be for us to sit back and watch the juniors entertain us right???...but it ended up a time for them to make us do stuff in their command...run round the school...do footdrill and singing the world song at the same time...making Joleen eat fruit...(joleen hate fruits...I think if we add up all the fruits she have eaten in her life time...it won't even be equal to an apple can...) and make us find things in a box of disguating soup with noodles with ceral with honey stars with apple skin and banana skin...anyway it is some disgusting goshy goshy thingy...Sarah told the junior that they are going to get it from her when Olevel is over and Vivian volunteered to do kims games for the juniors...they are going to have big time!
After that rushed down to church and found myself still early...clean myself up...because we are going to eat sushi to celebrate xiao yan's birthday...Anyway...HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO YAN!!! After that go back to church and study 2 hours!!! And I screamed "yes! 2 hours 25 more mins to finish up my 20 hours!!!" Now I am left with 1 hour and 40 mins only!!! shall finish it later and sleep...super tired!!! Today janice told me something...she told me that we always look forward to the weekends because we always feels less tired in the weekends reason??? because we goes to church for service and get our battery recharged!!! then I told her...yeah true...really...when we sleep only 4 hours during a weekend night we don't feel that tired but even when I sleep 7-8 hours every 24 hours in a typical weekday...I stilll feel super tired...
today saw the olevel count down board in school...56 days to olevel...that time when I visit Clarie's house in the june holidays there is still like 120++ days but now it is halved already can...OH my mama...MGS and Cedar is having prelims already...AMK starting on 27 aug...ours...2 sep...oh man....everyone chionging already lo....half way through revising for bio:D will go on to chem after bio:D
ahahahahahahahahahahaha tell you why I hate thurs...because it has the longest school hour!!! Started having headache during the last 2 periods...it started because we were outside the band room recording our oral thingy and the heat just overwelm me...now the headache in not going off...I shall go english tuition on sat morning...so later can catch a nap...hahaha weiling's nap is always 2 hours and more...anyway became very...I don't know how to describe the feeling...so started reading Dr Cho's book aunty left behind in singapore, 4th dimemsional living in a 3 dimensional world...kind of like hands on from the 4th dimension book he written...anyway saw these:
"I am closer than the very heart that pumps inside your chest cavity" and decided to read on...of course I didn't regret it because I saw : Humans belong to the forth-dimensional world even though they exist in the three dimensional world.
This is what I need to clear doubts man!!! Logic belongs to the third dimensional world and that is my logic lies...but I belong to the forth dimensional world...a world bigger than the third dimensional world...a world that controls the third dimensional world!
Finally a day off...kind of I decided myself to give myself a break from the world, the school also mug at home...not that I am totally well...seriously I am aching all over now and headache still mild. I love the feeling being alone without humans around me...because seriously humans do give me headache....I have lesser of such times now...so when I say I want to be alone...you better leave me alone...or else if I flare at u don't blame me...anyway I screwed up another math test...feel super disgusted now...I hate failing tests and all...but seriously...that test is totally screwed...didn't manage to finish and ms leow only put up the formula sheet when I am already on question 5 out of the 8 question paper...dumb right...where got time to go back and check...and by the way I only manage to do 7...imagine it is my speed that I do only 7 and formula sheep when I am doing question 5...what the...she scolded us that even give your formula sheet also cannot do...OMG!
DPA results release next tues, Olevel chinese result release next wed...
OH yeah yesterday found out something coincidental...heard that this year the hungry ghost festival and the muslims first day fasting falls on the same day...anyway what excites me the most is the pasa malam.......yummmy I want to try ramy burger again!!!
She told me...I tolds her...no matter what you guys decision are, I will respect the decision made by the three of you:) I love the three of you very much...as much as I love you guys, I know I can't pull you down to follow what I want...find your life you want...this is all I want to say now but don't forget who brought us here with the grace love and mercy. Other than that coming back and being radical it the choice you guys make...as much as you have move on and as much as I have also moved on I still carry a pray for you guys in my heart:)
So near yet so far...
