Didn't go school yesterday so after seeing the doctor went to meet xueni to bring her go cut hair in Serangoon. After cutting her hair we went to eat $1.50 chicken rice then went to mac to use internet. We took some photos there and later went to my house and continue. Thanks to http://cameroid.com/snap.php for all the photos:D
On MC today...
Got to make my body stronger man whole day here pain there pain. going study with xueni later...have lots of work to do so must bring painkiller.
ARGH!!! Freaking angry today!!! first day of school angry already! go some stupid rehersal waste my freaking time ended up me and peitian was sleeping there for one hour!!! Doing nothing!!! And I am broke enough and yet left my ODT while packing my bag last night and paid the cheapskate school $1 just to take temperature! And had some stupid lesson in school feeling pain everywhere! My freaking ulcer is pain enough already! Can't even smile can now still stomache!!!! Argh when will the pain go lar! I study with them around to add on to it is my freaking monday headache!!! I am just popping painkiller the whole day!
Was talking to my NDP guides friend...found out that they have not had holiday at all...for the past 4 weeks has been like normal school lesson for them in Brodrick Sec. And also got to catch up with Vivian Poh on the second week of June where she came to me church for CHC morning prayer meeting. Also found out that their school are having normal school lessons for them one the first week and last week of the school holiday so they also only have 2 weeks holiday. As for me...actually I have spent 4 weeks of holiday because one the first week even when there are lessons I didn't go so it is almost holiday too. Imagine 4 weeks holiday...it is the same as the other levels...maybe primary school kids are having to go back to school more then me...like my cousins, they are going back to school about twice a week for all the school holidays weeks. Time to get back to my school routine...school holidays officially end now for me. Anyway through this 4 weeks holiday I have made lots of decision in my heart and one of those that I can say is that I decided that once my olevel result comes out and I don't get A1 for english by the beginning of next year I am going Ngee An Poly bio medical course because I don't want to torture myself with chinese and GP in JC. And if I can't do well for english now I won't be able to make it for GP for sure. Anyway definately I am well satisfy with my holiday, especially today when Pastor Joakim preach on Others. Well, what about a changed heart for me, a heart for others:) New Gen meeting was great too, probably everyone are feeling hard too...as for me, after we stop fasting for peicai for 2 months...during this 2 months was hard...doesn't want to think about anything...I guess I know why pastor Joakim comes every half a year, to recharge everyone to bring our faith up and motives us to go go go for our schools once again, it really came at the right time I felt...next two month is our double!!!
Anyway everywhere everyone is puting up " I am a christian, ask me why" on facebook and twitter
Today drained me quite abit though...last night stayed up till 3 plus 4...because we had telephone prayer meeting, rather weird but I don't think I would like such a thing because once it is conference we can't here each other well and most of the time conferences drag. Technology isn't so advance that we can talk like normally over the phone like face to face yet. Sleep wasn't effective, keep thinking of things, my mind worked overtime...tired yet too bothered by all the things on my mind to sleep soundly. Well reach church at 11 plus for summer programme. Finally get to see Clarrie again!!! Soon after summer programme ended first session started. Pator Joakim's services really cannot miss one! Shall not put down what impacted me here...kinda personal right and I am not a person that share my heart de...:P Help up cafe in between the two session and sold 50 boxes of fried rice...prayer at the end of the second session ended today with a bang! Really annoying can...mummy PMS daddy MAC!!!! Irritating!!! It is always like this...very sudden de lo...something to add on to my blues... anyway abi was lucky to be H1N1 negative...her class have 10 confirm case already...but if she fall sick this few days then....hahahaha I can get quarantine too...not me but probably the whole church. It isn't a big deal actually...H1N1 is just like any other common flu, just that it is more contagious, I doesn't kill like SARS. Tomorrow is the last day!!! Going home right after service...need some sleep to revive myself abit or else probably I will go school like a walking Zombie hahahaha:D Kind of actually I feel that I am falling sick soon...really not kidding...everytime I am about to fall sick, I will feel a little sick before that and it can actually last for one month before I really fall sick. Kind of I should study now because I have 8 hours plus plus to clear before tomorrow. Anyway guest speaker are in the queue for the next few weeks...it is going to be big time!!! Kent Munsey is coming, he is the son of the one who tear our church down a month plus ago...I guess his son would be even better because the next generation is always better and greater then the previous. AR bernard too.
Woke up at 9 plus thought I was late so rush rush rush but after I finish bathing then realise I still have alot of time...-.-then go slowly to discipleship class. Me and jeanette is sitting right infront of a fan so the two of us is shivering for the whole 1 one plus plus nearly 2 hours. Daniel's discipleship is really one of those I think we can learn alot from...really!!! And daniel is really not like what I have previously think...don't your think he look scary at first sight??? Cafe was crazy too...20 over boxes of Buffalo drumlet and Lasagne to sell off by today because it is expiring and today is the last day. I bet those people that brought will never have a chance to but is at such a cheap price really it is like $5-$4.50 things selling at $3.50 can??? Also just to finish selling everything cafe extended more than 1 hour opening time can??? Actually waiting for cherie to finish tuition so ate dinner alone in Kopitiam...really kopitiam left me alot, if one day church were to be going to shift out of Singapore Post Building I will not for get to visit there, I definatelly saw something no one sees naninanipooopooo don't tell you it is my secret(:

And another thing I shall laugh at ba.................that living corpe is dead!!!!!!!!!!! Of course he is the well known pop star Michael Jackson!!! Probably I am one of those that will have no feeling towards his death and maybe worst I will say NANINANIPOOOOOPOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heard this news from Daniel during discipleship class, he is probably pop star most famous in his era ba....but definatelly not my taste when someone can look so so so fake probably cutting himself everywhere before and poisoned his entire face with Botox!!! Kind of sound funny but probably that is the fact...
Went to cut my hair today! Shall not put here, see it for yourself when you see me ba:D
Studying today:D:D:D
123 more days to Olevel...nice number!
yewwww.......Was washing cookie's bottle when I saw some green green things in the bottle, kind of sad then worried. Really! Cookie has became part of me, so if she dies one day I sure sure will cry de...brought a new bottle for her, this bottle is bigger. Also brought a brush and more food(sure this time is better food). Finally ate some chilli beef cheese fries, great man!!! That is the best fries!!! Also got myself to start studying!!! Later getting back to work but I must study another 6-7 hours later before I sleep. Plan abit of my week just now, Plan that I shall study 7-8 hours a day including homework so once school reopen I guess I will most probably disappear from online...probably blogging once a week on weekends ba. Anyway 124 more days to Olevel got to chiong already. Anyway it is just 124 more days just work hard and don't regret ba...this number is sure to become smaller. Just wish that time could stop for awhile because once school reopens I have to go back to the busy stuff and everything, don't really like it...I don't really understand when everyone hopes school starts soon I am totally opposite I guess. I don't wish to go back to school, I don't wish to go back to class to see everyone again I don't know why just don't want. I wish I could study alone at home that it. I can, I really can I studied differentiation myself I just don't want to see people is school, meet people in school...even if MOE extends school vacation I am not at loss at all. Feel quite sad now man!!!
Went Cedar in the morning with Jerlyn Cherie and Wanting to give the sec 4 chocolate and sweets. They have started with prelims already!!! Mine have not finish teaching yet! The whole day really eat crap man and alot of food!!! First ate lor mee early in the morning opps. Cedar then two curry chicken when I got home then fries and coke when I reach bedok all these is only before noon. Then lunch at Clarrie's house but that is really nice:P and probably the healthiest today then later some soup and curry chicken in the evening and eventually ba chor mee for dinner. Cherie ask me to go bedok find Pollyna first because she is suppose to meet Clarrie at 10 when I reach there like 10 plus plus I called pollyna and guess what!?! she give me the sleepy sound and I knew it man!!! If I didn't call her she would have continued sleeping!!! Leaving me alone in a foreign place like Bedok!!! Met up with Clarrrie first and later Jerlyn came to the rescue!!!!! Went clarrie house first and we talk and she told us about her secondary it sounds so funny can:D:D:D Imagine in the middle of flag raising the the block of classroom everyone is facing including the principle, a guy suddenly went to the rooftop, took off his clothes and started dancing there??? I will be like super hilarious can!?! Played Game of life when Pollyna finally reach. Seriously...I think board games bonds people best!!! It is so fun! I won everyone, ending my "life" with 1.79 million so I was the richest when I am only a computer technician in the game Wahahahahahahaha:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Polly keeps spinning the wheel out so haha:D everytime they spins the wheel out I gets 50000 bucks hahahahaha:D Went for a 'fantastic' 3 round jogging session with cherie, Flavian, Walter, Mr wing and Wanting. Totally failed man!!! They are all not in jogging attire really Walter was the worst because he ran like 3 rounds in t-shirt and Jeans and plus the hot weather I might as well go crazy!!! Went Cherie's house later, everyone loves her dog but it smells quite badly de...but neverthelast it is still cute!!! Just reach home plan to probably study grom now till tomorrow morning then sleep only tomorrow morning or else I will never get things done.
Lifesong



