I once came upon a bookmark a few months ago and it is stuck in my mind.
It is about this walk af life with god. When a person dies and look back on his walk of life he realise that he sees two pairs of footprints left in some parts of his life while there are only one pair during the other times. On a closer look at it he realise that those times where there are only one pair of footprint on the road is during hard and difficult times while when life is good and well, there are two pairs of footprints there. He then ask god why god left him during those difficult and hard times and only stay by him during those good and well times. Jesus replied that god didn't leave him during those hard and difficult times but there are only one pair because god has carried him during those difficult times and that one pair of footprint is the footprint of Jesus.
Look at my tagbox everyone spamming already haha:D
Today the 4 guys playing basketball in church against team 2 I don't know who team 2 are but This 4 guys played really well and it was a hot match and they won their opponent by 7-5 wow!!! Claps and cheers* Kind of hook onto a song now I think I have played it in my mind and physically as music on my phone more that a hundred times within 2 days. Those guys and girls on my tagbox are right, I wasn't really very happy this 2 days with my results but no point being stuck here forever, life still have to move on. And actually flavian you don't have to scold that person because I kind of know who that person is I think he is kidding with me only haha:D Ok slept on the bus till my things drop when I was on the bus home just now so loud man so embarrassing. Yeah someone kind of agreed to come tomorrow okok this is quite great:D
I will study very very hard during holidays I promise! 30 hour a week and week starts on sunday till saturday this means that it would start in around half hour time.

"The 2 greatest day of a person is the day he is born and the day he finds out
why he is born-Winston Churchill"

Nice quote isn't it??? If the purpose in my life and making it clear and convicted to it, not letting busy things in life bring me away from this purpose. Life is short and it is just this one life and only things done for christ remains. This great person pick me up from the hands of the devil so I can live life eternal not in hell.

Cried out when I get back my report book!!! I already put in my most effort into humanities and yet the results are still so disappointing:( I already tried my best to make it up. I can't concentrate in humanities class. What can I do, only to study on my own but it won't be as effective already. And I rather go into the exam hall with knowledge but with lesser sleep the previous night then to go in wide awake but unprepared. I want to sleep too but sometimes things just crop up pushing back my study time so??? I don't need my parents to know that, I know what my limits which my parents don't even know but only ask me to sleep all the time and I would fail instead. That report card will only bring me trouble, I won't help at all. Nobody understands! My dad will kill me for sure, he hates that I don't get enough rest understands???
Went shopping, movie and eating to forget about my results for awhile. But what else, I am still back in reality now. I am tired already, what have I done wrong. Have good news too but I am not saying:P
morning went school for our last day of intensive yeppy!!! Slept quite alot during intensive just for today because 4 hours of teaching of the compo I am definately not writing so don't even want to look at it. I do that I fail man! Went AMK HUB to look for sarine wanting and jerlyn because we planned to play basketball but sarine lost her wallet so we went to report her lost wallet. Fifty plus plus inside man!!! Then went to play basketball with some of her friends but I really fail at it man!!! Not even a ball I throw enter the basket, not even when I am very near it already. Later went tuition, super tired of chinese already can nearly 8 hours of chinese lesson today lar!!! After tuition went to Chomp Chomp to have dinner cum supper with Felicia, Nicholas, Jorine, one of their friend, Cherie and Flavian. Flavian ate like a plate of prawn noodles and another plate of carrot cake and plus anothe gaint mug of sugar cane juice. POWERR!!! Was wondering aimlessly around serangoon after that then decided to go to LAN shop to play computer. Played L4D (left 4 Dead) scare me like mad can. I was screaming at the computer and everyone just laugh at me!!! I am not playing that again. It was like stepping into a LAN shop since secondary 2. Flavain said that it is his first time playing but he played so well Felicia says that it must be the guys thing and he seems to be hooked on it. Flavain called me went everyone made their way home because he is scared and want to talk to someone haha:D the images of the game is still stuck in his mind haha:D He is imagining things. Had a fiery conversation with him after supper. Cherie must be thinking that we are debating over something but nope it is just a conversation. haha:D quite funny. Ok I will forget about it when I wakes up tomorrow.
Oh yeah last but not least everyone please see Jorine's blog on her full masks essay on a typical Singaporean:D the link is on the left:D







Give in to that birthday boy!!!

Perspiring from 10 am till I bath when i reach home in the evening! I think I will go crazy like this man! Got back all the results today but not really happy with it because 2 subjects is just one mark away from a grade up! What is this!!! I think it just want to be against me! Tomorrow chinese intensive will start I think it is going to be very important for me to pass chinese olevel this time. So I shall study really hard all I can just this week and it shall be the last week I am touching chinese this year and get over it once and for all. I think I am really going to rest alot tonight so I can accumulate enough energy to hold through the whole 6 hours of intensive. Let really hope that the school will be kind enough to put us in air conditioned rooms man!!! And tomorrow afternoon is going to be exciting and a surprised for someone!!!:D:D:D:D
Have cafe duty for nearly 12 hours excluding the 1 and a half hour of concert. Totally drained out all of my energy!!! After think what wanting reminded me of Jian Ming's opps training I realised that what he planned is really coming to pass. Customer opps people are supposed to be trained so as that everyone is able to do the duty of any ministry in the customer opp section. Prepare cafe stuff for pre concert sales and later help BM with the max cool. That machine is really cool I don't think alot of people know that it actually operates with the use of water. Then back to cafe during hangout. Super busy, skipped lunch because there is really no time for that. Luckily I have good money sense so I can find change very fast or else...haha is will be more chaotic!!! The funniest thing that can take place must be the hotdog bun. That more interesting for the whole day, because the 'big' guy eat some super spicy hotdog bun like Noni and Colin. Funny though because sometimes when there are no customers coming it can get really bored standing there. It was very chaotic when the concert ended. Everyone have to setup the hangout settings in 4 minutes. With the help of some ushers we can do everything on time!!! 4 minutes!!! It is very short to setup somethings so that we can open a stall to sell things. I think we collected over 200 dollars from our hotdog bun and drinks stall. Ok here are some tips: please do not drink sodas thinking it will have you get over the spiciness of chilli sauce because it will only make matter worst:D
Morning is too bored for me to be at home so went out with aunt to orchard because she want to get a book: Don't bring it to work. The two of us just went crazy in Takashimaya. We went to crash LV walk in just for fun because we can't really afford one anyway. Don't really want one too, feel stress carrying one. But when I was inside I was thinking, actually what we pay the condo a month can buy us a bag there already especially when daddy is paying for two condos. Stress...very stress today! Not fully happy today so shall not talk about it. I better wash up and sleep soon because tomorrow's cafe duty have to report at 1030am. Reach home today tired and worn out bad news one after another I really don't know how to account for it. Just feel like staying at home all day tomorrow.
OK let me show everyone something first!!!
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Catcha! haha:D we shall have a good laughing time man!!!! No choice, when CG majors in girl guys turns a little gay haha:D
Ok ok lets see what I did today.
First a woke up at 8. That is super early can...
Went Cedar to see people, jerlyn smugger me in.
Afternoon mainly helping Decor with whatever they needed help to prepare for redrain. Tie baloons till my skin come out man! Prayer meeting was powerful. Sounds like some sneak preview of the concert! Ok you will definately high even if you don't want to!!!
I went to school and all I write is A, B, C or D. Ok actually no real writing, more of shading. Irritating! Did papers in 15 mins, redo it for checking and making sure I shaded the correct one in the next 15 mins and guess what...slept for half an hour. Please la! Joring even manage to draw on the bio MCQ paper during exam. She drew like the church audi with the screens and the cross stage she even show it to me when the teacher say put down our pens. Whatever it is felt super good today because MID YEARS are finally OVERRR!!! Went church in the afternoon to help up the ushers with the chearing of chairs and marking of the floor for red rain. I think there is 6 hundred over chairs that we manage to clear it and put those in MPR1. Up the spiral staircase is quite difficult but finish everthing in 3 hours including 25 mins total of break time. They got the Garang Guni to come buy the outdated Zeguist and the paper brouchers. Plus the pool table and table hocky table. I heard that everything might be 700 plus plus dollars. Tomorrow is going to fun man! No School!!! I plan to go jogging in the morning then go cedar with Jerlyn at 1030 then maybe go church help ba. Evening will be Red Rain prayer meeting so excited man!
Slept the whole night last night man! I think I am turning into a pig soon man! Slack slack and slack exams is still on weiling! ok...nevermind I didn't study yesterday for the paper today which was quite ok but considered kind of difficult and didn't study for tomorrow MCQ paper also. Nevermind I don't think there is anything to study for MCQ. Went Tampines 1 today for the first time since it is open. There is still exams tomorrow I know! It is a shopping trip but I didn't buy much things other than edible things. A few days ago, I decided to give out one Kinder Joy a day to bless people. So today brought one whole box of kinder joy man! I think I know why I didn't manage to buy things, maybe it is the mood that is not there. Not feeling well and good, first, I feel super uncomfortable because of cramps and everything plus yesterday got caught in the rain, feel the sick wave coming again. Can't afford to fall sick man, just realise today that chinese O'level paper is in 12 days!!! Seriously other that the intensive I hope would help me, I think it is all me already. Hope I could passed. Passed man! I want to be done this time once and for all all I want is just to pass. I don't even mind even if it is 50 marks because I have other plans to use the rest of my results already:D When tomorrow's last paper is done, I have decided to help up with whatever needed help for the upcoming redrain. I am sure there is still lots of things that would need some manpower. Tomorrow Jerlyn told me that they needed help to shift the chairs, I am there for sure already:D redrain is like in 3 days man! So excited!!! Everyone everywhere is talking about redrain.
After today's paper I think I shall start slacking le:) So damn sad man! But now so much better le. Last night receive message that I have to serve cafe at 10pm on sunday. Goodluck man! Monday don't have to go school already because too tired to craw to school already. But actually I still want to go school to collect my papers back. After exams today went to The Heeren with Jorine and Audrey. It is so funny man! Me and jorine travel down from serangoon via NEL then change to red line to meet audrey at summerset.One the NEL train I am like telling Jorine that time that when I went to meet cherie and huimin at orchard and took the train that went in the wrong direction and ended up in city hall and immediately the next thing we know we replayed the story again and ended up in city hall again so no choice, took a train back to summerset. So funny can. Left Heeren and went to church for some zone video viewing. It is a video on Pastor Bill Wilson, a pastor of a children church in the hearts of a new york city slamp area. That is really scary to be there little to say be a pastor there. The process of building the church, people had died, church have been burnt down but he still remains there and continue pastoring the children there. Why he stays there??? It is the Shepherd's heart in him. He won't walk away from a hopeless situation but think of what to do to solve the problem even if it puts him in danger, he stays! It is the love of christ and the Shepherd's heart that makes him stay put there. The shepherd's heart loves the unloveable.