Today I really feel what is, no prayer goes unheard. Not a single one...just be faith-filled.
Sometimes what somethings seems to be bad, but when put together it turns out to be good and it is probably near salvation already.
Cool! Woke up like 0530 in the morning to go for morning prayer meeting today...it is totally wow! BEst one I have ever been! Definately encounted god in a way never before! Didn't regreted it at all though I really dragged myself up and dragged myself there! After sending GUGU off in the afternoon then went Ion with mummy! Brought my Jeans!!! Hahahahahahahahaha:D so excited man! My second aunty say...go Ion today with my ATM iszi...hahahahahahahaha:D Saturday night didn't sleep! Then went jogging! Finally get to see the kind of protein thing...smells like cocoa...heard that it taste like milo...it help build up alot alot of muscles...Of course not I drink lah...I then don't want muscle can...I didn't even manage to finish running one round...felt like I have not recover yet...lungs can't take it...evening after service was National Day live viewing...great man...heard that roy tang design the eye screen and the chairman incharge of the whole show is demond Col...so proud of them man!!! The show was totally great! And not fair man! This year every single contigent in the parade have march past! We didn't get to do that! But this year their training started way earlier! When we were watching nelia was so bad can...keep laughing at the parade comander...aiya the television also very bad...zoom in so close lah....hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha:D After the whole day I just died off at night...can't even remember what happen when I reach home lah...
Freaking tired now!!!! Didn't sleep last night at all..too tired to blog about today...shall do it tomorrow
woke up at nearly noon this morning....hahahahahaha...weiling must be really tired...I have not sleep enough for the whole week so...last night sleep until don't know when to wake up already....woke up and study the whole morning to chiong study rule...really is study straight...or else not enough time to finish le...but still made it:D everything was quite boring today other then service...because today's service was really really great...
"empty handed but alive in your hands"
this lyrics is just stuck to my head...
really still...today's sermon answers lots of questions in my head for the whole week...just felt great...!!!
matthew 6:33
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

That is the answer man...kind of not really in the sermon but...still...aiya...
really important to me...exams after exams...test after test...all these are nothing already...it is the last important paper in less then 3 months...gosh...really don't know how already...every week past like...wow breeze no... wind...damn fast can...soon it will be over...
Next week morning prayer meeting...Mavis leaving tomorrow...simon and GUGU leaving on monday...argh...everyone are going away already...
AND AND AND...tomorrow ndp show is going to be......GREAT!...AWESOME! Because the person in charge of the show itself gave us a quick glimps into the show today during service...pastors are going to marina bay tomorrow...hahahahahahahaha:D prayed for the whole event to run smoothly and it is going to be the best NDP show ever in singapore's history!!! hahahahahaha:D
okok come back...
really realise realise 1000 youths sudden become so insignificant out of the 400000 youths in singapore...2000 people is a mega church already hahahahah! but really it is not the number at all....lives change...lives saved...
Tomorrow morning going jogging...must go man...always morning jogging become sleeping de...hahahahaha:D Nicholas and Flavian your better wake up man...
Next week is CHC morning prayer meeting...monday can go man!!! so shiok! And and I have learnt my lesson I won't play tricks on people..... then after that maybe rush down to airport!!! anyway monday I am so going shopping!!!! Mummy is going to buy me my ZARA jeans!!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha:D anyway of course I won't just buy that I have a long long shopping list man...
And and and...hahahahhahaha so much to say....I really don't know why really no appetite from yesterday...ate really little today...like seriously very little...pollyna thought I was on diet...no lah...is really no appetite one...but still manage to force a pack of shaker fries down my throat...:)
Yess!!!!! 2nd oct graduation already!!!! I am like announcing to the everyone I see in the afternoon in church!!! Hahahahahaha AMK sec is in Nov...loser...got to be some AMKian until Nov hahahahahaha:D Laugh at u man!!! Today no school tthen no school lo...We get to graduate earlier...hahahaha...