Empty hands held high
Such small sacrafice
If not join with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You



Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You





Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You



Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You



Got a revelation from this song during one of the services last week:D Anyway really miss gabriel man didn't talk for a few days already...
And found something funny at home

...guess what grandma thought it was a really want so she unwrapped it hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahah:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D


Drag me to hell is scary! Went with mummy daddy and wanting but actually only daddy is watching...but probably that is the only show daddy would be most interested in the rest that are showing now is too boring for him. Wanting and me keep screaming when the old woman suddenly pops out (those who have watch it would know) when we were peeping. I am covering my face with a pillow and my hoodie while wanting and mummy behind their bag hahahahaha:D quite hilarious. The best part is that daddy says that it is not scary at all!?! Today is father's day so there was no service today, everyone are suppose to be accompanying their fathers yepp but hahaha:D me and wanting saw some shopping with friends:P Went shopping after that, finally get a pair of slippers...mine is badly torn can. And a new water bottle and a tank top plus 6 'telephone wire'. Kind of ended the day with a fantastic dinner to celebrate daddy's birthday with is tomorrow and father's day for him...shokudo is fantastic I am a great fan of that place, great food great atmosphere and customer service as good as customer service in Japan! Japan really have great customer service really! unlike Singapore! But Singapore is a great place too because what we are good at here may not be as good else where. It is impossible to find a prefect country but a fine country is good enough:) Tomorrow I am really going to sleep till my heart contents who cares about the prize presentation rehersal in school tomorrow. This morning daddy off my air-con-.- so angry man! You know how hot the weather is recently right argh!!!!! Decided that I shall love cookie more! so tomorrow is time to clean the cage for her(:
Just ended DEO camp. Wondering What is DEO??? Delicious Exciting Outrageous yepp. Also D zone E odds camp. Super tired. Didn't manage to bid farewell because last minute ask me to go down one night earlier for some briefing and preparing for the camp. Well everything went well, actually I am suppose to talk and build atmosphere but...haha:D Ended up that Adriena was the one helping to build atmosphere in the team-.-very tired can, can't help but complain...I will try not to the next time. Slept barely 2 hours on the extra night, 2 hours one the first actual night and 4 hours last night which was the last night for the camp. Imagine that...but definately the planning team slept lesser and felt more tired.
Are you happy that you:
-get to live
-get to eat
-know who your parents are
-get to study
-have friends
-have people to guide you
-know when your birthday is
-get to go shopping
-have shoes to wear
-have clothes to wear
-living in a urban city
-have pens to write with
-have books to read
-are being protected of
-are a human
-get to see
-get to experience day
-get to experience night
-have something to sleep on every night
-have light bulbs to use
-clocks and watches to know the time
-have fans to keep ourselves cool
-have music
-live after the discovery of basic science
-get to have medicine to eat when unwell
-people know what hygenic is
-standardised SI units
All these are better then:
-being dead
-no food to eat
-being orphans
-not allowed to study
-no friends existed
-no one to guide you
-don't know when you are born
-no shops existed
-no shoes to wear
-no clothes to wear
-living in the forest eating berries and grass
-writings are carve on stones
-no books to increase your knowledge
-no human rights
-being a animal
-being blind
-no day no night
-nothing to lie on to sleep
-no bulbs or even candle were created
-no clock no time
-no fans
-no music
-no science
-no mecidine, if fell ill is die for sure
-people eat shit without washing. Carrying out operation without washing hand.
-no proper measurement everyone buy unstandardised measurement of things.
Sometimes I really wonder if people now know what being grateful is. Sometimes when being in the mist of all the fun laughter and games, I forget about being grateful, going back and say thank you. Just like the 10 people with Leprosy, Jesus heal, only one came back to thanks him. Realise that most of the time I am like the other 9 which where healed but never whole, went off and celebrate but doesn't have gratitude. Little things in my life I can thanks for, why ask for more? This makes requests more unreasonable.
Bored tired can't concentrate. Argh...I can't study!
Rotting at home the whole day today. Didn't do anything productive...
So tired man! Mummy teaching me math half way I fell asleep and woke up to realise it is 9am the next day. Can't help man!!! Do you know that on monday early morning a woke up at 3 and can't fall asleep till 6 that was crazy can. Try to find people to talk to me but even those that sleep in the morning like 7 or 8 am also were long sleeping already. Apparently mummy can't interpret my test papers properly I got to tell her," It is not my basic it is after that!!!" like nearly 20 times point to her then she could see and realise it is really not my basic which is not there. Totally crazy. Never once did she teach me math that we don't have to 'fight' seriously...But anyway mummy almost went crazy when she found out that teacher haven't finish teaching all the Amath topic so she decided to teach me herself instead. I think she have long forgotten all the things. But...always she come out and teach me my results will go up like I don't know what, also don't know how she does that but she says that she get A1 for Amath so just let her do it...


Counted 131 more days to Olevel this is crazy man!!! My number is definately smaller then Pollyna's but just like her say say only I haven't started with real work yet!!!

The two nas digging out wanting's stitchers and messing up her bed. Wanting do you want this photo to give to Cherie Wahahahahahaha:D
aiyo late for cafe today man!!! just because I was stoning at home. AMT graduation today...haha...I passed Pollyna got like top in the entire 2nd batch AMT!!! RIJC...is RIJC standard haha:D Freaking hungry can at very little for breakfast then went for duty already and no money...but cherie brought me chicken rice for dinner when I was still at the cafe. Luckily have chicken rice!
Most of the zone camps are this week. It is just like recently that Dominic announce to us that there is going to be a D zone camp during the June Holidays and suddenly it is june holidays and zone camp in like end of the coming week.
Woke up very early today!!! Really can't sleep...that insomia thing is coming back again. So shall not waste time this time round I shall go jogging early tomorrow morning(: keep a healthy body and of course how will weiling jog just to want to have a healthy body...of course to lose some weight. Went orchard shopping with friends in the noon till afternoon before service. It is crazy can because Darren want to get his earpiece we ran into wheelock EPI to check if they have and ended up half an hour late for service...and it is troy marshall's service. Nevermind I got one word from god today...Patience! The word is patience. Everyone knows...one word from god is better then a thousand words. Wonder where will it be this time round. Can I tell you Weiling is freaking tired!!! I am tired everywhere! Just want to be alone, just want to stone. Warning ok don't try to disturb me or else...u are so dead!
Great man! Brought 4 tops and a pair of shoe and 5 hair band and a necklace in 1 and a half hour. My mom almost went crazy hahah:D She almost ask me to stand outside while she and wanting goes in to get and pay for something just because I buy things faster then they do and of course more!!! But seriously NET is a great place man!!! I will go back there more frequently!!! Those are my type of clothes really!!! Finally found a my type shop to buy my type clothes!!! As for DIVA I walk in there alot of times alone or with friends and see many things I want just waiting for one day to drag mummy in and pay for them Wahahahaha...
Finally have some clothes so it is time to clear the old ones I have for a long long time hahah:D
The clothes when I am very fat are gone long ago time for the clothes I wear when I am super skinny to go too anyway I can't fit into them already. Even though I have decided to start lossing weight but who cares let wait and see first ba then get new ones then.
Not to missed out today is mummy and daddy's 17th wedding anniversary plus wanting's 14 birthday. It doesn't sound like a wow wow to me anymore because every year it had been like this. mummy and daddy got married around 1 year plus plus before I was born so since I am turning 16 this year it would be a 16+1. Yepp:) Nothing much to celebrate either...they should spend the tiime together not with us...anyway they are spend their rest of their life together. Daddy now got hook onto a new free lance job..being a property agent. Crazy man! another property agent...enough craziness with the property agents who keep call my house day and night now...there is one at home. And people... never ask me about my sister because after 14 year knowledge of her I still can't understand her eg. I kick her very hard just to wake her up and she will not even give a single bit of reaction. I don't want to be like her so I train myself by setting the loudest ring tone for both msg and calls on my phone when I sleep so I will never fail to reply or give a reply call as immediately as I can react. Tomorrow going shopping again:)
Went Da Vinci exhibition. It is fabulous. He is a genious I can't imagine people in modern time being able to be so all rounded. He is a Artist, a Scientist, A musician, A inventor and A thinker. From drawing well known art pieces like the Art piece of the last supper to creating great war mechanics in his time and cutting open human body making notes out of his observation and coming out with human body proportion. And he is a born illegatimate which means that he is banned from studying law and Medical in his time and even basic schooling. Also went to the omni theater watch sea monster. Finally ended the day by watching Young Victoria. Fantastic life story of a princess which fight her way into getting to the throne even when her mom and another man tries to stop her. Ruling an empire at the young tender age of 18 when people feels and thinks that she is too young and inexperienced. But she still the longest ruler of europe in history. This shows that young people still can do get things even when they are young and inexperienced. Saw a even more inspiring quote on the way home: The attitude toward a difficult task determines the results.
Tomorrow is mummy and dadddy wedding anniversary and Wanting's birthday got to go dinner with them man!!! Had enough time with myself today already time to give my time in the rest of year away to people, school work and church. Time for some flesh killing again:D
Weird blogging in the morning. Maybe going science center later. Slept like 10 hours last night, feel like I just married to my bed haha:D joke from AMT because pastor preach about spirit man and Clara was like Pastor I sleep for 8 hours then pastor says that she should divource with her bed cos pastor only sleep 8 hours once a year or something like this:D haha should find a way to divource with my bed too...soon haha:D anyway school is opening soon can't sleep much either.
BUt serious I have to kill my flesh so my spirit can control my flesh. Just killed my flesh but the sleep revived it. Tell you what I kind of missed CHC morning prayer meeting that is why I can sleep so much. Last night someone msg me to talk to me but I am actually sleeping ARGH!!! Sorry people...