Oh yeah! found out something too! The world is small man! Who know who you just met might be your friend's friend's friend. Ok it sounds complicated but it could be true. I am sure it is true man. Appearently one of my friends I knew probably around a week ago, Flavian, went blog hopping from his friend's blog into his friend's friend blog and into my another friend blog and saw my picture there. OMG he told me that," I saw one of the person inside looks familiar and I recognised it is you!" The world is round so everything goes round just like television show where all the characters in the shows are normally related. But everyone are related in the first place. This is so fun man! It had never once in my mind thought that such a thing would happen in the real world but it really happens! To me!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Yeah like What Flavian it is like from me> Flavian>A>B>C>me this is what it calls a circle of friends hahaha:D:D:D:D
Flavian is a cool cool guy who is doing great things for god, by god callings, he doesn't seems to mind where he is putting himself in. That is what it calls to be the hand and feet of god. When he tell me I am like WOW!!! Me too want to be god's hand and feet man!
"The Rightous Will Be Showered With Blessings"
A slip of paper fall out of the fortune cookie and that is what it wrote. I know what to do already:D
Yahaha today's physics paper is easier then I expected. Finish quite fast, wrote alot for the essay question even though it is 2-3 marks only but nevermind more is always better than less. The Social studies SBQ is about the recent news on the Thailand ASEAN meeting or somethinng like this. Then the protesters are know as the red shirt. Didnt sleep much the night before slept around 4 so slept only 2 hours so everything blur blur de. Saw the red shirt as redrain ok...it is really my eyes playing tricks on me. Tomorrow is Bio and Amath paper 2 and after tomorrow the papers will all be quite slack le because wed has only one paper and thurs is all the MCQ paper only and after that I can play for 3 days!!! I think Social studies paper I just keep writing and I wrote till I almost fell asleep while writing hahahaha:DDDD
Weeling and Derrick handphone all went crazy. Ai yo...
Powerful service! Even though Saturday's and Sunday's sermen are the same but Sunday is really more powerful. Pastor went all the way in. Like what pastor said we really don't do that often, I think I only experienced twiced that the whole church kneel down to worship. Once was during revival night the other is today. It is like making a convent to god that I burn, I burn I won't bow down. You want to burn me you shall burn but I will not bow down to other gods!