Oh yeah Nicholas withdraw from school already...going PGSM probably...no...maybe NS first...the country won't let him off so easily anyway....Jerome also probably withdrawing too...sad man...the world is seriously like this...even if he change a school...next time in the future he will still meet people like this....anyway...we left church at 8 plus and went to Jerome house because he wanted to change and put down his stuff then went to Chomp chomp for supper...no...is actually dinner....lost my appetite also...so didn't take dinner at all....is really not diet lo...is really don't feel like eating at all even if the nicest food is in front of me...so why waste this time to eat...time to lose some weight also...tomorrow morning study...sunday morning study...after service on sunday have NDP live in church...monday aunty flying to hong kong to further studies for 1 year...hahahaha:D she make me and wanting send her off can...anyway...going airport...so won't waste the time...I will go airpport after CHC morning prayer meeting and study...and also maybe do some secret mission...hahahahahah......cannot say...it is to prepare for some important people the birthday....our birthday card plan is extreme...much work and effort have to be put in to make the card as planned!!! Gigantic pop-up card!!! will finish off 4 more hour of study tomorrow morning after I wake up...I study now also won't be effective studying...so must as well sleep first and study tomorrow:) Great day at ION today with Tania, Christie and Shu Yi...Ion is really BIG!!! A pair of jeans in ZARA caught my eye...cost $79.90...hint hint hint hahahahaha:D my jeans is like-.-all beacuse of the stupid washing machine in my house...and anyway I wear my jeans alot so should be quite worth it de....and Ion also have all the expensive shops like LV, Prada and also the shop San Ho open de...1 jacket quite 'cheap' lah 5 hundred dollars 'only' lah.....hahahaha:D that day saw joleen have one!!! OMG can!!! I think I am not the only one that tell her..."that is expensive!"....anyway just found out from Jerome that Bio med in NP cannot use macbooks....oH MaN!!! My mac book down the drain....and he say it is best I buy it from NP if I want so can have 3 year warrenty-.- got to wait till next year can....anyway chinese result confirm out on Tues!!! peeps!!! Prepare your heart to receive the results ok...I have a strong feeling I might fail...I screwed up my oral can...I will never forget that chinese oral experience...because I totally can't read...I also can speak...more of talk in chinese only the rest...fail man....just now flavian nicholas and jerome even laugh at me speak chinese...where got funny lo...so normal sia...they haven't hear me speak hokkian only man...they will laugh their ass off de...oh yeah going shopping today tempted me to want to buy so many things.....have not go for those kind of hardcore shopping for very long already...will do it once I finish the last Olevel paper! Some many things I want to do...shopping...baking....outing....gaming....hangout...even when I go Ion today can still feel the tension in my body...the tension is like rising....wonder if my body could take it through all the papers...less then 3 months left...I really understand what clarrie told me that time during the June holidays..." we saw the number drop from 300 plus to 100 plus to a 2 digit number then finally the last 10 days....now is like 70 more day...somewhere there already....
Done with that emo...post....today is totally unlucky can...got scolded by ms yap...like she keep saying I am not myself today...then spot check...luckily my handphone with...haha I shall not say or else the stalker come and see my blog I will get that person into trouble....vivian got her MP3 confiscated...stupid man...just a MP3...the fahmy must have purposely de lo...reach home like 4pm...super late la...all because of the POP rehersal...super hot...almost fainted...the sun really want to take our life man...if I faint tomorrow it will be really embarrassing...but I really almost fainted the other time during thinking day...tomorrow have stress ok...today got to study longer and more to make up for yesterday...anyway there is no lessons tomorrow I can afford not to sleep:) Ms loew say I look like I am fully recovered already...not lo...still coughing the things in my throat irritating me...if I laugh too much I will start coughing again...I better not cough during tomorrow parade...tomorrow ROY should SMILE when he march out to represent NPCC!!! See this??? SMILE alright!!!! Seriously U don't smile u look super funny from the side:P okok secret ok...I will shiver during tomorrow parade de...confirm hundred percent chop! After school will go pei simon they all...I think he is coming to peicai when our school end...try to see him as much as we can or else he is returning soon...wanted to try smuggler him into 4G classroom that is our initial plan...but I doubt so now...later teacher finds out he is there we are all dead!!!