The first half of the day either I get discipled or I get into trouble and get discipled. Don't know what am I doing today. Kind of skin itchy keep doing weird things today. First get discipled by Jerlyn then by Colin because we did sonething too much to play with him and oops...he is angry. Kind of feel guilty after that. Sorry Colin sorry sorry sorry. Today is quite tired for me already. I confess that I dooze off during the morning prayer meeting. I also sleep in the afternoon when I was studying half-way. Slept less then 5 hours on sunday night and 2 hours plus last night only but anyway it will only last for this week. Haha:D at least I didn't fall asleep during worship session like Guo Xiang just now hahahahahahahahahaha:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Wahaha Edwin! Seems like there are more then one person that know that...doink doink wink wink haha:D
Went for prayer meeting reach there like 545am!!?! Aiyo is free ride why not. Help up with ushers went up for prayer meeting. This time HOGC have our own prayer list. But the prayer meeting is powerful. Flavian is like so so late man!!! He overslept and Walter spam call him 10 times. Met Vivian from GM guides. She is in CHC which I know through NDP. Missed her man! Soo long didn't see her already because the previous PM is in the school term she didn't come and I went but left when it just started. Went eat breakfast together she joined us:D And the Walter crazily crying (fake de) over the phone with Flavian because of what Flavian did to him and we are laughing our ass off!!! (just realise i had been using this quite alot man!!!) Did a super bad thing today to the KFC aunty. Feeling so guilty... Walter and Daniel gang up together trying to hook a tag that says $10 sales on my bag...so...haha:D how can weiling stop here wahahahahaha:D:D:D:D I took the tag and went to the audi where Colin is sleeping and put it above his head ahahahahahahaha I was like running all around the place then this guy saw me and say to me,"that day pastor just say you shy only now u running all over the place ha!" in a joking tone so I pull him to see what I have done and actually want to leave it like it is but he is even worst then me can!!! He say must take photo and put on facebook or else when Colin wakes up then it will be like nothing so he took a photo of colin sleeping with the sales tag planning to put on facebook. ARHHHH so evil!!! In the afternoon I was sleeping so well on the chairs, have blacket have pillow and a sweet dream dreaming of...haha:D secret, and someone actually wack my head to wake me up!!!! Arhhhh i want to hamtam the person!!! But actually the last staff (colin) is leaving so we have to leave. Aiyo! Went walk walk before going to some useless waste time tuition because it is a relieve teacher!!! Went jogging with Flavian and Walter. Ran only 4 rounds the people chase us out because they are closing the stadium already (by switching off all the lights). Met up with Jerlyn and Nichole, went to buy KOI bubbletea then sat down and talk. Just weigh myself today, seems like my weighing machine is back to normal so arhhh so heavy already man! OK! I am not eating for the rest of the week!
YAHAHA finally powerhouse on a school holiday!!! Don't have to step in and leave and be late for school. Naninanibooboo haha:D Nicole and Flavian have school. Arg...Darren is transferring out of our CG...actually we knew that this is coming but today is made official! Darren is going to D12! Sarine is so funny, she say she want to hamtam (beat up) D12's leader we tell her to think twice man!!! I think she might get crashed ba...no offence:P We keep shedding "crocodile tears" for darren, he is so sad but seriously we are sad that he is transferred out. He sometimes really bring joy to our CG, being crazy with us and everything. D10 is really crazy even the least expected Justin can be crazy too, I was so shock that day because he is those that look very clever look and quietly standing there looking like he is in deep thoughts and keep low profile those kind of people. Maybe it is us...the quietest people and the good kid people will all turn crazy with us.
Argg...kind of happy crazy then later emo...haven't been laughing alot like today ever since we started sec 3 because no crazy teacher to make me laugh so crazily and all the teachers now are all the seriously serious teacher no humor at all, laugh in class also get scolded. I love to laugh the way I laugh that is my own problem because that is me!
Siao already I really don't know what to do with myself! God spoke to me when we were in kopitiam (what a weird place) after that keep stoning through out the night, maybe I need some time alone. Went to crash Garrett's birthday celebration. The so call wonder boys are the funniest really! Me cherie flavian and walter had a sneak preview when we peep into MPR2 from alfresco yesterday but this time is from the front!!! Imagine 6 guys probably in their 18-20 already, Wearing so sport shorts those kind girls wear which is quite short dancing wondergirl's nobody (quite popular now) and no kidding, they can really shake we are laughing our ass off yesterday already but today...already say I am stoning already so even if it is funny I didn't laugh...:D but don't worry I will be fine after a sleep just need some thinking and see what I should do.
Suppose to go jogging but everyone KO except Nicholas and Flavian. Appearently Flavian called Alvina and Pollyna and the two of them 'kup'(hang up/ reject) his phone call haha:D so he also call me but this sleepy head didn't even hear my phone or know anything that someone is trying to call into my phone. Woke up at only 7.30, 1 hour late, so decided not to go already but what my mum told me is that daddy attempted to wake me up 6.30 but i told him that I don't want to go. That is what my mum say but when I wake up i totally have no idea or memory that I actually said that. Anyway just went back to sleep and only woke up at 9.30 because of the loud commotion mummy and Wanting is making. But luckily that woke me up because I am suppose to meet Roy and Tampines One at 11am so just jump out of bed and prepare bath and ran out of the house. But...haha we are still late together still...he is later haha:D:D:D Ate Carl's Jr spicy beef cheeze fries nice man! Roy is really super on organic chemistry teach then I understand already. I read so many times still don't understand but he explain then haha:D it is in my brain already:D:D:D. Later heard that Kelvin and friends actually work there but starts work at 3pm haha...but we left at 2pm...Saw a very unique bag today almost brought it be the shape doesn't fit me so didn't buy it. It look nice on the rack but ugly on me. Later he went uncle house I went church. Oh yeah heard that it is Dawn's birthday I not sure when but since they are celebrating for her tomorrow then I shall say a Happy Birthday Dawn!!!here. Pastor preach on Fight Of Faith. I don't want to be loveless, powerless and an unclear mind. So I must have faith so I can be loving, have power and of a sound mind:D:D:D
After service and dinner we went to give pastors something. A 'I am the Greatest Hero' thingy that we brought for pastor How sometime ago. And also...pastor Lia's mother day present and the essays we wrote for her. It is kind of late...no very late it is father's day already it should be getting pastor How a present because he is our spiritual father:D We got pastor lia a bear and she hold it up and say " I am the softest hero" and tell pastor how to wear underwear outside hahah:D we have really hilarious pastors. Pastor Lia is so shock to see the RJC foolscape paper we use to write her mother's day essay and the bear wearing the RJC teeshirt which she used to be in that house haha:D Hangout but know about people more and more. Walter is from CHC and actually he doesn't know about John 3:16 neither have anyone shared with him. So he is kind of confess if he have accepted Jesus into his life or not. So me Cherie and flavian kind of shared John 3:16 with him in 2 different way and Flavian's way is really interesting. The 4 of us saw some guys dancing Nobody-wonder girls for someone's birthday in church they preparing. They can really shake man! That dance is really funny for guys to dance and I am not kidding. We are peeping from outside room through the window and seriously we are laughing non stop and the people inside is laughing crazily too.Tomorrow going granny's house it is a must already or else mummy will kill me if I didn't because I have not gone there for like weeks probably a month plus plus already because of exams and everything. Sometimes kind of really don't feel like going there, I want to see grandma but not go her house, go there sure eat like pig! And realise that I have flabby arms today and spare tyre got to loss some weight already it is a must man! People that are once fat and slimmed down is very scared of gaining weight and getting fat de. Roy also...
Have to do the AMT research already due on tues!!!
Fabulous man! Never regreted attending for sure. Sorry I didn't mean to pon remedial but even if there isn't AMT I think I will pon remedial too. 5 sessions yesterday and one last session today in the morning before we are released. The whole training was rather eventful for me so must blog about it!!!
The night before thursday before going AMT, kind of study the night through trying to memorise the 24 bible verses before going because there will be a test on it. Really study like mad till 5 in the moring before going to sleep for one hour and wake up ready to go for my 1 and a half day continuous adventure. The whole AMT training started with a test, the 24 verses test I only manage to memorise 15 but I passed ok! Pollyna Lai got like the second in the whole batch can!?! The pass mark is like 30!?! But I passed quite well kind of what I expected because I got 50.5 marks but haha:D sadly wanting fail!!! Kind of she got 24 I think haha:D:D:D That is the difference between putting my sleep time to study and rather sleep first. After test is 2 session which lasted till lunch break. Really the main difference between BMT and AMT is the AMT really test on our teamwork and capacity and more of leadership training already. So for me really is stepping out of my comfort zone with my CG mates and spending the time with people I may not even know but they are all easy to talk and are leaders and potential leaders in church all my shi fu! Within mins since the start of lunch, we are already like years long friends. Surprisingly my team mates have 2 zone A people!!! Pastor How came and preach for the 4th session just before dinner break. He discipled the whole batch 2 AMT but it was really powerful
we can really feel and click with flow of the holy spirit. The last session is with Dominic really touch everyone, everyone is crying it is on building our own alter with god. What if one day the person you admire the most backslides and critise god will you too leave? This is the question. Can you imagine 5 pm on saturday not being in church what will u be doing? Can you imagine yourself in another church with a totally different culture from heart of god church? The culture in Heart of God church can be good but we can't say that there is totally no politics and thing we don't wish to see or hear that will happen because eventually we are all humans who are born sinners. Like what dominic say, I don't want to leave and backslide and eventually regret after 20, 30 or even when I turn 60 and one day come back to HOGC feeling the same presence of god realising that I have wasted my life away. I promise to never let anyone affect or control my walk with god. Studied after the long day for the test on the next day the John 3:16 test. Not easy ok sleep only passed midnight but bare slept for awhile, at 2 plus 3am yassy is playing drums right outside MPR1 and 2 where everyone is sleeping, Quite a joke right but we woke up to clean up the church in the middle of our sleeps really I see that when everyone is cleaning no one is fully awake it is super cold and I am practically shivering. Really was scared because never see yassy dressed like this before and the way she wakes us up kind of my team leader Elson told yassy that i am scared of her and she is like huh u scared of me ai yo scared of me i can get married already. Scared of me, later guys scared of me hahah:D:D:D. And prayer meeting from 4 to 5. Imagine how tired everyone must be??? To hold on through the whole 1 hour prayer meeting really needs a strong spirit. Yeah like what pastor says our flesh have to be weak and our spirit have to be strong but really our flesh is dead already. Right after prayer meeting I just lied on the chairs in MPR1 and sleep till 7. Then wake up and prepare for test, wash up. After the test is the last session with pastor How teaching us how to love people and the importance of loving people. He choose me and 2 other guys to go on the stage so he can know us better. Kind of pastor don't know me de really. I am really shivering even when it is not very cold it is scared. No kidding I am scared and is shivering right there in front of everyone. That is stage fright ba. I don't really think I am those quiet people just that there is too many people and some i really don't know that is why I am scared. I can get really loud ok haha:D Pastor say I can pray hahaha:D when pastor says that I really can.Thinking back it is kind of strange too, I never imagine myself in past. My CG and jamie will know this:D I think it is really a pain to get me to pray strong haha:D And the end to the AMT(A) is pastor's kind of emo writings on Romance, Spice and oil.
Romance
Vision without romance is just objectives and goals.
Vision inspires, but romance motivates
Vision takes you forward, but romance makes the process enjoyable
Spices (emotions)
God could have made man without emotions
But without emotions, Life would be bland, unexciting and clinical
Emotions are the colour of life.
Without emotions, we would be colour blind
Oil
relationships is the oil of the church
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The gold medal winner with no family to celebrate with or friends to rejoice with has won the wrong race.
The loser with family to cry with friends to hug is the real winner of the human race.