Warning!!!
This post contains my perceptive of 2F (2007) and also part of my life. It is strictly my perception, and I would hereby apologised first if any of the following content offends anyone out there. But this is the only memory of my secondary school life I will bring with me. The story begin with the first day in school:D
1F(2006) have the funkiest teacher, funniest teacher and the loudest teacher and even...a china chinese teacher hahahahah:D
Mr Chia is our form teacher and this is what he told us on the first day in school,"This is my first year teaching in this school so I am also as new as you guys!"It is hard for a teacher new to the environment to help his students get used to the environment. But Mr Chia did a great job! (some virgin princess only know how to sit in the office and pick on good people's flaws who care about all this lossers) I saw 2F's unity fron the first day in sec one even when we are all new, shy and quiet then. Through secondary 1 we grew, knew each other better and also made some teachers angry together and the teacher left in tears. I remembered that we changed a total of 12 science teachers in the short year alone in sec one. I remember that the first two people me and Cheryl know together is Miao Qin and Wendy. Actually I am quite a loner in sec one too. Maybe because I am fat, really fat and my self-esteem is low ba...the people iin my class will know haha:D My only friends are Cheryl and the people in girl guides and they are all that is in my life. Sad right??? But I joined Girl Guides and Cheryl joined Vollyball, so we drew apart soon and became more of nearing those hi bye friends. The vollyballers with Joleen and Jia Lin formed a clique, since I said I am a loner of cause I wasn't their friend. I think Clarissa doesn't like me then too. I didn't learnt my lesson from my PSLE and continued to slack and play through sec one until when end of year exams are nearing and I realise I nearly can't passed that I then started to work really hard. I also remember that I was in TAF that I first really made friends with Weeling and that we later became close friends for quite sometime. I hated the morning run so much that I will just forge sick infront of my doctor just to get a MC. I have long MCs because I just keep going to the doctor every 2 weeks and the MCs really lasted 2 months. I wasn't sad that I don't have much friends in the class then because my closer friends are all outside of my class. But we know that the classmates are still better because we spent nearly 90% of the time in school with them. But being quiet and look from the outside, I can then see the reals and fakes. I won't mention them but there is seriously some. Of cause the outside like us gossip and backstab too. I confess the I am kind of part of quite a big anti fan club and in friendster and also almost the start of one of the biggest anti-someone in 1F and 2F. But these are all in the past already. Maybe many may not know, but what was done cannot leave forever without guilt. When it comes to the end of sec one I really mug through the night. Study till 2 wake up at 5. Hated art lesson and exams because I am not those art people. Mr chia was already very easy about giving us marks and I am the only one that still failed. I only passed up one assignment the whole year. The report book came...I actually passed, by a 7.2% for the overall 10 subjects. But I really woke up and know I can't play with my life anymore. From october when the holidays start, I lost more than 10 kg before secondary 2 starts. Gainig 3 kg in between from taiwan and lost it too. That holiday was quite bad when I think back but that is not the worst. Sec 2 we had a actual science teacher for once. She taught 1D in 2006 but came to teach us and them in 2007. When the real teachers comes everybody respect and does what she says. I really mug like mad through sec 2. I top science from the beginning of the year with Jeekin overtaking me sometimes but that is what I do all day, trying to do better in my studies and indeed I realise studing proves myself to people for something. Sec 2 was a fun year no one forgets. Ms yeo our crazy Math teacher scolds me crazy woman but she is crazy too! I think that year the craziest thing I did to her was scoring full marks for the math paper 1 in the EYE and nearly failing the paper 2. I can remember that super clearly because that was the first time I got full marks for math. Hey it is because I mug lo... In sec two annual camp the NA class scolded us and we ganged ourselves together to ignore them and if nessary scold them that is the real unity I saw in 2F though it seems like a bad thing but it still shows our unity. We are really like the best of the bes t in the entire level I would say. Every teacher from then on that comes into my class just loves us. And even in acadamically, 2F simply took up almost most of the top 10 positions in the entire level for that year. 2F pupil became leaders in their CCAs too. We showed a very strong and united side to the teachers and the rest of the level but being inside, what I saw was the other side. The side of weakness and all the bad culture in 2F. But I am sure people and Jealous of my class. Everyday in class there is backstab, hatred and open scolding at times and even bully (nobody should deny this). BUt when it comes to competition, we part aside everything and do our best. We won the most united class for our restuarant project. Ok here is another crazy but logical thing. We have a math trail during the sec 2 camp and we were brought to VIVO city and we are suppose to count the number of flowers on this gaint ball. So I saw a booth at the side and went over to ask them how many flowers are there when everyone is counting aimlessly. Hehe:P luckily I manage to get the answer before ms yeo caught me and told the person not tell any students that comes pass to ask because we are having a competition. There are really many many things that happened in Sec 2 but sec 2 ended with an unsuccessful BBQ which I didn't attend any because I was away but the entire cause of it is hatred, gossip and being not happy but not telling the other party and I shall not elaborate. We split into the different classes in sec 3. But the we came back together for a christmas cum gathering BBQ at the end of 2008 seeing people coming together not have that hatred anymore so deep is great. All I hope that this bond never breaks:D
There is a man. no a teacher call pinapple that loves talking.
He talks and talk and talks and all he do is talks.
Everytime before exams, he never fails to not bring us peace by just stop talking.
Talk about this talk about that and he just rattles on...
I almost want to ash him to SHUT HIS GAP today before the math paper because all I want is just silence and I think everyone wants that too!!!
Now right in the middle of exams:D Half more way to go man!
Screwed up my Chemistry paper today:( because the first paper for today is math paper 1 then after the break is Chemistry, Everytime after my math paper I would feel like I have not slept for 2 nights. You know how that felt right and the weather is freaky hot and stuffy. I did the paper very fast through and just slept through the rest of the paper without checking another time at all. I am also not sure of many question. Arh...I still have lots of things to study!!! I am going to study super hard for SS, because if I don't do well for that it will also pull my grades down like what happened in common test. Gabriel thinks that I can have my well deserved break soon but sadly he is wrong man. Times flies, right after Mid years when everyone goes off for holiday, we will be back in school for intensive and O'level chinese paper. Super sian man! June holiday also have to mug and continue with 20 hours study rule and study like mad to prepare for prelims, orals and Olevel. The next half a year will fly past super fast! And in no time when Christmas is here again then everything would be over already
Thanks everyone that helped me man! Seriously, sometime exams cannot be one man work anymore, but when we help one another it makes the entire thing easier. Happy to be once in 2f because they are the people that we build relationships together and would help one another. Yeah! All the best to Mr Chia too the 2f"s guardian angel!!!!
I Will Study Hard!
Yeah! I rather study hard and do well because it feels very good to see result man!
I also can't wait for end of years holidays! Aunty ask me to go Hong Kong find her after my O'levels.
Woke up at 9 bath and cook maggi mee myself. I really fail in that man!
Took taxi to Weeling house to pick her up and went to church to study. It is so empty there even the air con is not working so it is super hot and stuffy. studied till 2 then rest one hour then send weeling off. When walking towards the lift met Audrey and Ben who came from school and Audrey is like orh...pon school come here. After we walk off we are like what a bad timing we hit and we are just utterly shock when we just saw them because I planned to let weeling leave before they come. When to buy stuff for people which is a coke from NTUC and one more coke from Mac but what is the difference??? But it is ok go for a walk after closing myself in church for the past few hours. Went to buy SUBWAY with Weeling and rush up because worship session and prayer meeting is starting. Really have to pray for spiritual growth in the CG man! Though, we still have a powerful prayer meeting! Ended at 5 so we went downstairs at MAC to eat dinner and went back up to study 1 more hour each before going home. Will be returning to school on thurs ba:D Mugging soon le:D
Can't sleep well for the whole night!! Unproductive sleep!
finish up end times CD in the morning then went to orchard to meet Hui Min and Cherie because the two of them are going far east to cut hair. Went to take the train towards the wrong direction and ended up in City Hall that complicated MRT station. Walk all over the mrt station just to find the train that will be goinging to orchard. So annoying! Reach orchard and the two of them are late too so I went over to Far East to shop first brought nothing. The both of them cut their short man but for cherie even when it looks quite long but it is really a big step man! Because her mom wants her to have long hair haha:D Hui Min say that everyone is cutting their hair short just to persude Cherie to cut it off too. Cherie hair still seems to be longer than mine! The three of us went to eat snowshave at the basement after that. Delicious! Rush to church after that. Cherie seems to be really stress over the entire planning for the usher stuff for Red Rain. Everyone have put in alot of effort to make the entire event successful I am so excited too, I am definately bring lots of people!!! Studied in church in the afternoon around 4 plus but the air con is not on so it is super hot brought a fanfrom downstairs all the way up to use it. Studied half-way lost inspiration to study so went down to buy things to eat. Some people ask me to buy stuff for them and ask me to choose what to buy and yet they eee...at the things I buy then since it is so then don't ask me to buy, you can buy it yourselves. Please la you guys does not worth my respect at all and if you guys want to give up yourself then give up you don't have to swan me! I am not like you give up so easily. You guys just totally disgust me! Went to buy contact lens at night, brought 3 pairs of coloured ones secretly because mummy don't like it but nevermind, because after I buy it back, what else can she do haha:D
Markus is one lucky chap man! He doesn't even have to go through SOW to learn guitar from garrett! Everyone is jealous of him man!
Ponning school with weeling tomorrow! Yeah! I am really just going to bring books and study anyway mummy allow me to do that so don't care so much le:D
Everyone except for me and Pollyna was late for CG.
Went lunch after CG then return to church and stayed in alfresco because today also have mothers' day event.
Wrote the so called 'english compo' for Pastor Lia using the RJC foolscape paper.
We use that because RJC is changing their name to RIJC(sounds so disgusting right) and they no longer produce the RJC foolscape paper anymore so Pollyna says that it is a limited edition and this Kiasu girl brought a few before they stop selling. Another reason is that Pastor Lia ia from RJC so wee filled in the blanks like we are really handing in a compo and it will look very funny to her. Drew some weird things before I started haha:D mine will be the nicest. During service, there was a family sitting in front of me, I saw the mother crying during Seah Testimony sharing. She must be so touched from a mother's perspective, something I can't feel now. After two days, I really felt the mums are the greatest creature on earth. Their unconditional love and sacrifices is just uncountable already. I love you mummy. Since today is the actually day of mothers' day I made Breakfast for mummy. I really fail at cooking man! The sausage is hot outside and cold inside haha:D but mummy still finish eating it:D Ok one confession here, I can't even cook maggi mee because since young grandma don't let us cook because she is afraid that we dirty the kitchen so I ended up like this. I cook mummy's breakfast when the two of them went to the market hehe:) lucky me!
Third birthday meal with the same old meal style, you know what.
Alcohol never work on me, never a single bit.
4 glasses of red wine and I just look and acted normal.
Mother's day celebration is so grand and touching.
First time I see people eating when pastor preach.
I can confess this, I never really thank my mum for what she had done ever since I have grown up.
I shall give her a surprise tomorrow morning then.
Tomorrow morning there will be CG. Mugging tonight because I have to study 6 more hours before leaving the house tomorrow morning and since it is 1235 now, it means that I don't have to sleep tonight.
I don't need people to tell me I know I have cause alot of trouble and all the unrest. Don't have to tell me anything I know it is all because of me all I want to say is sorry. I own you guys guilt all my life.
Washed my hamster's cage under running water. It have been weeks since I clean that cage already. Use my new blue padding too:) look so cool man!
Had so stupid chinese paper today that ask stupid question
If chinese is so difficult, I don't mind being monoligual. I crapped through the comprehension and sleep. Not saying the passage is that difficult it is just question!!! Not going to school till thursday. Stupid school have stupid things. We actually had an announcement in the middle of our exams. see see see...!
The ang mo paper was quite easy today, ok...at least I understand the passage can???
But did a grave mistake, forget the format for the situation writing and I just wrote to:... to begin and from:... to end.
The most horrible paper is at the hottest and most stuffy time of the day....noon. And the best part is that I just took my lunch so I was drifting in and out of sleep during the paper. Not to worry because it is chinese listening comprehension. It just sound like someone chanting something there. At least my is just those few seconds sleep but weeling really fell asleep till her pen drop hahahahah:D
Ok tomorrow is all the chi na paper hope I don't sleep during the exams. I think this just the effect of chinese words on me.
Tonight I will sleep early.
I believe that the night before exams the most important is not notes or study but is sleep. It is better to have a conscious mind in the exam hall than to be sleepy with many things in the mind because everyone have something call common sense. Tomorrow is going to be english papers which I have the least hope in...):
So I better sleep early or else...all I write will be crap.
Oh yeah...tomorrow all temperature taking is going to be terminated!!!! Yeah!!!!!
Oh learnt something today out of classroom aand textbook (not really maybe it is just out of textbook)
Everyone have their own powerful ways to reach out to people. Maybe I should adopt one too, one of my own unique way. Sorry to listen secretly when I don't mean to but it is just too tempting and it attracts my attention to listen haha:D
Yeah one last thing yhat happen today...
Ok guys your must understand that Weiling is someone who can laugh to herself just by thinking of something funny. So once again I am daydreaming in Ms leow's slow math class and suddenly something super funny came into my mind. Then what happen is just nice, when I daydream I am very clever, I would stare into the teacher's eyes so they will think I am concentrating and so I am also staring into dear Ms Leow's eyes today. So when I daydream half-way then I started to smile to myself, she saw it and announce to the class this,"hey when you smile to me it is very scary leh" I am like OMG smile announced. And I just broke out into the everlasting long laughter. Hahahahah:D Going jogging on fri with cherie.
Did BM today!!! In the wash toilet team. I think we had to most fun. Wash the toilets outside the Admin office first. Wash the girls toilet then went on to the boys. Girls nothing special but the boys one was something fun. Tried the flush for the standing toilet bowl in the boys toilet, it is so fun. I even ask markus don't he feels insecure when they pee everyone can see it. But those things are really smelly. Realise we haven't cleared the "blue bins" in the girls toilet so we went back to clear it sprayed the freshener like mad. But little did we know that the ones in the toilets on the 12 floor were worst because everyone uses that. The BM incharge had to open it for us and by the way he is a guy. Not surprise because I think many of them open and cleared before anyway but it should still be the girls job...but we can't open it don't blame us...the smell is...I think everyone knows. Before BM me, Jerlyn, Markus and Audrey had a worship session with only 4 people but we still made it! The holy spirit is with us. So jealous of Jerlyn man, she finish her last paper today she is free till August. Decided and made up my mind to 'pon' school next monday, tuesday and wednesday. Wait I have very good reasons to support my decision.
1) Teacher have finish what they have to teach for and would be doing revision anyway so must as well study myself at home I think it would be more productive as it is not noisy and I can also get Jerlyn to coach me too.
2) I have the abilities to study now with whatever I have, enough to last through mid-years exams.
3) Mummy allow it too since I explained to her my reason but just that maybe she don't know how to tell my school, it is a little tricky who can give me advise on how to convince my teachers???
BM ended with them asking us to go home since we are having exams this week...
Ok I better get back to studying.
The day was bad but the night was good today
After school took bus with Shu Yi but shuyi is holding on to a pack of ROJAK so the bus uncle don't allow us to board the bus. Shu yi already promise not to eat he even said loudly that he don't trush her. What a bus uncle are you. Bad attitude, doesn't the bus training teaches you customer service. People also bring food and drinks up the bus, why didn't you catch them but catch Shuyi. Went home, was surprised to see Kendra there. Then next Xueni called and asked if I am free to go Hougang Green meet her and Gabriel for lunch and study together. Sure!!! Took bus 147 and one of the few stops later Ms Lam boarded the bus. Haven't seen her ages man! She was one of the greatest teacher that ever taught me. We use to hate her and thinks that she is a super fierce and strict form teacher, science teacher and math teacher. But seriously compared to all the teachers after that OMG she is like angel. Other then Mr Chia, who has the most compassion for his student and he is so good till a stupid virgin princess bullies him. Me and Ms Lam talk and talk and talk on the bus for 5 to 6 bus stops before she alights. I am super worried for her, she looks so pale and seems to be coughing too. Finally reach hougang green after a long walk in met Gabriel and xueni. They really can be my best friends man! They are the most real people around. We brought bubbletea and went to Jimmy Yummy to study and talk. After awhile Ben and Kendra arrive too. Maybe I really can't click with them feels like fish out of water and I hate it when they insult and laugh at my friends. Why don't you guys look at yourselves first, you have no rights to insult my friends it is like "swine calling the pig ugly" (quote from spencer). Horse is not to refer to someone ok! You want to think of it then keep it to yourselves don't let me hear it then, because I love them too. You guys won't want me to laugh at your friends too right or just laugh at you guys. Because you guys have lots of things to laugh at too. I love my friends too so please be fair.
Saturday service was preach by pastor lia. It the 'anointing" she have preached in the sunday youth service a few weeks back. Being in the middle of the audi we can't really feel the chaos at the front when pastor ministered to the people. Many groups of people went up I think the largest group should be the university and pre-university people. The whole thing dragged till 8. But it is really powerful so I am going to get the CD! Stayed up throught the entire Saturday night till 6 one of the reason is because I have to study and the other reason is that something is attacking me through the night. For some reason I was feeling sad and depressed. What I knew was that I can be studying half-way and started to cry. Even when the cg prayed for me before leaving church on Saturday night I only felt slightly better because it really meant something to me. Felt high in the morning after drinking yakult greentea even thinking of going for a jog. Did QT from 6 plus till 7 plus and finishing sending a important message before i finally forced myself to sleep. Woke up at 11 plus ate breakfast and watch TV at the sametime till 1. Bath and went to church. Met Cherie on the bus and apparently I walk pass her without knowing that she is there but still walk back and joined her. Reach Singapore post and joined the rest of the CG. Realise that D10 is really growing bigger in numbers and stronger in spiritually. The CG is getting bigger and we are strong in our spirits too during 24 prayer is a good example man! A guest speaker came today and he is...Steven Munsey. Like what pastor How told us the week before he really tore the church apart with his powerful sermen. He is super powerful. He did not preach his sermen but told us a story from it. He ran all over the church and the poor camera person have to find him and even us have a hard time tracing him. We are all shocked by the way he preached and I am like," oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh...." through the entire service. I really surrender man! He is super...no words to describe already he just just GOOD!!! During alter call on who want to have a touch of god in our life so we can reach out to people with god in us for the next thirty days everyone just move forward. the entire place is chaotic man! I had a revelation! Red rain is going to be a very important event for us to bring revival to Peicai. It is on 23 and 24 may and whoever that sees this and wants to go can ask from me for the offical entry pass. After service and dinner we went to SOW open house. So inspired and I made a decision from today onwards I am going to work towards picking up acoustic guitar and join SOW in its next intake. For god have given pastors keys to reach out to the younger generation and one of these keys is a key into music so it is important. Gugu have a acoustic guitar and she say that i can use it once Mavis returns it. I am so excited man! No hole in pocket hahah:D
Loving a person is when someone else talks bad about that person you just feels like 'killing' or just slap them in the face right there.
Loving a person is went they feel sad you feels for them too.
Memory just starts drifting into my mind today.
Remember that about a month or two ago Jamie preach to us in a CG that we can not like someone just still loves them.
I truly felt it now.
Sometimes some people just gets on your nerves. I dislike them because they 'dao' me and give me that stupid 'u think I care' or 'you are the lamest person man' face. No matter how happily you want to talk about some things it just pull you down and you just no longer have the mood to continue saying. They spread things about you which are far of worst then the jokes you say to them, trying to find topics to talk about and they just want to end your conversation. Treating you differently from what they used to and gossip about you with the others. You have no choice but to see them very frequently. I just not want to see them at all. But today when i see them once again I ask myself what if one day someone is going to talk bad about them what my reaction is going to be. I even made up examples I would hear but once the though came into my mind I felt like fighting and standing up for them. I realise that is loving someone. I finally realise that!!!