cookie2 is doing well today...getting use to her new cage, new house and new owner:D it is the day now...she is sleeping:)
Remember that day we sat in a circle and introduce ourselves outside 1E classroom then....haha:D it is the first day in guides...then we had weilin and christie with us in guides too:D I hate introducing myself...never like such things...we sat in a circle and in order weilin introduce herself then weeling and I am last....sorry I only remember the 3 of us because I really feel very awkward when I came to me especially when I am the 3 person with the name almost sound the same...then we started out with 3 clique in our level...first is us, the 1F gang with me joleen miao qin vivian, wendy...we are always together because we are from the same class, the the 1E which is then xin yi and weilin always together then the last group is the 1d with Audrey, weeling, shuyi, janice and then...wen jun also haha...of course we feel part of the company first because joleen sister is a rising company leader then...of course there are people like christie who was very close to janice at first...christie came to us as a cultural shock...partly because she is from a girls school while we all came from mix schools so she react to things and does things very differently from us...and also the only 1A girl...she left soon after and also shi qi ( she is from my primary 6 class:D)...who transfer from other school...first day of guides...ms mok came to our class to find us during school hour to remind us about guide that day...we are the 4th batch guides the company take in and of course from 1F our wendy is the social butterfly in the whole intake...things change soon after...our clique changed too...these are 3 years plus ago...now we are all sec 4 graduating...tomorrow is our passing out parade already...decided to leave this whole post to remember our 3 and a half year in peicai guides. ok...back to the clique...we changed and changed...later me and vivian join the 1D clique...but still not very close to them as a whole...christie also and wendy too...we are just close personally to one or two but not all...vivian tag along with me...wendy later became outcast....christie got sack for guides due to poor attendence...wen jun quit...weilin left guides and join NPCC...we then thought was because of weeling (they have conflict before in primary school)....I doubt so now....haha and later mei ping join us in sec 2....upon officially becoming a guide, we are split into petrols...I ended up in dove with came to a surprise to everyone...we all thought janice would be in dove with xin yi...but it ended up to be me....one thing because the 2 of them scored the highest in the test...hahahahahaha...later ms sae explain to us that she has her way of putting us in the differently petrols...kind of due to our similiarity in charater...we start out as huh...u sure anot ms sae...of course we didn't say...but kind of after 3 year in the same petrol at xin yi...now I know why...the only thing I seriously don't understand and don't see any similiarity is weeling and wendy.....hahahahahaha:D seriously.....anyway we are political...bitchy...whole day backstabbing....can't help it...it is a full girls cca...it can't be avoided ba...I must say I did hurt people too....sec 1 sec 2 went past like a breeze...nothing much a milestone...sec 3 was a milestone for me, a year of pride and ego....about this I have something to say about...later....but anyway girl guides boosted my pride and ego and probably the new way people see me and treat me...it is just life...National Day Parade in the floating platform in marina bay marks the highest point of my life in girl guides...out of the how many thousands of guides in singapore...I am one of the 70 plus plus representing girl guides singapore...I will sure remember that experience for life...how many people actually gets to take part in NDP...I might not be anything to many people but it was really something to me then...it brought me from a place of nothing to a place where I am finally something...that is how people look at u in life...u can't deny it either...in sec 3 i total excel in everything I gets...NDP...flag bearer...studies...even sports...but simply no life...but I gets whatever I want....want good results get good results...want gold for NAfa test get gold for nafa test...nothing to interfer nobody to stop me...a year of no failure...to put it like this...really no failure at all...high flying...tomorrow is passing out parade already...marking the end to our service to girl guides...and finally our time to enjoy....farewell party...This is the farewell party invitation card...we are leaving...the juniors got to come up and take over...do a good job alright:D