Heart Of God Church is not a purpose-driven church
But a love-driven church and a purpose-directed church.
The above is taken from pastor's Romance, spice and oil written in 9 January 2006.
I have stretch in this two days lets see the next half of mine friday.
Left church at 1130am cab home to bath and cab to school. Kind of rushing all the way. Having some english seminar stuff, totally knonk out in the bus to the city area where all the offices are. Sleep and sleep and sleep. I think I reach school at 12 plus so wendy and shu huey thought i overslept until then haha:D I think I slept lesser then you guys. The first session of the english seminar is on paper one me and Jorine really slept like we don't know what is happening so after sleeping so much...I felt a little high during the second session. After that went to bugis to buy fries the delicious fries in bugis junction the go back to church for BM and dinner. After dinner went someone house because someone is lock out of her house. Kind of really sad because it is the father that has been like this for quite sometime and especially it is those landed properties where the night can be very scary. She had been sleeping a night outside the house already. Really I am not kidding that it is really scary because the whole journey in and out had scared the guts out of me already.
*the above is confidential so no name is claimed
Tomorrow have to go meet en gong in tampines one because he is teaching me chemistry so must really thank this en gong and probably jogging in the morning first too:D
Went home eventually... 4 days to complete my research for AMT and send in and I can graduate soon!:D
Key:
AMT->Advance Ministry Training
Aunt told me this months back
Cross in Jesus time is the last thing anyone would ever want to carry or even hold. Once a cross is put up someone has to die. Only condemned people carry cross and once someone carry the cross, everyone looks down on that person. I guess we modern times people can never understand how it feels...
Starting to realise I had been spending alot of time slacking. I hate sitting there doing nothing, not productive at all so never ever make me do that I will blow up and leave I promise that ok!
Watch angel Vs Demons yesterday it is so good! Went jogging just now! Jog really really slowly for 15-16 rounds lost count in the middle so not very sure but sure more then I ever run. Actually watch passion for christ the second time with Jorine and Wanting kind of learn something from it this time but definately slightly more clever this time because roughly know where the painful parts are so try to leave or something like this to avoid seeing it:D Have to clear my chem workbook before going to school tomorrow so have to better get going to do it but it is really dificult because I wasn't in class when teacher is teaching so shall use my own power now. Want to blog a special topic today but suddenly felt that it is not the time yet so ...another day ba:)