P.S. hey I am here alright. All you have to do is to tell me I will carry it together with you through everything or pray over your problems. If you don't want people to help thinking that it would be a burden on the people around you then you should not be blaming god for the burden you have on you right now. You are not fair to me too alright when you say uyou will be there for me no matter what happens and when I am feeling down I turn to you too and created a huge problem out of it but from the bottom of my heart it is ony that I know you will be there that is why I say and tell you only wanting a listening ear and you feels for me and i feels safe telling to but you are not treating the same to me. When I am feeling really really down I mean very I can feel that you will be there but why can't you feel that i can be there to carry it for you too. You are not trusting me or something else. You are freaking me out right here alright. What you tell me is not in line with what you are thinking, this will only cause people to not trust you alright. At least tell the truth alright. I keep things to myself when i have the confidence that i can overcome it myself but it is not for you. All I want to say is that I love you and will be there for you. I can't feel that you can feel it anyway. You don't want to tell me I can't force you to it is up to yourself. I can't carry on with this aimless life being moody. If you still feels moody about what is happening you stills cares about that person alright.
24 prayer meeting was super fun. It starts at 6pm in thurs till 6pm on friday. It is like a rely as the CGs took turn to pray for one hour each. D10 in at 7am on fri but I was there at 10 plus pm on thursday night because I have cafe duty from 11pm till 2am. Due to the swine flu, Singapore raised the health standards to orange so they held temperature checks before we enter church. Luckily it was over 24 hours so we barely had to queue but I really can't imagine what will happen on Sat and Sun. After cafe I decided to study till 7 but gave in half-way and slept against the table for one whole hour. Waste my time!!! We were ushered into MPR2 to watch a video of Pastor Cho the pastor of the world largest christian concregration on prayer. Everyone say it is very powerful but i think i am really too tired because through the fifty minute video i was drifting in and out of sleep. But I did listen to what he said and i can still remember though i was almost sleeping!:D
Afther that followed by one more hour of prayer meeting and ministering in MPR1. It is super powerful! Even when I was really so sleepy i didn't even feel like sleeping for that whole one hour. After the whole thing we went downstairs to wait for Jerlyn and Cherie and i just slept on he floor in the audi for one whole hour. After lunch went home and pack my stuff and even threw away 3 big bags of stuff. Slept again from 8 plus till 10 plus then Wanting suddenly wake me up so i answered the phone and Cherie is on the line, asking me to go jogging. So I woke up, wash up and went jogging with Ben Gabriel and Cherie which turn out to be just a stroll at 11 till midnight but i jogged from my house to serangoon stadium so still considered exercised!!!! I still have 7 and a half more hours to study. I will finish it tomorrow!!