hahahahahaha:D just went through a super duper sian day...school then some national day parade rehersal then tuition...but can't say that the day is a complete :( day...things are really bored but I am :) come on make the best out of the boring day:) aren't me smiling the day through hahahahahahahahahaha:D Lessons have nothing much to say...realised there are people in my class that still has the mood to play around during lesson time...aren't they scared about o'level...come on I am not talking about just talking in class or using handphones here alright...they are just extreme...saying it in a long way.....hand held gaming device...got what I mean right...yeah...anyway today only has 3 subjects in school...can I really say something...I really feel that last week studying is more productive then this week....hahahaha...really! Today have some people spreading about spot checks today but it didn't happen...haha we all wasted our efforts passing our handphones away...tomorrow is the real one already.....but tomorrow is going to be a long school day...actually planned to go lunch with marcus and lorenzo during lunch break but I don't think we can now....rehersal was better then I thought...we finally get to throw our guides hats on the ground on friday! Passing out parade! so exciting right...something new here....never happen in school before this the first year they are trying this...and a total joke seeing all the UG representitive going up to collect our POP certs hahahah....seriously...look at their expresion...we get the best view man...the flag bearers are at the most front so we get to see everything first hand hahahahahahahaha! Brought a new hamster before tuition just now! haha....shall name it cookie2 hahahahahaha:D this is fatter...so I am going to feed this one fat fat le...no more slimming hahahahahahaha:D It is hiding under the beddings now...kind of tired after all the 'earthquake' on the way home.............and got to say.....that is the happiest thing I hear the whole year!
Keep having the feeling that I am tied down by time...feeling sleepy can't sleep got to study...tomorrow afternoon can't study too...am I having to many unnecessary things going on for the next few days??? Tomorrow interview and wednesday is national day parade rehersal...super tired schedue can...I just don't want to do these stuff already...I just want to study and sleep like last week:P so wonderful...prelims are coming...anyway it hitted me last week...oh yeah haven't get the schedue from anyone one yet...heard that prelims cut into out holidays!!! Is the school nuts in taking away most time we could use to study...-.-seriously no brains man...anyway after prelims will be graduation...my happiest day for sure!!! Finally can say that I am no longer a peicaian! I can't wait for that day...when I graduate I will miss the people but never this school!!!
Will blog about class gathering another day anyway we have a awesome Mr Chia who paid for our dinner...a huge hole in his pocket...hahahahahaha:D nevermind...his new love would mend that hahahahahahahahahahahahaha:D You know I know then ok le...
Today's combined service really feel that the church is very very small because the place where it used to have seats only on those big event where public might just come in or easter and christmas day is now arranged with chairs for combined service...we are really reaching 2000 end of this year!!! Pastor started a series on Bigger! We serve with a servent's heart abd thing at the level of a king! Think big! The my mind just thought back to Yesterday before the people start to come in we are on standby mode for an hour I think...and I standing I indoor stadium thinking about how heart of God church will look like in the future...then me and Jeanette started thinking about how it is going to be like and we added more and more things to the visualised picture of the church in our mind...like ...aeroplanes fly above the church building will see a cross at the top and something like this...so exciting right....
Today is no good day...lets not talk about it...finally get my hands on a carls Jr chilli beef cheese fries...haven't have one for months...really miss it man...........we did a board for pastors with our thumb prints on it lining the logo of our church...super cool board! Just wonderful! they ended up playing the poster colours for the thumb printing...with body art...hahas...I got one drawn by yolander too...back in serangoon me flavian and nicholas decided not to go home so we went to some prata shop in serangoon central they ate prata (without curry weird right) then i just have a milo roar roar...after that they bring me home it is passed midnight already...so tired now...I think I have an hour plus more of study rule to finish...shall finish it off at the swimming pool tomorrow...tomorrow morning they are going swimming but I am not going into the water...noon have CG and everything then 530pm is class gathering!!! Can't wait to see them...mr Chia and Simon will be there...long time since we get to sit together for a meal already...our last lunch with mr chia is like a year ago and for simon I haven't seen him since he went to china...now he is back with his olevel over already sure can laugh at us already lo...everyone here is still straggering for the nov paper to come soon when he can shake leg be happy.....imagine we started sec sch together...not fair!!! hahahahahahahha...anyway tomorrow is going to be great! Goodnight!:D

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