Didn't go school yesterday so after seeing the doctor went to meet xueni to bring her go cut hair in Serangoon. After cutting her hair we went to eat $1.50 chicken rice then went to mac to use internet. We took some photos there and later went to my house and continue. Thanks to http://cameroid.com/snap.php for all the photos:D
On MC today...
Got to make my body stronger man whole day here pain there pain. going study with xueni later...have lots of work to do so must bring painkiller.
ARGH!!! Freaking angry today!!! first day of school angry already! go some stupid rehersal waste my freaking time ended up me and peitian was sleeping there for one hour!!! Doing nothing!!! And I am broke enough and yet left my ODT while packing my bag last night and paid the cheapskate school $1 just to take temperature! And had some stupid lesson in school feeling pain everywhere! My freaking ulcer is pain enough already! Can't even smile can now still stomache!!!! Argh when will the pain go lar! I study with them around to add on to it is my freaking monday headache!!! I am just popping painkiller the whole day!
Was talking to my NDP guides friend...found out that they have not had holiday at all...for the past 4 weeks has been like normal school lesson for them in Brodrick Sec. And also got to catch up with Vivian Poh on the second week of June where she came to me church for CHC morning prayer meeting. Also found out that their school are having normal school lessons for them one the first week and last week of the school holiday so they also only have 2 weeks holiday. As for me...actually I have spent 4 weeks of holiday because one the first week even when there are lessons I didn't go so it is almost holiday too. Imagine 4 weeks holiday...it is the same as the other levels...maybe primary school kids are having to go back to school more then me...like my cousins, they are going back to school about twice a week for all the school holidays weeks. Time to get back to my school routine...school holidays officially end now for me. Anyway through this 4 weeks holiday I have made lots of decision in my heart and one of those that I can say is that I decided that once my olevel result comes out and I don't get A1 for english by the beginning of next year I am going Ngee An Poly bio medical course because I don't want to torture myself with chinese and GP in JC. And if I can't do well for english now I won't be able to make it for GP for sure. Anyway definately I am well satisfy with my holiday, especially today when Pastor Joakim preach on Others. Well, what about a changed heart for me, a heart for others:) New Gen meeting was great too, probably everyone are feeling hard too...as for me, after we stop fasting for peicai for 2 months...during this 2 months was hard...doesn't want to think about anything...I guess I know why pastor Joakim comes every half a year, to recharge everyone to bring our faith up and motives us to go go go for our schools once again, it really came at the right time I felt...next two month is our double!!!
Anyway everywhere everyone is puting up " I am a christian, ask me why" on facebook and twitter
Today drained me quite abit though...last night stayed up till 3 plus 4...because we had telephone prayer meeting, rather weird but I don't think I would like such a thing because once it is conference we can't here each other well and most of the time conferences drag. Technology isn't so advance that we can talk like normally over the phone like face to face yet. Sleep wasn't effective, keep thinking of things, my mind worked overtime...tired yet too bothered by all the things on my mind to sleep soundly. Well reach church at 11 plus for summer programme. Finally get to see Clarrie again!!! Soon after summer programme ended first session started. Pator Joakim's services really cannot miss one! Shall not put down what impacted me here...kinda personal right and I am not a person that share my heart de...:P Help up cafe in between the two session and sold 50 boxes of fried rice...prayer at the end of the second session ended today with a bang! Really annoying can...mummy PMS daddy MAC!!!! Irritating!!! It is always like this...very sudden de lo...something to add on to my blues... anyway abi was lucky to be H1N1 negative...her class have 10 confirm case already...but if she fall sick this few days then....hahahaha I can get quarantine too...not me but probably the whole church. It isn't a big deal actually...H1N1 is just like any other common flu, just that it is more contagious, I doesn't kill like SARS. Tomorrow is the last day!!! Going home right after service...need some sleep to revive myself abit or else probably I will go school like a walking Zombie hahahaha:D Kind of actually I feel that I am falling sick soon...really not kidding...everytime I am about to fall sick, I will feel a little sick before that and it can actually last for one month before I really fall sick. Kind of I should study now because I have 8 hours plus plus to clear before tomorrow. Anyway guest speaker are in the queue for the next few weeks...it is going to be big time!!! Kent Munsey is coming, he is the son of the one who tear our church down a month plus ago...I guess his son would be even better because the next generation is always better and greater then the previous. AR bernard too.
Woke up at 9 plus thought I was late so rush rush rush but after I finish bathing then realise I still have alot of time...-.-then go slowly to discipleship class. Me and jeanette is sitting right infront of a fan so the two of us is shivering for the whole 1 one plus plus nearly 2 hours. Daniel's discipleship is really one of those I think we can learn alot from...really!!! And daniel is really not like what I have previously think...don't your think he look scary at first sight??? Cafe was crazy too...20 over boxes of Buffalo drumlet and Lasagne to sell off by today because it is expiring and today is the last day. I bet those people that brought will never have a chance to but is at such a cheap price really it is like $5-$4.50 things selling at $3.50 can??? Also just to finish selling everything cafe extended more than 1 hour opening time can??? Actually waiting for cherie to finish tuition so ate dinner alone in Kopitiam...really kopitiam left me alot, if one day church were to be going to shift out of Singapore Post Building I will not for get to visit there, I definatelly saw something no one sees naninanipooopooo don't tell you it is my secret(:

And another thing I shall laugh at ba.................that living corpe is dead!!!!!!!!!!! Of course he is the well known pop star Michael Jackson!!! Probably I am one of those that will have no feeling towards his death and maybe worst I will say NANINANIPOOOOOPOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heard this news from Daniel during discipleship class, he is probably pop star most famous in his era ba....but definatelly not my taste when someone can look so so so fake probably cutting himself everywhere before and poisoned his entire face with Botox!!! Kind of sound funny but probably that is the fact...
Went to cut my hair today! Shall not put here, see it for yourself when you see me ba:D
Studying today:D:D:D
123 more days to Olevel...nice number!
yewwww.......Was washing cookie's bottle when I saw some green green things in the bottle, kind of sad then worried. Really! Cookie has became part of me, so if she dies one day I sure sure will cry de...brought a new bottle for her, this bottle is bigger. Also brought a brush and more food(sure this time is better food). Finally ate some chilli beef cheese fries, great man!!! That is the best fries!!! Also got myself to start studying!!! Later getting back to work but I must study another 6-7 hours later before I sleep. Plan abit of my week just now, Plan that I shall study 7-8 hours a day including homework so once school reopen I guess I will most probably disappear from online...probably blogging once a week on weekends ba. Anyway 124 more days to Olevel got to chiong already. Anyway it is just 124 more days just work hard and don't regret ba...this number is sure to become smaller. Just wish that time could stop for awhile because once school reopens I have to go back to the busy stuff and everything, don't really like it...I don't really understand when everyone hopes school starts soon I am totally opposite I guess. I don't wish to go back to school, I don't wish to go back to class to see everyone again I don't know why just don't want. I wish I could study alone at home that it. I can, I really can I studied differentiation myself I just don't want to see people is school, meet people in school...even if MOE extends school vacation I am not at loss at all. Feel quite sad now man!!!
Went Cedar in the morning with Jerlyn Cherie and Wanting to give the sec 4 chocolate and sweets. They have started with prelims already!!! Mine have not finish teaching yet! The whole day really eat crap man and alot of food!!! First ate lor mee early in the morning opps. Cedar then two curry chicken when I got home then fries and coke when I reach bedok all these is only before noon. Then lunch at Clarrie's house but that is really nice:P and probably the healthiest today then later some soup and curry chicken in the evening and eventually ba chor mee for dinner. Cherie ask me to go bedok find Pollyna first because she is suppose to meet Clarrie at 10 when I reach there like 10 plus plus I called pollyna and guess what!?! she give me the sleepy sound and I knew it man!!! If I didn't call her she would have continued sleeping!!! Leaving me alone in a foreign place like Bedok!!! Met up with Clarrrie first and later Jerlyn came to the rescue!!!!! Went clarrie house first and we talk and she told us about her secondary it sounds so funny can:D:D:D Imagine in the middle of flag raising the the block of classroom everyone is facing including the principle, a guy suddenly went to the rooftop, took off his clothes and started dancing there??? I will be like super hilarious can!?! Played Game of life when Pollyna finally reach. Seriously...I think board games bonds people best!!! It is so fun! I won everyone, ending my "life" with 1.79 million so I was the richest when I am only a computer technician in the game Wahahahahahahaha:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Polly keeps spinning the wheel out so haha:D everytime they spins the wheel out I gets 50000 bucks hahahahaha:D Went for a 'fantastic' 3 round jogging session with cherie, Flavian, Walter, Mr wing and Wanting. Totally failed man!!! They are all not in jogging attire really Walter was the worst because he ran like 3 rounds in t-shirt and Jeans and plus the hot weather I might as well go crazy!!! Went Cherie's house later, everyone loves her dog but it smells quite badly de...but neverthelast it is still cute!!! Just reach home plan to probably study grom now till tomorrow morning then sleep only tomorrow morning or else I will never get things done.
Lifesong