I once came upon a bookmark a few months ago and it is stuck in my mind.
It is about this walk af life with god. When a person dies and look back on his walk of life he realise that he sees two pairs of footprints left in some parts of his life while there are only one pair during the other times. On a closer look at it he realise that those times where there are only one pair of footprint on the road is during hard and difficult times while when life is good and well, there are two pairs of footprints there. He then ask god why god left him during those difficult and hard times and only stay by him during those good and well times. Jesus replied that god didn't leave him during those hard and difficult times but there are only one pair because god has carried him during those difficult times and that one pair of footprint is the footprint of Jesus.
Look at my tagbox everyone spamming already haha:D
Today the 4 guys playing basketball in church against team 2 I don't know who team 2 are but This 4 guys played really well and it was a hot match and they won their opponent by 7-5 wow!!! Claps and cheers* Kind of hook onto a song now I think I have played it in my mind and physically as music on my phone more that a hundred times within 2 days. Those guys and girls on my tagbox are right, I wasn't really very happy this 2 days with my results but no point being stuck here forever, life still have to move on. And actually flavian you don't have to scold that person because I kind of know who that person is I think he is kidding with me only haha:D Ok slept on the bus till my things drop when I was on the bus home just now so loud man so embarrassing. Yeah someone kind of agreed to come tomorrow okok this is quite great:D
I will study very very hard during holidays I promise! 30 hour a week and week starts on sunday till saturday this means that it would start in around half hour time.

"The 2 greatest day of a person is the day he is born and the day he finds out
why he is born-Winston Churchill"

Nice quote isn't it??? If the purpose in my life and making it clear and convicted to it, not letting busy things in life bring me away from this purpose. Life is short and it is just this one life and only things done for christ remains. This great person pick me up from the hands of the devil so I can live life eternal not in hell.

Cried out when I get back my report book!!! I already put in my most effort into humanities and yet the results are still so disappointing:( I already tried my best to make it up. I can't concentrate in humanities class. What can I do, only to study on my own but it won't be as effective already. And I rather go into the exam hall with knowledge but with lesser sleep the previous night then to go in wide awake but unprepared. I want to sleep too but sometimes things just crop up pushing back my study time so??? I don't need my parents to know that, I know what my limits which my parents don't even know but only ask me to sleep all the time and I would fail instead. That report card will only bring me trouble, I won't help at all. Nobody understands! My dad will kill me for sure, he hates that I don't get enough rest understands???
Went shopping, movie and eating to forget about my results for awhile. But what else, I am still back in reality now. I am tired already, what have I done wrong. Have good news too but I am not saying:P
morning went school for our last day of intensive yeppy!!! Slept quite alot during intensive just for today because 4 hours of teaching of the compo I am definately not writing so don't even want to look at it. I do that I fail man! Went AMK HUB to look for sarine wanting and jerlyn because we planned to play basketball but sarine lost her wallet so we went to report her lost wallet. Fifty plus plus inside man!!! Then went to play basketball with some of her friends but I really fail at it man!!! Not even a ball I throw enter the basket, not even when I am very near it already. Later went tuition, super tired of chinese already can nearly 8 hours of chinese lesson today lar!!! After tuition went to Chomp Chomp to have dinner cum supper with Felicia, Nicholas, Jorine, one of their friend, Cherie and Flavian. Flavian ate like a plate of prawn noodles and another plate of carrot cake and plus anothe gaint mug of sugar cane juice. POWERR!!! Was wondering aimlessly around serangoon after that then decided to go to LAN shop to play computer. Played L4D (left 4 Dead) scare me like mad can. I was screaming at the computer and everyone just laugh at me!!! I am not playing that again. It was like stepping into a LAN shop since secondary 2. Flavain said that it is his first time playing but he played so well Felicia says that it must be the guys thing and he seems to be hooked on it. Flavain called me went everyone made their way home because he is scared and want to talk to someone haha:D the images of the game is still stuck in his mind haha:D He is imagining things. Had a fiery conversation with him after supper. Cherie must be thinking that we are debating over something but nope it is just a conversation. haha:D quite funny. Ok I will forget about it when I wakes up tomorrow.
Oh yeah last but not least everyone please see Jorine's blog on her full masks essay on a typical Singaporean:D the link is on the left:D







Give in to that birthday boy!!!

Perspiring from 10 am till I bath when i reach home in the evening! I think I will go crazy like this man! Got back all the results today but not really happy with it because 2 subjects is just one mark away from a grade up! What is this!!! I think it just want to be against me! Tomorrow chinese intensive will start I think it is going to be very important for me to pass chinese olevel this time. So I shall study really hard all I can just this week and it shall be the last week I am touching chinese this year and get over it once and for all. I think I am really going to rest alot tonight so I can accumulate enough energy to hold through the whole 6 hours of intensive. Let really hope that the school will be kind enough to put us in air conditioned rooms man!!! And tomorrow afternoon is going to be exciting and a surprised for someone!!!:D:D:D:D
Have cafe duty for nearly 12 hours excluding the 1 and a half hour of concert. Totally drained out all of my energy!!! After think what wanting reminded me of Jian Ming's opps training I realised that what he planned is really coming to pass. Customer opps people are supposed to be trained so as that everyone is able to do the duty of any ministry in the customer opp section. Prepare cafe stuff for pre concert sales and later help BM with the max cool. That machine is really cool I don't think alot of people know that it actually operates with the use of water. Then back to cafe during hangout. Super busy, skipped lunch because there is really no time for that. Luckily I have good money sense so I can find change very fast or else...haha is will be more chaotic!!! The funniest thing that can take place must be the hotdog bun. That more interesting for the whole day, because the 'big' guy eat some super spicy hotdog bun like Noni and Colin. Funny though because sometimes when there are no customers coming it can get really bored standing there. It was very chaotic when the concert ended. Everyone have to setup the hangout settings in 4 minutes. With the help of some ushers we can do everything on time!!! 4 minutes!!! It is very short to setup somethings so that we can open a stall to sell things. I think we collected over 200 dollars from our hotdog bun and drinks stall. Ok here are some tips: please do not drink sodas thinking it will have you get over the spiciness of chilli sauce because it will only make matter worst:D
Morning is too bored for me to be at home so went out with aunt to orchard because she want to get a book: Don't bring it to work. The two of us just went crazy in Takashimaya. We went to crash LV walk in just for fun because we can't really afford one anyway. Don't really want one too, feel stress carrying one. But when I was inside I was thinking, actually what we pay the condo a month can buy us a bag there already especially when daddy is paying for two condos. Stress...very stress today! Not fully happy today so shall not talk about it. I better wash up and sleep soon because tomorrow's cafe duty have to report at 1030am. Reach home today tired and worn out bad news one after another I really don't know how to account for it. Just feel like staying at home all day tomorrow.
OK let me show everyone something first!!!
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Catcha! haha:D we shall have a good laughing time man!!!! No choice, when CG majors in girl guys turns a little gay haha:D
Ok ok lets see what I did today.
First a woke up at 8. That is super early can...
Went Cedar to see people, jerlyn smugger me in.
Afternoon mainly helping Decor with whatever they needed help to prepare for redrain. Tie baloons till my skin come out man! Prayer meeting was powerful. Sounds like some sneak preview of the concert! Ok you will definately high even if you don't want to!!!
I went to school and all I write is A, B, C or D. Ok actually no real writing, more of shading. Irritating! Did papers in 15 mins, redo it for checking and making sure I shaded the correct one in the next 15 mins and guess what...slept for half an hour. Please la! Joring even manage to draw on the bio MCQ paper during exam. She drew like the church audi with the screens and the cross stage she even show it to me when the teacher say put down our pens. Whatever it is felt super good today because MID YEARS are finally OVERRR!!! Went church in the afternoon to help up the ushers with the chearing of chairs and marking of the floor for red rain. I think there is 6 hundred over chairs that we manage to clear it and put those in MPR1. Up the spiral staircase is quite difficult but finish everthing in 3 hours including 25 mins total of break time. They got the Garang Guni to come buy the outdated Zeguist and the paper brouchers. Plus the pool table and table hocky table. I heard that everything might be 700 plus plus dollars. Tomorrow is going to fun man! No School!!! I plan to go jogging in the morning then go cedar with Jerlyn at 1030 then maybe go church help ba. Evening will be Red Rain prayer meeting so excited man!
Slept the whole night last night man! I think I am turning into a pig soon man! Slack slack and slack exams is still on weiling! ok...nevermind I didn't study yesterday for the paper today which was quite ok but considered kind of difficult and didn't study for tomorrow MCQ paper also. Nevermind I don't think there is anything to study for MCQ. Went Tampines 1 today for the first time since it is open. There is still exams tomorrow I know! It is a shopping trip but I didn't buy much things other than edible things. A few days ago, I decided to give out one Kinder Joy a day to bless people. So today brought one whole box of kinder joy man! I think I know why I didn't manage to buy things, maybe it is the mood that is not there. Not feeling well and good, first, I feel super uncomfortable because of cramps and everything plus yesterday got caught in the rain, feel the sick wave coming again. Can't afford to fall sick man, just realise today that chinese O'level paper is in 12 days!!! Seriously other that the intensive I hope would help me, I think it is all me already. Hope I could passed. Passed man! I want to be done this time once and for all all I want is just to pass. I don't even mind even if it is 50 marks because I have other plans to use the rest of my results already:D When tomorrow's last paper is done, I have decided to help up with whatever needed help for the upcoming redrain. I am sure there is still lots of things that would need some manpower. Tomorrow Jerlyn told me that they needed help to shift the chairs, I am there for sure already:D redrain is like in 3 days man! So excited!!! Everyone everywhere is talking about redrain.
After today's paper I think I shall start slacking le:) So damn sad man! But now so much better le. Last night receive message that I have to serve cafe at 10pm on sunday. Goodluck man! Monday don't have to go school already because too tired to craw to school already. But actually I still want to go school to collect my papers back. After exams today went to The Heeren with Jorine and Audrey. It is so funny man! Me and jorine travel down from serangoon via NEL then change to red line to meet audrey at summerset.One the NEL train I am like telling Jorine that time that when I went to meet cherie and huimin at orchard and took the train that went in the wrong direction and ended up in city hall and immediately the next thing we know we replayed the story again and ended up in city hall again so no choice, took a train back to summerset. So funny can. Left Heeren and went to church for some zone video viewing. It is a video on Pastor Bill Wilson, a pastor of a children church in the hearts of a new york city slamp area. That is really scary to be there little to say be a pastor there. The process of building the church, people had died, church have been burnt down but he still remains there and continue pastoring the children there. Why he stays there??? It is the Shepherd's heart in him. He won't walk away from a hopeless situation but think of what to do to solve the problem even if it puts him in danger, he stays! It is the love of christ and the Shepherd's heart that makes him stay put there. The shepherd's heart loves the unloveable.

Oh yeah! found out something too! The world is small man! Who know who you just met might be your friend's friend's friend. Ok it sounds complicated but it could be true. I am sure it is true man. Appearently one of my friends I knew probably around a week ago, Flavian, went blog hopping from his friend's blog into his friend's friend blog and into my another friend blog and saw my picture there. OMG he told me that," I saw one of the person inside looks familiar and I recognised it is you!" The world is round so everything goes round just like television show where all the characters in the shows are normally related. But everyone are related in the first place. This is so fun man! It had never once in my mind thought that such a thing would happen in the real world but it really happens! To me!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Yeah like What Flavian it is like from me> Flavian>A>B>C>me this is what it calls a circle of friends hahaha:D:D:D:D
Flavian is a cool cool guy who is doing great things for god, by god callings, he doesn't seems to mind where he is putting himself in. That is what it calls to be the hand and feet of god. When he tell me I am like WOW!!! Me too want to be god's hand and feet man!
"The Rightous Will Be Showered With Blessings"
A slip of paper fall out of the fortune cookie and that is what it wrote. I know what to do already:D
Yahaha today's physics paper is easier then I expected. Finish quite fast, wrote alot for the essay question even though it is 2-3 marks only but nevermind more is always better than less. The Social studies SBQ is about the recent news on the Thailand ASEAN meeting or somethinng like this. Then the protesters are know as the red shirt. Didnt sleep much the night before slept around 4 so slept only 2 hours so everything blur blur de. Saw the red shirt as redrain ok...it is really my eyes playing tricks on me. Tomorrow is Bio and Amath paper 2 and after tomorrow the papers will all be quite slack le because wed has only one paper and thurs is all the MCQ paper only and after that I can play for 3 days!!! I think Social studies paper I just keep writing and I wrote till I almost fell asleep while writing hahahaha:DDDD
Weeling and Derrick handphone all went crazy. Ai yo...
Powerful service! Even though Saturday's and Sunday's sermen are the same but Sunday is really more powerful. Pastor went all the way in. Like what pastor said we really don't do that often, I think I only experienced twiced that the whole church kneel down to worship. Once was during revival night the other is today. It is like making a convent to god that I burn, I burn I won't bow down. You want to burn me you shall burn but I will not bow down to other gods!