Empty hands held high
Such small sacrafice
If not join with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You



Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You





Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You



Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You



Got a revelation from this song during one of the services last week:D Anyway really miss gabriel man didn't talk for a few days already...
And found something funny at home

...guess what grandma thought it was a really want so she unwrapped it hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahah:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D


Drag me to hell is scary! Went with mummy daddy and wanting but actually only daddy is watching...but probably that is the only show daddy would be most interested in the rest that are showing now is too boring for him. Wanting and me keep screaming when the old woman suddenly pops out (those who have watch it would know) when we were peeping. I am covering my face with a pillow and my hoodie while wanting and mummy behind their bag hahahahaha:D quite hilarious. The best part is that daddy says that it is not scary at all!?! Today is father's day so there was no service today, everyone are suppose to be accompanying their fathers yepp but hahaha:D me and wanting saw some shopping with friends:P Went shopping after that, finally get a pair of slippers...mine is badly torn can. And a new water bottle and a tank top plus 6 'telephone wire'. Kind of ended the day with a fantastic dinner to celebrate daddy's birthday with is tomorrow and father's day for him...shokudo is fantastic I am a great fan of that place, great food great atmosphere and customer service as good as customer service in Japan! Japan really have great customer service really! unlike Singapore! But Singapore is a great place too because what we are good at here may not be as good else where. It is impossible to find a prefect country but a fine country is good enough:) Tomorrow I am really going to sleep till my heart contents who cares about the prize presentation rehersal in school tomorrow. This morning daddy off my air-con-.- so angry man! You know how hot the weather is recently right argh!!!!! Decided that I shall love cookie more! so tomorrow is time to clean the cage for her(:
Just ended DEO camp. Wondering What is DEO??? Delicious Exciting Outrageous yepp. Also D zone E odds camp. Super tired. Didn't manage to bid farewell because last minute ask me to go down one night earlier for some briefing and preparing for the camp. Well everything went well, actually I am suppose to talk and build atmosphere but...haha:D Ended up that Adriena was the one helping to build atmosphere in the team-.-very tired can, can't help but complain...I will try not to the next time. Slept barely 2 hours on the extra night, 2 hours one the first actual night and 4 hours last night which was the last night for the camp. Imagine that...but definately the planning team slept lesser and felt more tired.
Are you happy that you:
-get to live
-get to eat
-know who your parents are
-get to study
-have friends
-have people to guide you
-know when your birthday is
-get to go shopping
-have shoes to wear
-have clothes to wear
-living in a urban city
-have pens to write with
-have books to read
-are being protected of
-are a human
-get to see
-get to experience day
-get to experience night
-have something to sleep on every night
-have light bulbs to use
-clocks and watches to know the time
-have fans to keep ourselves cool
-have music
-live after the discovery of basic science
-get to have medicine to eat when unwell
-people know what hygenic is
-standardised SI units
All these are better then:
-being dead
-no food to eat
-being orphans
-not allowed to study
-no friends existed
-no one to guide you
-don't know when you are born
-no shops existed
-no shoes to wear
-no clothes to wear
-living in the forest eating berries and grass
-writings are carve on stones
-no books to increase your knowledge
-no human rights
-being a animal
-being blind
-no day no night
-nothing to lie on to sleep
-no bulbs or even candle were created
-no clock no time
-no fans
-no music
-no science
-no mecidine, if fell ill is die for sure
-people eat shit without washing. Carrying out operation without washing hand.
-no proper measurement everyone buy unstandardised measurement of things.
Sometimes I really wonder if people now know what being grateful is. Sometimes when being in the mist of all the fun laughter and games, I forget about being grateful, going back and say thank you. Just like the 10 people with Leprosy, Jesus heal, only one came back to thanks him. Realise that most of the time I am like the other 9 which where healed but never whole, went off and celebrate but doesn't have gratitude. Little things in my life I can thanks for, why ask for more? This makes requests more unreasonable.
Bored tired can't concentrate. Argh...I can't study!
Rotting at home the whole day today. Didn't do anything productive...
So tired man! Mummy teaching me math half way I fell asleep and woke up to realise it is 9am the next day. Can't help man!!! Do you know that on monday early morning a woke up at 3 and can't fall asleep till 6 that was crazy can. Try to find people to talk to me but even those that sleep in the morning like 7 or 8 am also were long sleeping already. Apparently mummy can't interpret my test papers properly I got to tell her," It is not my basic it is after that!!!" like nearly 20 times point to her then she could see and realise it is really not my basic which is not there. Totally crazy. Never once did she teach me math that we don't have to 'fight' seriously...But anyway mummy almost went crazy when she found out that teacher haven't finish teaching all the Amath topic so she decided to teach me herself instead. I think she have long forgotten all the things. But...always she come out and teach me my results will go up like I don't know what, also don't know how she does that but she says that she get A1 for Amath so just let her do it...


Counted 131 more days to Olevel this is crazy man!!! My number is definately smaller then Pollyna's but just like her say say only I haven't started with real work yet!!!

The two nas digging out wanting's stitchers and messing up her bed. Wanting do you want this photo to give to Cherie Wahahahahahaha:D
aiyo late for cafe today man!!! just because I was stoning at home. AMT graduation today...haha...I passed Pollyna got like top in the entire 2nd batch AMT!!! RIJC...is RIJC standard haha:D Freaking hungry can at very little for breakfast then went for duty already and no money...but cherie brought me chicken rice for dinner when I was still at the cafe. Luckily have chicken rice!
Most of the zone camps are this week. It is just like recently that Dominic announce to us that there is going to be a D zone camp during the June Holidays and suddenly it is june holidays and zone camp in like end of the coming week.
Woke up very early today!!! Really can't sleep...that insomia thing is coming back again. So shall not waste time this time round I shall go jogging early tomorrow morning(: keep a healthy body and of course how will weiling jog just to want to have a healthy body...of course to lose some weight. Went orchard shopping with friends in the noon till afternoon before service. It is crazy can because Darren want to get his earpiece we ran into wheelock EPI to check if they have and ended up half an hour late for service...and it is troy marshall's service. Nevermind I got one word from god today...Patience! The word is patience. Everyone knows...one word from god is better then a thousand words. Wonder where will it be this time round. Can I tell you Weiling is freaking tired!!! I am tired everywhere! Just want to be alone, just want to stone. Warning ok don't try to disturb me or else...u are so dead!
Great man! Brought 4 tops and a pair of shoe and 5 hair band and a necklace in 1 and a half hour. My mom almost went crazy hahah:D She almost ask me to stand outside while she and wanting goes in to get and pay for something just because I buy things faster then they do and of course more!!! But seriously NET is a great place man!!! I will go back there more frequently!!! Those are my type of clothes really!!! Finally found a my type shop to buy my type clothes!!! As for DIVA I walk in there alot of times alone or with friends and see many things I want just waiting for one day to drag mummy in and pay for them Wahahahaha...
Finally have some clothes so it is time to clear the old ones I have for a long long time hahah:D
The clothes when I am very fat are gone long ago time for the clothes I wear when I am super skinny to go too anyway I can't fit into them already. Even though I have decided to start lossing weight but who cares let wait and see first ba then get new ones then.
Not to missed out today is mummy and daddy's 17th wedding anniversary plus wanting's 14 birthday. It doesn't sound like a wow wow to me anymore because every year it had been like this. mummy and daddy got married around 1 year plus plus before I was born so since I am turning 16 this year it would be a 16+1. Yepp:) Nothing much to celebrate either...they should spend the tiime together not with us...anyway they are spend their rest of their life together. Daddy now got hook onto a new free lance job..being a property agent. Crazy man! another property agent...enough craziness with the property agents who keep call my house day and night now...there is one at home. And people... never ask me about my sister because after 14 year knowledge of her I still can't understand her eg. I kick her very hard just to wake her up and she will not even give a single bit of reaction. I don't want to be like her so I train myself by setting the loudest ring tone for both msg and calls on my phone when I sleep so I will never fail to reply or give a reply call as immediately as I can react. Tomorrow going shopping again:)
Went Da Vinci exhibition. It is fabulous. He is a genious I can't imagine people in modern time being able to be so all rounded. He is a Artist, a Scientist, A musician, A inventor and A thinker. From drawing well known art pieces like the Art piece of the last supper to creating great war mechanics in his time and cutting open human body making notes out of his observation and coming out with human body proportion. And he is a born illegatimate which means that he is banned from studying law and Medical in his time and even basic schooling. Also went to the omni theater watch sea monster. Finally ended the day by watching Young Victoria. Fantastic life story of a princess which fight her way into getting to the throne even when her mom and another man tries to stop her. Ruling an empire at the young tender age of 18 when people feels and thinks that she is too young and inexperienced. But she still the longest ruler of europe in history. This shows that young people still can do get things even when they are young and inexperienced. Saw a even more inspiring quote on the way home: The attitude toward a difficult task determines the results.
Tomorrow is mummy and dadddy wedding anniversary and Wanting's birthday got to go dinner with them man!!! Had enough time with myself today already time to give my time in the rest of year away to people, school work and church. Time for some flesh killing again:D
Weird blogging in the morning. Maybe going science center later. Slept like 10 hours last night, feel like I just married to my bed haha:D joke from AMT because pastor preach about spirit man and Clara was like Pastor I sleep for 8 hours then pastor says that she should divource with her bed cos pastor only sleep 8 hours once a year or something like this:D haha should find a way to divource with my bed too...soon haha:D anyway school is opening soon can't sleep much either.
BUt serious I have to kill my flesh so my spirit can control my flesh. Just killed my flesh but the sleep revived it. Tell you what I kind of missed CHC morning prayer meeting that is why I can sleep so much. Last night someone msg me to talk to me but I am actually sleeping ARGH!!! Sorry people...