Warning!!!
This post contains my perceptive of 2F (2007) and also part of my life. It is strictly my perception, and I would hereby apologised first if any of the following content offends anyone out there. But this is the only memory of my secondary school life I will bring with me. The story begin with the first day in school:D
1F(2006) have the funkiest teacher, funniest teacher and the loudest teacher and even...a china chinese teacher hahahahah:D
Mr Chia is our form teacher and this is what he told us on the first day in school,"This is my first year teaching in this school so I am also as new as you guys!"It is hard for a teacher new to the environment to help his students get used to the environment. But Mr Chia did a great job! (some virgin princess only know how to sit in the office and pick on good people's flaws who care about all this lossers) I saw 2F's unity fron the first day in sec one even when we are all new, shy and quiet then. Through secondary 1 we grew, knew each other better and also made some teachers angry together and the teacher left in tears. I remembered that we changed a total of 12 science teachers in the short year alone in sec one. I remember that the first two people me and Cheryl know together is Miao Qin and Wendy. Actually I am quite a loner in sec one too. Maybe because I am fat, really fat and my self-esteem is low ba...the people iin my class will know haha:D My only friends are Cheryl and the people in girl guides and they are all that is in my life. Sad right??? But I joined Girl Guides and Cheryl joined Vollyball, so we drew apart soon and became more of nearing those hi bye friends. The vollyballers with Joleen and Jia Lin formed a clique, since I said I am a loner of cause I wasn't their friend. I think Clarissa doesn't like me then too. I didn't learnt my lesson from my PSLE and continued to slack and play through sec one until when end of year exams are nearing and I realise I nearly can't passed that I then started to work really hard. I also remember that I was in TAF that I first really made friends with Weeling and that we later became close friends for quite sometime. I hated the morning run so much that I will just forge sick infront of my doctor just to get a MC. I have long MCs because I just keep going to the doctor every 2 weeks and the MCs really lasted 2 months. I wasn't sad that I don't have much friends in the class then because my closer friends are all outside of my class. But we know that the classmates are still better because we spent nearly 90% of the time in school with them. But being quiet and look from the outside, I can then see the reals and fakes. I won't mention them but there is seriously some. Of cause the outside like us gossip and backstab too. I confess the I am kind of part of quite a big anti fan club and in friendster and also almost the start of one of the biggest anti-someone in 1F and 2F. But these are all in the past already. Maybe many may not know, but what was done cannot leave forever without guilt. When it comes to the end of sec one I really mug through the night. Study till 2 wake up at 5. Hated art lesson and exams because I am not those art people. Mr chia was already very easy about giving us marks and I am the only one that still failed. I only passed up one assignment the whole year. The report book came...I actually passed, by a 7.2% for the overall 10 subjects. But I really woke up and know I can't play with my life anymore. From october when the holidays start, I lost more than 10 kg before secondary 2 starts. Gainig 3 kg in between from taiwan and lost it too. That holiday was quite bad when I think back but that is not the worst. Sec 2 we had a actual science teacher for once. She taught 1D in 2006 but came to teach us and them in 2007. When the real teachers comes everybody respect and does what she says. I really mug like mad through sec 2. I top science from the beginning of the year with Jeekin overtaking me sometimes but that is what I do all day, trying to do better in my studies and indeed I realise studing proves myself to people for something. Sec 2 was a fun year no one forgets. Ms yeo our crazy Math teacher scolds me crazy woman but she is crazy too! I think that year the craziest thing I did to her was scoring full marks for the math paper 1 in the EYE and nearly failing the paper 2. I can remember that super clearly because that was the first time I got full marks for math. Hey it is because I mug lo... In sec two annual camp the NA class scolded us and we ganged ourselves together to ignore them and if nessary scold them that is the real unity I saw in 2F though it seems like a bad thing but it still shows our unity. We are really like the best of the bes t in the entire level I would say. Every teacher from then on that comes into my class just loves us. And even in acadamically, 2F simply took up almost most of the top 10 positions in the entire level for that year. 2F pupil became leaders in their CCAs too. We showed a very strong and united side to the teachers and the rest of the level but being inside, what I saw was the other side. The side of weakness and all the bad culture in 2F. But I am sure people and Jealous of my class. Everyday in class there is backstab, hatred and open scolding at times and even bully (nobody should deny this). BUt when it comes to competition, we part aside everything and do our best. We won the most united class for our restuarant project. Ok here is another crazy but logical thing. We have a math trail during the sec 2 camp and we were brought to VIVO city and we are suppose to count the number of flowers on this gaint ball. So I saw a booth at the side and went over to ask them how many flowers are there when everyone is counting aimlessly. Hehe:P luckily I manage to get the answer before ms yeo caught me and told the person not tell any students that comes pass to ask because we are having a competition. There are really many many things that happened in Sec 2 but sec 2 ended with an unsuccessful BBQ which I didn't attend any because I was away but the entire cause of it is hatred, gossip and being not happy but not telling the other party and I shall not elaborate. We split into the different classes in sec 3. But the we came back together for a christmas cum gathering BBQ at the end of 2008 seeing people coming together not have that hatred anymore so deep is great. All I hope that this bond never breaks:D
There is a man. no a teacher call pinapple that loves talking.
He talks and talk and talks and all he do is talks.
Everytime before exams, he never fails to not bring us peace by just stop talking.
Talk about this talk about that and he just rattles on...
I almost want to ash him to SHUT HIS GAP today before the math paper because all I want is just silence and I think everyone wants that too!!!
Now right in the middle of exams:D Half more way to go man!
Screwed up my Chemistry paper today:( because the first paper for today is math paper 1 then after the break is Chemistry, Everytime after my math paper I would feel like I have not slept for 2 nights. You know how that felt right and the weather is freaky hot and stuffy. I did the paper very fast through and just slept through the rest of the paper without checking another time at all. I am also not sure of many question. Arh...I still have lots of things to study!!! I am going to study super hard for SS, because if I don't do well for that it will also pull my grades down like what happened in common test. Gabriel thinks that I can have my well deserved break soon but sadly he is wrong man. Times flies, right after Mid years when everyone goes off for holiday, we will be back in school for intensive and O'level chinese paper. Super sian man! June holiday also have to mug and continue with 20 hours study rule and study like mad to prepare for prelims, orals and Olevel. The next half a year will fly past super fast! And in no time when Christmas is here again then everything would be over already
Thanks everyone that helped me man! Seriously, sometime exams cannot be one man work anymore, but when we help one another it makes the entire thing easier. Happy to be once in 2f because they are the people that we build relationships together and would help one another. Yeah! All the best to Mr Chia too the 2f"s guardian angel!!!!
I Will Study Hard!
Yeah! I rather study hard and do well because it feels very good to see result man!
I also can't wait for end of years holidays! Aunty ask me to go Hong Kong find her after my O'levels.
Woke up at 9 bath and cook maggi mee myself. I really fail in that man!
Took taxi to Weeling house to pick her up and went to church to study. It is so empty there even the air con is not working so it is super hot and stuffy. studied till 2 then rest one hour then send weeling off. When walking towards the lift met Audrey and Ben who came from school and Audrey is like orh...pon school come here. After we walk off we are like what a bad timing we hit and we are just utterly shock when we just saw them because I planned to let weeling leave before they come. When to buy stuff for people which is a coke from NTUC and one more coke from Mac but what is the difference??? But it is ok go for a walk after closing myself in church for the past few hours. Went to buy SUBWAY with Weeling and rush up because worship session and prayer meeting is starting. Really have to pray for spiritual growth in the CG man! Though, we still have a powerful prayer meeting! Ended at 5 so we went downstairs at MAC to eat dinner and went back up to study 1 more hour each before going home. Will be returning to school on thurs ba:D Mugging soon le:D
Can't sleep well for the whole night!! Unproductive sleep!
finish up end times CD in the morning then went to orchard to meet Hui Min and Cherie because the two of them are going far east to cut hair. Went to take the train towards the wrong direction and ended up in City Hall that complicated MRT station. Walk all over the mrt station just to find the train that will be goinging to orchard. So annoying! Reach orchard and the two of them are late too so I went over to Far East to shop first brought nothing. The both of them cut their short man but for cherie even when it looks quite long but it is really a big step man! Because her mom wants her to have long hair haha:D Hui Min say that everyone is cutting their hair short just to persude Cherie to cut it off too. Cherie hair still seems to be longer than mine! The three of us went to eat snowshave at the basement after that. Delicious! Rush to church after that. Cherie seems to be really stress over the entire planning for the usher stuff for Red Rain. Everyone have put in alot of effort to make the entire event successful I am so excited too, I am definately bring lots of people!!! Studied in church in the afternoon around 4 plus but the air con is not on so it is super hot brought a fanfrom downstairs all the way up to use it. Studied half-way lost inspiration to study so went down to buy things to eat. Some people ask me to buy stuff for them and ask me to choose what to buy and yet they eee...at the things I buy then since it is so then don't ask me to buy, you can buy it yourselves. Please la you guys does not worth my respect at all and if you guys want to give up yourself then give up you don't have to swan me! I am not like you give up so easily. You guys just totally disgust me! Went to buy contact lens at night, brought 3 pairs of coloured ones secretly because mummy don't like it but nevermind, because after I buy it back, what else can she do haha:D
Markus is one lucky chap man! He doesn't even have to go through SOW to learn guitar from garrett! Everyone is jealous of him man!
Ponning school with weeling tomorrow! Yeah! I am really just going to bring books and study anyway mummy allow me to do that so don't care so much le:D
Everyone except for me and Pollyna was late for CG.
Went lunch after CG then return to church and stayed in alfresco because today also have mothers' day event.
Wrote the so called 'english compo' for Pastor Lia using the RJC foolscape paper.
We use that because RJC is changing their name to RIJC(sounds so disgusting right) and they no longer produce the RJC foolscape paper anymore so Pollyna says that it is a limited edition and this Kiasu girl brought a few before they stop selling. Another reason is that Pastor Lia ia from RJC so wee filled in the blanks like we are really handing in a compo and it will look very funny to her. Drew some weird things before I started haha:D mine will be the nicest. During service, there was a family sitting in front of me, I saw the mother crying during Seah Testimony sharing. She must be so touched from a mother's perspective, something I can't feel now. After two days, I really felt the mums are the greatest creature on earth. Their unconditional love and sacrifices is just uncountable already. I love you mummy. Since today is the actually day of mothers' day I made Breakfast for mummy. I really fail at cooking man! The sausage is hot outside and cold inside haha:D but mummy still finish eating it:D Ok one confession here, I can't even cook maggi mee because since young grandma don't let us cook because she is afraid that we dirty the kitchen so I ended up like this. I cook mummy's breakfast when the two of them went to the market hehe:) lucky me!
Third birthday meal with the same old meal style, you know what.
Alcohol never work on me, never a single bit.
4 glasses of red wine and I just look and acted normal.
Mother's day celebration is so grand and touching.
First time I see people eating when pastor preach.
I can confess this, I never really thank my mum for what she had done ever since I have grown up.
I shall give her a surprise tomorrow morning then.
Tomorrow morning there will be CG. Mugging tonight because I have to study 6 more hours before leaving the house tomorrow morning and since it is 1235 now, it means that I don't have to sleep tonight.
I don't need people to tell me I know I have cause alot of trouble and all the unrest. Don't have to tell me anything I know it is all because of me all I want to say is sorry. I own you guys guilt all my life.
Washed my hamster's cage under running water. It have been weeks since I clean that cage already. Use my new blue padding too:) look so cool man!
Had so stupid chinese paper today that ask stupid question
If chinese is so difficult, I don't mind being monoligual. I crapped through the comprehension and sleep. Not saying the passage is that difficult it is just question!!! Not going to school till thursday. Stupid school have stupid things. We actually had an announcement in the middle of our exams. see see see...!
The ang mo paper was quite easy today, ok...at least I understand the passage can???
But did a grave mistake, forget the format for the situation writing and I just wrote to:... to begin and from:... to end.
The most horrible paper is at the hottest and most stuffy time of the day....noon. And the best part is that I just took my lunch so I was drifting in and out of sleep during the paper. Not to worry because it is chinese listening comprehension. It just sound like someone chanting something there. At least my is just those few seconds sleep but weeling really fell asleep till her pen drop hahahahah:D
Ok tomorrow is all the chi na paper hope I don't sleep during the exams. I think this just the effect of chinese words on me.
Tonight I will sleep early.
I believe that the night before exams the most important is not notes or study but is sleep. It is better to have a conscious mind in the exam hall than to be sleepy with many things in the mind because everyone have something call common sense. Tomorrow is going to be english papers which I have the least hope in...):
So I better sleep early or else...all I write will be crap.
Oh yeah...tomorrow all temperature taking is going to be terminated!!!! Yeah!!!!!
Oh learnt something today out of classroom aand textbook (not really maybe it is just out of textbook)
Everyone have their own powerful ways to reach out to people. Maybe I should adopt one too, one of my own unique way. Sorry to listen secretly when I don't mean to but it is just too tempting and it attracts my attention to listen haha:D
Yeah one last thing yhat happen today...
Ok guys your must understand that Weiling is someone who can laugh to herself just by thinking of something funny. So once again I am daydreaming in Ms leow's slow math class and suddenly something super funny came into my mind. Then what happen is just nice, when I daydream I am very clever, I would stare into the teacher's eyes so they will think I am concentrating and so I am also staring into dear Ms Leow's eyes today. So when I daydream half-way then I started to smile to myself, she saw it and announce to the class this,"hey when you smile to me it is very scary leh" I am like OMG smile announced. And I just broke out into the everlasting long laughter. Hahahahah:D Going jogging on fri with cherie.
Did BM today!!! In the wash toilet team. I think we had to most fun. Wash the toilets outside the Admin office first. Wash the girls toilet then went on to the boys. Girls nothing special but the boys one was something fun. Tried the flush for the standing toilet bowl in the boys toilet, it is so fun. I even ask markus don't he feels insecure when they pee everyone can see it. But those things are really smelly. Realise we haven't cleared the "blue bins" in the girls toilet so we went back to clear it sprayed the freshener like mad. But little did we know that the ones in the toilets on the 12 floor were worst because everyone uses that. The BM incharge had to open it for us and by the way he is a guy. Not surprise because I think many of them open and cleared before anyway but it should still be the girls job...but we can't open it don't blame us...the smell is...I think everyone knows. Before BM me, Jerlyn, Markus and Audrey had a worship session with only 4 people but we still made it! The holy spirit is with us. So jealous of Jerlyn man, she finish her last paper today she is free till August. Decided and made up my mind to 'pon' school next monday, tuesday and wednesday. Wait I have very good reasons to support my decision.
1) Teacher have finish what they have to teach for and would be doing revision anyway so must as well study myself at home I think it would be more productive as it is not noisy and I can also get Jerlyn to coach me too.
2) I have the abilities to study now with whatever I have, enough to last through mid-years exams.
3) Mummy allow it too since I explained to her my reason but just that maybe she don't know how to tell my school, it is a little tricky who can give me advise on how to convince my teachers???
BM ended with them asking us to go home since we are having exams this week...
Ok I better get back to studying.
The day was bad but the night was good today
After school took bus with Shu Yi but shuyi is holding on to a pack of ROJAK so the bus uncle don't allow us to board the bus. Shu yi already promise not to eat he even said loudly that he don't trush her. What a bus uncle are you. Bad attitude, doesn't the bus training teaches you customer service. People also bring food and drinks up the bus, why didn't you catch them but catch Shuyi. Went home, was surprised to see Kendra there. Then next Xueni called and asked if I am free to go Hougang Green meet her and Gabriel for lunch and study together. Sure!!! Took bus 147 and one of the few stops later Ms Lam boarded the bus. Haven't seen her ages man! She was one of the greatest teacher that ever taught me. We use to hate her and thinks that she is a super fierce and strict form teacher, science teacher and math teacher. But seriously compared to all the teachers after that OMG she is like angel. Other then Mr Chia, who has the most compassion for his student and he is so good till a stupid virgin princess bullies him. Me and Ms Lam talk and talk and talk on the bus for 5 to 6 bus stops before she alights. I am super worried for her, she looks so pale and seems to be coughing too. Finally reach hougang green after a long walk in met Gabriel and xueni. They really can be my best friends man! They are the most real people around. We brought bubbletea and went to Jimmy Yummy to study and talk. After awhile Ben and Kendra arrive too. Maybe I really can't click with them feels like fish out of water and I hate it when they insult and laugh at my friends. Why don't you guys look at yourselves first, you have no rights to insult my friends it is like "swine calling the pig ugly" (quote from spencer). Horse is not to refer to someone ok! You want to think of it then keep it to yourselves don't let me hear it then, because I love them too. You guys won't want me to laugh at your friends too right or just laugh at you guys. Because you guys have lots of things to laugh at too. I love my friends too so please be fair.
Saturday service was preach by pastor lia. It the 'anointing" she have preached in the sunday youth service a few weeks back. Being in the middle of the audi we can't really feel the chaos at the front when pastor ministered to the people. Many groups of people went up I think the largest group should be the university and pre-university people. The whole thing dragged till 8. But it is really powerful so I am going to get the CD! Stayed up throught the entire Saturday night till 6 one of the reason is because I have to study and the other reason is that something is attacking me through the night. For some reason I was feeling sad and depressed. What I knew was that I can be studying half-way and started to cry. Even when the cg prayed for me before leaving church on Saturday night I only felt slightly better because it really meant something to me. Felt high in the morning after drinking yakult greentea even thinking of going for a jog. Did QT from 6 plus till 7 plus and finishing sending a important message before i finally forced myself to sleep. Woke up at 11 plus ate breakfast and watch TV at the sametime till 1. Bath and went to church. Met Cherie on the bus and apparently I walk pass her without knowing that she is there but still walk back and joined her. Reach Singapore post and joined the rest of the CG. Realise that D10 is really growing bigger in numbers and stronger in spiritually. The CG is getting bigger and we are strong in our spirits too during 24 prayer is a good example man! A guest speaker came today and he is...Steven Munsey. Like what pastor How told us the week before he really tore the church apart with his powerful sermen. He is super powerful. He did not preach his sermen but told us a story from it. He ran all over the church and the poor camera person have to find him and even us have a hard time tracing him. We are all shocked by the way he preached and I am like," oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh...." through the entire service. I really surrender man! He is super...no words to describe already he just just GOOD!!! During alter call on who want to have a touch of god in our life so we can reach out to people with god in us for the next thirty days everyone just move forward. the entire place is chaotic man! I had a revelation! Red rain is going to be a very important event for us to bring revival to Peicai. It is on 23 and 24 may and whoever that sees this and wants to go can ask from me for the offical entry pass. After service and dinner we went to SOW open house. So inspired and I made a decision from today onwards I am going to work towards picking up acoustic guitar and join SOW in its next intake. For god have given pastors keys to reach out to the younger generation and one of these keys is a key into music so it is important. Gugu have a acoustic guitar and she say that i can use it once Mavis returns it. I am so excited man! No hole in pocket hahah:D
Loving a person is when someone else talks bad about that person you just feels like 'killing' or just slap them in the face right there.
Loving a person is went they feel sad you feels for them too.
Memory just starts drifting into my mind today.
Remember that about a month or two ago Jamie preach to us in a CG that we can not like someone just still loves them.
I truly felt it now.
Sometimes some people just gets on your nerves. I dislike them because they 'dao' me and give me that stupid 'u think I care' or 'you are the lamest person man' face. No matter how happily you want to talk about some things it just pull you down and you just no longer have the mood to continue saying. They spread things about you which are far of worst then the jokes you say to them, trying to find topics to talk about and they just want to end your conversation. Treating you differently from what they used to and gossip about you with the others. You have no choice but to see them very frequently. I just not want to see them at all. But today when i see them once again I ask myself what if one day someone is going to talk bad about them what my reaction is going to be. I even made up examples I would hear but once the though came into my mind I felt like fighting and standing up for them. I realise that is loving someone. I finally realise that!!!

P.S. hey I am here alright. All you have to do is to tell me I will carry it together with you through everything or pray over your problems. If you don't want people to help thinking that it would be a burden on the people around you then you should not be blaming god for the burden you have on you right now. You are not fair to me too alright when you say uyou will be there for me no matter what happens and when I am feeling down I turn to you too and created a huge problem out of it but from the bottom of my heart it is ony that I know you will be there that is why I say and tell you only wanting a listening ear and you feels for me and i feels safe telling to but you are not treating the same to me. When I am feeling really really down I mean very I can feel that you will be there but why can't you feel that i can be there to carry it for you too. You are not trusting me or something else. You are freaking me out right here alright. What you tell me is not in line with what you are thinking, this will only cause people to not trust you alright. At least tell the truth alright. I keep things to myself when i have the confidence that i can overcome it myself but it is not for you. All I want to say is that I love you and will be there for you. I can't feel that you can feel it anyway. You don't want to tell me I can't force you to it is up to yourself. I can't carry on with this aimless life being moody. If you still feels moody about what is happening you stills cares about that person alright.
24 prayer meeting was super fun. It starts at 6pm in thurs till 6pm on friday. It is like a rely as the CGs took turn to pray for one hour each. D10 in at 7am on fri but I was there at 10 plus pm on thursday night because I have cafe duty from 11pm till 2am. Due to the swine flu, Singapore raised the health standards to orange so they held temperature checks before we enter church. Luckily it was over 24 hours so we barely had to queue but I really can't imagine what will happen on Sat and Sun. After cafe I decided to study till 7 but gave in half-way and slept against the table for one whole hour. Waste my time!!! We were ushered into MPR2 to watch a video of Pastor Cho the pastor of the world largest christian concregration on prayer. Everyone say it is very powerful but i think i am really too tired because through the fifty minute video i was drifting in and out of sleep. But I did listen to what he said and i can still remember though i was almost sleeping!:D
Afther that followed by one more hour of prayer meeting and ministering in MPR1. It is super powerful! Even when I was really so sleepy i didn't even feel like sleeping for that whole one hour. After the whole thing we went downstairs to wait for Jerlyn and Cherie and i just slept on he floor in the audi for one whole hour. After lunch went home and pack my stuff and even threw away 3 big bags of stuff. Slept again from 8 plus till 10 plus then Wanting suddenly wake me up so i answered the phone and Cherie is on the line, asking me to go jogging. So I woke up, wash up and went jogging with Ben Gabriel and Cherie which turn out to be just a stroll at 11 till midnight but i jogged from my house to serangoon stadium so still considered exercised!!!! I still have 7 and a half more hours to study. I will finish it tomorrow!!

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