The first half of the day either I get discipled or I get into trouble and get discipled. Don't know what am I doing today. Kind of skin itchy keep doing weird things today. First get discipled by Jerlyn then by Colin because we did sonething too much to play with him and oops...he is angry. Kind of feel guilty after that. Sorry Colin sorry sorry sorry. Today is quite tired for me already. I confess that I dooze off during the morning prayer meeting. I also sleep in the afternoon when I was studying half-way. Slept less then 5 hours on sunday night and 2 hours plus last night only but anyway it will only last for this week. Haha:D at least I didn't fall asleep during worship session like Guo Xiang just now hahahahahahahahahaha:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Wahaha Edwin! Seems like there are more then one person that know that...doink doink wink wink haha:D
Went for prayer meeting reach there like 545am!!?! Aiyo is free ride why not. Help up with ushers went up for prayer meeting. This time HOGC have our own prayer list. But the prayer meeting is powerful. Flavian is like so so late man!!! He overslept and Walter spam call him 10 times. Met Vivian from GM guides. She is in CHC which I know through NDP. Missed her man! Soo long didn't see her already because the previous PM is in the school term she didn't come and I went but left when it just started. Went eat breakfast together she joined us:D And the Walter crazily crying (fake de) over the phone with Flavian because of what Flavian did to him and we are laughing our ass off!!! (just realise i had been using this quite alot man!!!) Did a super bad thing today to the KFC aunty. Feeling so guilty... Walter and Daniel gang up together trying to hook a tag that says $10 sales on my bag...so...haha:D how can weiling stop here wahahahahaha:D:D:D:D I took the tag and went to the audi where Colin is sleeping and put it above his head ahahahahahahaha I was like running all around the place then this guy saw me and say to me,"that day pastor just say you shy only now u running all over the place ha!" in a joking tone so I pull him to see what I have done and actually want to leave it like it is but he is even worst then me can!!! He say must take photo and put on facebook or else when Colin wakes up then it will be like nothing so he took a photo of colin sleeping with the sales tag planning to put on facebook. ARHHHH so evil!!! In the afternoon I was sleeping so well on the chairs, have blacket have pillow and a sweet dream dreaming of...haha:D secret, and someone actually wack my head to wake me up!!!! Arhhhh i want to hamtam the person!!! But actually the last staff (colin) is leaving so we have to leave. Aiyo! Went walk walk before going to some useless waste time tuition because it is a relieve teacher!!! Went jogging with Flavian and Walter. Ran only 4 rounds the people chase us out because they are closing the stadium already (by switching off all the lights). Met up with Jerlyn and Nichole, went to buy KOI bubbletea then sat down and talk. Just weigh myself today, seems like my weighing machine is back to normal so arhhh so heavy already man! OK! I am not eating for the rest of the week!
YAHAHA finally powerhouse on a school holiday!!! Don't have to step in and leave and be late for school. Naninanibooboo haha:D Nicole and Flavian have school. Arg...Darren is transferring out of our CG...actually we knew that this is coming but today is made official! Darren is going to D12! Sarine is so funny, she say she want to hamtam (beat up) D12's leader we tell her to think twice man!!! I think she might get crashed ba...no offence:P We keep shedding "crocodile tears" for darren, he is so sad but seriously we are sad that he is transferred out. He sometimes really bring joy to our CG, being crazy with us and everything. D10 is really crazy even the least expected Justin can be crazy too, I was so shock that day because he is those that look very clever look and quietly standing there looking like he is in deep thoughts and keep low profile those kind of people. Maybe it is us...the quietest people and the good kid people will all turn crazy with us.
Argg...kind of happy crazy then later emo...haven't been laughing alot like today ever since we started sec 3 because no crazy teacher to make me laugh so crazily and all the teachers now are all the seriously serious teacher no humor at all, laugh in class also get scolded. I love to laugh the way I laugh that is my own problem because that is me!
Siao already I really don't know what to do with myself! God spoke to me when we were in kopitiam (what a weird place) after that keep stoning through out the night, maybe I need some time alone. Went to crash Garrett's birthday celebration. The so call wonder boys are the funniest really! Me cherie flavian and walter had a sneak preview when we peep into MPR2 from alfresco yesterday but this time is from the front!!! Imagine 6 guys probably in their 18-20 already, Wearing so sport shorts those kind girls wear which is quite short dancing wondergirl's nobody (quite popular now) and no kidding, they can really shake we are laughing our ass off yesterday already but today...already say I am stoning already so even if it is funny I didn't laugh...:D but don't worry I will be fine after a sleep just need some thinking and see what I should do.
Suppose to go jogging but everyone KO except Nicholas and Flavian. Appearently Flavian called Alvina and Pollyna and the two of them 'kup'(hang up/ reject) his phone call haha:D so he also call me but this sleepy head didn't even hear my phone or know anything that someone is trying to call into my phone. Woke up at only 7.30, 1 hour late, so decided not to go already but what my mum told me is that daddy attempted to wake me up 6.30 but i told him that I don't want to go. That is what my mum say but when I wake up i totally have no idea or memory that I actually said that. Anyway just went back to sleep and only woke up at 9.30 because of the loud commotion mummy and Wanting is making. But luckily that woke me up because I am suppose to meet Roy and Tampines One at 11am so just jump out of bed and prepare bath and ran out of the house. But...haha we are still late together still...he is later haha:D:D:D Ate Carl's Jr spicy beef cheeze fries nice man! Roy is really super on organic chemistry teach then I understand already. I read so many times still don't understand but he explain then haha:D it is in my brain already:D:D:D. Later heard that Kelvin and friends actually work there but starts work at 3pm haha...but we left at 2pm...Saw a very unique bag today almost brought it be the shape doesn't fit me so didn't buy it. It look nice on the rack but ugly on me. Later he went uncle house I went church. Oh yeah heard that it is Dawn's birthday I not sure when but since they are celebrating for her tomorrow then I shall say a Happy Birthday Dawn!!!here. Pastor preach on Fight Of Faith. I don't want to be loveless, powerless and an unclear mind. So I must have faith so I can be loving, have power and of a sound mind:D:D:D
After service and dinner we went to give pastors something. A 'I am the Greatest Hero' thingy that we brought for pastor How sometime ago. And also...pastor Lia's mother day present and the essays we wrote for her. It is kind of late...no very late it is father's day already it should be getting pastor How a present because he is our spiritual father:D We got pastor lia a bear and she hold it up and say " I am the softest hero" and tell pastor how to wear underwear outside hahah:D we have really hilarious pastors. Pastor Lia is so shock to see the RJC foolscape paper we use to write her mother's day essay and the bear wearing the RJC teeshirt which she used to be in that house haha:D Hangout but know about people more and more. Walter is from CHC and actually he doesn't know about John 3:16 neither have anyone shared with him. So he is kind of confess if he have accepted Jesus into his life or not. So me Cherie and flavian kind of shared John 3:16 with him in 2 different way and Flavian's way is really interesting. The 4 of us saw some guys dancing Nobody-wonder girls for someone's birthday in church they preparing. They can really shake man! That dance is really funny for guys to dance and I am not kidding. We are peeping from outside room through the window and seriously we are laughing non stop and the people inside is laughing crazily too.Tomorrow going granny's house it is a must already or else mummy will kill me if I didn't because I have not gone there for like weeks probably a month plus plus already because of exams and everything. Sometimes kind of really don't feel like going there, I want to see grandma but not go her house, go there sure eat like pig! And realise that I have flabby arms today and spare tyre got to loss some weight already it is a must man! People that are once fat and slimmed down is very scared of gaining weight and getting fat de. Roy also...
Have to do the AMT research already due on tues!!!
Fabulous man! Never regreted attending for sure. Sorry I didn't mean to pon remedial but even if there isn't AMT I think I will pon remedial too. 5 sessions yesterday and one last session today in the morning before we are released. The whole training was rather eventful for me so must blog about it!!!
The night before thursday before going AMT, kind of study the night through trying to memorise the 24 bible verses before going because there will be a test on it. Really study like mad till 5 in the moring before going to sleep for one hour and wake up ready to go for my 1 and a half day continuous adventure. The whole AMT training started with a test, the 24 verses test I only manage to memorise 15 but I passed ok! Pollyna Lai got like the second in the whole batch can!?! The pass mark is like 30!?! But I passed quite well kind of what I expected because I got 50.5 marks but haha:D sadly wanting fail!!! Kind of she got 24 I think haha:D:D:D That is the difference between putting my sleep time to study and rather sleep first. After test is 2 session which lasted till lunch break. Really the main difference between BMT and AMT is the AMT really test on our teamwork and capacity and more of leadership training already. So for me really is stepping out of my comfort zone with my CG mates and spending the time with people I may not even know but they are all easy to talk and are leaders and potential leaders in church all my shi fu! Within mins since the start of lunch, we are already like years long friends. Surprisingly my team mates have 2 zone A people!!! Pastor How came and preach for the 4th session just before dinner break. He discipled the whole batch 2 AMT but it was really powerful
we can really feel and click with flow of the holy spirit. The last session is with Dominic really touch everyone, everyone is crying it is on building our own alter with god. What if one day the person you admire the most backslides and critise god will you too leave? This is the question. Can you imagine 5 pm on saturday not being in church what will u be doing? Can you imagine yourself in another church with a totally different culture from heart of god church? The culture in Heart of God church can be good but we can't say that there is totally no politics and thing we don't wish to see or hear that will happen because eventually we are all humans who are born sinners. Like what dominic say, I don't want to leave and backslide and eventually regret after 20, 30 or even when I turn 60 and one day come back to HOGC feeling the same presence of god realising that I have wasted my life away. I promise to never let anyone affect or control my walk with god. Studied after the long day for the test on the next day the John 3:16 test. Not easy ok sleep only passed midnight but bare slept for awhile, at 2 plus 3am yassy is playing drums right outside MPR1 and 2 where everyone is sleeping, Quite a joke right but we woke up to clean up the church in the middle of our sleeps really I see that when everyone is cleaning no one is fully awake it is super cold and I am practically shivering. Really was scared because never see yassy dressed like this before and the way she wakes us up kind of my team leader Elson told yassy that i am scared of her and she is like huh u scared of me ai yo scared of me i can get married already. Scared of me, later guys scared of me hahah:D:D:D. And prayer meeting from 4 to 5. Imagine how tired everyone must be??? To hold on through the whole 1 hour prayer meeting really needs a strong spirit. Yeah like what pastor says our flesh have to be weak and our spirit have to be strong but really our flesh is dead already. Right after prayer meeting I just lied on the chairs in MPR1 and sleep till 7. Then wake up and prepare for test, wash up. After the test is the last session with pastor How teaching us how to love people and the importance of loving people. He choose me and 2 other guys to go on the stage so he can know us better. Kind of pastor don't know me de really. I am really shivering even when it is not very cold it is scared. No kidding I am scared and is shivering right there in front of everyone. That is stage fright ba. I don't really think I am those quiet people just that there is too many people and some i really don't know that is why I am scared. I can get really loud ok haha:D Pastor say I can pray hahaha:D when pastor says that I really can.Thinking back it is kind of strange too, I never imagine myself in past. My CG and jamie will know this:D I think it is really a pain to get me to pray strong haha:D And the end to the AMT(A) is pastor's kind of emo writings on Romance, Spice and oil.
Romance
Vision without romance is just objectives and goals.
Vision inspires, but romance motivates
Vision takes you forward, but romance makes the process enjoyable
Spices (emotions)
God could have made man without emotions
But without emotions, Life would be bland, unexciting and clinical
Emotions are the colour of life.
Without emotions, we would be colour blind
Oil
relationships is the oil of the church
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The gold medal winner with no family to celebrate with or friends to rejoice with has won the wrong race.
The loser with family to cry with friends to hug is the real winner of the human race.

Heart Of God Church is not a purpose-driven church
But a love-driven church and a purpose-directed church.
The above is taken from pastor's Romance, spice and oil written in 9 January 2006.
I have stretch in this two days lets see the next half of mine friday.
Left church at 1130am cab home to bath and cab to school. Kind of rushing all the way. Having some english seminar stuff, totally knonk out in the bus to the city area where all the offices are. Sleep and sleep and sleep. I think I reach school at 12 plus so wendy and shu huey thought i overslept until then haha:D I think I slept lesser then you guys. The first session of the english seminar is on paper one me and Jorine really slept like we don't know what is happening so after sleeping so much...I felt a little high during the second session. After that went to bugis to buy fries the delicious fries in bugis junction the go back to church for BM and dinner. After dinner went someone house because someone is lock out of her house. Kind of really sad because it is the father that has been like this for quite sometime and especially it is those landed properties where the night can be very scary. She had been sleeping a night outside the house already. Really I am not kidding that it is really scary because the whole journey in and out had scared the guts out of me already.
*the above is confidential so no name is claimed
Tomorrow have to go meet en gong in tampines one because he is teaching me chemistry so must really thank this en gong and probably jogging in the morning first too:D
Went home eventually... 4 days to complete my research for AMT and send in and I can graduate soon!:D
Key:
AMT->Advance Ministry Training
Aunt told me this months back
Cross in Jesus time is the last thing anyone would ever want to carry or even hold. Once a cross is put up someone has to die. Only condemned people carry cross and once someone carry the cross, everyone looks down on that person. I guess we modern times people can never understand how it feels...
Starting to realise I had been spending alot of time slacking. I hate sitting there doing nothing, not productive at all so never ever make me do that I will blow up and leave I promise that ok!
Watch angel Vs Demons yesterday it is so good! Went jogging just now! Jog really really slowly for 15-16 rounds lost count in the middle so not very sure but sure more then I ever run. Actually watch passion for christ the second time with Jorine and Wanting kind of learn something from it this time but definately slightly more clever this time because roughly know where the painful parts are so try to leave or something like this to avoid seeing it:D Have to clear my chem workbook before going to school tomorrow so have to better get going to do it but it is really dificult because I wasn't in class when teacher is teaching so shall use my own power now. Want to blog a special topic today but suddenly felt that it is not the time yet so ...another day ba:)

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